Book 4 (Part II)

91 remarked that even among the CathoUcs the wafer has always been marked with a phallus or cross. (Note by Soror Virakam.) (Nearly midnight. At this moment we stopped dictating, and began to converse. Then Fra. P. said: "Oh, if I could only dictate a book like the Tao Teh King!" Then he closed his eyes as if meditating. Just before I had noticed a change in his face, most extraordinary, as if he were no longer the same person; in fact in the ten minutes we were talking he seemed to be any number of different people. I especially noticed the pupils of his eyes were so enlarged that the entire eye seemed black. (I tremble so and have such a quaking feeling inside, simply in thinking of last night, that I can't form letters.) Then quite slowly the entire room filled with a thick yellow light (deep golden, but not l)rilliant. I mean not dazzling, but soft). Fra. P. looked like a person I had never seen but seemed to know quite well —his face, clothes and all were of this same yellow. I was so disturbed that I looked up to the ceiling to see what caused the light, but could only see the candles. Then the chair on which he sat seemed to rise; it was like a throne, and he seemed to be either dead or sleeping, but it was cer- tainly no longer Fra. P. This frightened me, and I tried to understand by looking round the room; when I looked back the chair was raised,