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night’s rest, you are giving it to a more or less healthy
person refreshed by sleep; it is able to stimulate you
because your sleep has given you some reserves of force
on which it can work. When you take it at night, you
are administering it to a sick person, which is a very
different thing. However, what you should do is to
replace it at night by these tablets, with a nice warm
drink of whisky or rum and water, and you will find
yourself asleep before you know it. Then in the morning,
you awake much fresher than usual, and the heroin will
have something more to catch hold of. The result of
this will be that you will find quite a small quantity
do you as much good as a big one did last week, and
more.” -
Well, all that seemed pretty sensible tome. We took
his advice. We did not go to sleep at once. I felt my
thoughts too varied. They wandered from one thing
to another without reasonable sequence. There seemed
to be gaps of unconsciousness between two sets of
thoughts ; but eventually the irritation subsided, and
I knew no more till the morning.
We woke very late, completely exhausted. But as
Lamus had prophesied, the heroin took hold immediately ;
the first two doses made us lively, and with the third
we were out of bed and having a bath for the first time
in—I’m ashamed to say how long.
Lou fell into a rage at the condition of our underwear,
and of our outer clothes, too, for the matter of that.
It was all soiled and dirty and stained. We must
literally have stunk. And with the realisation of this
came an acute feeling of disgrace that we should have
been going about with Lamus and Lala in such a
condition. If they had said anything about it to us,
we might have worked up an artificial indignation
about it. But that they should have said nothing
was absolutely damnable.
We could not tolerate the idea of ourselves. And
yet, only forty-eight hours before, nothing mattered
at all. ,