Diary of a Drug Fiend

First did 269 night’s rest, you are giving it to a more or less healthy person refreshed by sleep; it is able to stimulate you because your sleep has given you some reserves of force on which it can work. When you take it at night, you are administering it to a sick person, which is a very different thing. However, what you should do is to replace it at night by these tablets, with a nice warm drink of whisky or rum and water, and you will find yourself asleep before you know it. Then in the morning, you awake much fresher than usual, and the heroin will have something more to catch hold of. The result of this will be that you will find quite a small quantity do you as much good as a big one did last week, and more.” - Well, all that seemed pretty sensible tome. We took his advice. We did not go to sleep at once. I felt my thoughts too varied. They wandered from one thing to another without reasonable sequence. There seemed to be gaps of unconsciousness between two sets of thoughts ; but eventually the irritation subsided, and I knew no more till the morning. We woke very late, completely exhausted. But as Lamus had prophesied, the heroin took hold immediately ; the first two doses made us lively, and with the third we were out of bed and having a bath for the first time in—I’m ashamed to say how long. Lou fell into a rage at the condition of our underwear, and of our outer clothes, too, for the matter of that. It was all soiled and dirty and stained. We must literally have stunk. And with the realisation of this came an acute feeling of disgrace that we should have been going about with Lamus and Lala in such a condition. If they had said anything about it to us, we might have worked up an artificial indignation about it. But that they should have said nothing was absolutely damnable. We could not tolerate the idea of ourselves. And yet, only forty-eight hours before, nothing mattered at all. ,