322 
MAGICK WITHOUT TEARS 
tenant was coming in on the first of July. We had four days 
in which to amuse ourselves; and we let ourselves go for a 
thorough good time. Thus like a thunderbolt comes the 
incident of June 28, thus described in my diary: 
Glory be to Nuit, Hadit, Ra-Hoor-Khuit in the Highest! 
A little before midday I was impelled mysteriously 
(though exhausted by playing fives, billiards, etc. till 
nearly six this morning) to make a final search for the 
Elemental 
Tablets. And lo! when I had at last 
abandoned the search, I cast mine eyes upon a hole in 
the loft where were ski, etc., and there, 0 Holy, Holy, 
Holy! were not only all that I sought, but the 
manuscript of Liber Legis. 
The ground was completely cut away from under my feet. 
I remained 
for two whole days meditating on the 
situation-in 
performing, in fact, a sort of supplementary 
Sammasati to that of 1905. Having the knack of it, I reached 
a very clear conclusion without too much difficulty. The 
essence of the situation was that the Secret Chiefs meant to 
hold me to my obligation. I understood that the disaster and 
misery of the last three years was due to my attempt to evade 
my duty . I surrendered unconditionally , as appears from the 
entry of July 1. 
lance more solemnly renounced all that I have or am. 
On departing (at midnight from the topmost paint of 
the hill which crowns my estate) instantly shone the 
moon, two days before her fullness, over the hills among 
the clouds. 
This record is couched in very general terms, but it was 
intended to cover the practical point of my resuming the task 
laid upon me in Cairo exactly as I might be directed to do by 
my superiors. 
Instantly 
my burden fell from my back. The long