Magick Without Tears

322 MAGICK WITHOUT TEARS tenant was coming in on the first of July. We had four days in which to amuse ourselves; and we let ourselves go for a thorough good time. Thus like a thunderbolt comes the incident of June 28, thus described in my diary: Glory be to Nuit, Hadit, Ra-Hoor-Khuit in the Highest! A little before midday I was impelled mysteriously (though exhausted by playing fives, billiards, etc. till nearly six this morning) to make a final search for the Elemental Tablets. And lo! when I had at last abandoned the search, I cast mine eyes upon a hole in the loft where were ski, etc., and there, 0 Holy, Holy, Holy! were not only all that I sought, but the manuscript of Liber Legis. The ground was completely cut away from under my feet. I remained for two whole days meditating on the situation-in performing, in fact, a sort of supplementary Sammasati to that of 1905. Having the knack of it, I reached a very clear conclusion without too much difficulty. The essence of the situation was that the Secret Chiefs meant to hold me to my obligation. I understood that the disaster and misery of the last three years was due to my attempt to evade my duty . I surrendered unconditionally , as appears from the entry of July 1. lance more solemnly renounced all that I have or am. On departing (at midnight from the topmost paint of the hill which crowns my estate) instantly shone the moon, two days before her fullness, over the hills among the clouds. This record is couched in very general terms, but it was intended to cover the practical point of my resuming the task laid upon me in Cairo exactly as I might be directed to do by my superiors. Instantly my burden fell from my back. The long