91
remarked
that
even
among
the
CathoUcs
the
wafer
has always
been
marked
with
a phallus
or cross.
(Note by Soror Virakam.)
(Nearly midnight.
At
this
moment
we
stopped
dictating,
and began
to converse.
Then
Fra.
P. said:
"Oh, if I
could
only
dictate
a book
like
the Tao Teh King!" Then
he
closed
his
eyes
as if meditating.
Just
before I had
noticed
a change
in
his
face, most
extraordinary,
as
if he were no
longer
the
same person;
in
fact
in
the
ten
minutes
we
were
talking
he
seemed
to
be
any
number
of
different
people.
I
especially
noticed
the pupils
of his eyes were so enlarged
that the entire
eye seemed black.
(I tremble
so and have such a quaking
feeling inside,
simply
in thinking of last night,
that I can't
form
letters.)
Then quite
slowly
the entire
room
filled
with
a thick yellow
light
(deep golden,
but
not
l)rilliant.
I
mean
not
dazzling,
but
soft).
Fra.
P.
looked
like
a
person
I
had
never
seen
but
seemed
to know quite
well —his
face,
clothes
and
all
were of this
same
yellow.
I
was so disturbed
that I
looked
up to the ceiling
to see what caused the light, but could
only
see
the candles.
Then the chair
on which
he sat seemed to rise;
it was
like
a throne,
and he seemed
to be
either
dead
or
sleeping,
but it was
cer-
tainly
no longer
Fra.
P.
This
frightened
me, and I tried
to understand
by looking
round
the room;
when I looked
back
the chair
was raised,