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1954 · PDF PAGE 149

Magick Without Tears

… answered me: He shall not see the reward; he tendeth the garden. And I said: What shall come unto him? And he said: This thou canst not know, nor is it revealed by the letters that are the totems of the stars, but only by the stars. And he says to me, quite disconnectedly: The man of earth is the adherent. The lover giveth his life unto the work among men. The hermit goeth solitary, and giveth only of his light unto men. And I ask him: Why does he tell me that? And he says: I tell thee not. Thou tellest thyself, for thou hast pondered thereupo…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 464

Magick Without Tears

EDUCATION 431 irritates children more than the arbitrary "because I say so." Nobody knows why the alphabet has the order which we know; it is quite senseless. One could construct a much more rational order: e.g. the Mother, the Single and the Double letters, all in the natural order of the elements, planets and signs. Again, we have the "Missionary" Alphabet, arranged "scientifically" as Gutturals, modified ditto, Dentals, Labials, vowels and so on ; a most repulsive concoction! But I would not accept any emendation from the God Thoth himself; …

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1922 · PDF PAGE 282

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…ve it entirely alone for some hours before you go to bed, so that the sedative effect may send you nicely to sleep at the proper time. I know the objection to that. The abuse of the drug has left you full of nervous irritability. The reason why you want heroin at night is to deaden yourself to that. When you take it in the morning after a

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1922 · PDF PAGE 364

Diary of a Drug Fiend

… hazard a guess, however, your wife’s discovered what her own will is, and has gone off to do it.” “Qh, damnation,” said I. “‘ Here, you know, I say I can’t allow that sort of thing!” The Big Lion turned his sternest gaze upon me. “Now, Sir Peter,” he said incisively, ‘ pull yourself together. You've only just discovered your own will, and you naturally want to be let alone to do it. And yet, at the very first opportunity, you butt in and want to interfere with your own wife doing hers. Let me tell you point-blank that it’s none of your busines…

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1938 · PDF PAGE 23

The Heart of the Master

…the Light of the Chart of the Work of the Brotherhood,” I said, “the Will of the Master, and His Word, are made plain. But of His hour I know not; and I tremble before the darkness of this Mystery of Sin.” “Of his hour,” answered my teacher, “it is easy to speak. The Work of our Sister Helena Petrovna Blavatsky was inaugurated at the very season of the Birth on Earth of our Brother the Master whose Word is Thelema, whose Name is yet hidden under the form of a Lion. For it was most needful to prepare His Way that He might proclaim His Law in eve…

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1996 · PDF PAGE 37

The Law is for All

…” “Energized Enthusiasm,” Book 4, Part III, etc. [See Works Cited.] 34. But she said: the ordeals I write not: the rituals shall be half known and half concealed: the Law is for all. Commentary: The Ordeals are at present carried out unknown to the Candidate by the secret Magick Power of The Beast. Those who are accepted by Him for initiation testify that these Ordeals are frequently independent of His conscious care. They are not, like the traditional ordeals, formal, or identical for all; the Candidate finds himself in circumstances which aff…

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1904 · PDF PAGE 31

The Sword of Song

…baccy17 and my tea. He taught me Y, he taught me Z, He made strange noises in my head. He taught me that, he taught me this, He spoke of knowledge, life, and bliss. He taught me this, he taught me that, He grew me mangoes in his hat18 I brought him corn : he made good grist of it :— And here, my Christian friend, ’s the gist of it ! First, here’s philosophy’s despair The cynic scorn of self. I think At times the search is worth no worry, And hasten earthward in a hurry, Close spirit’s eyes, or bid them blink, Go back to Swinburne’s19 counsel ra…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 380

The Equinox (Volume I, Number I)

… of myself, but curiosity is stronger than shame. The carrier-pigeons have fled back to him with my word of honour. I was too anxious to know more about the Man-Cover, and my duty as a reporter has made me forget the moral ideas painfully inculcated unto me by a life of hard experience and severely-paid-for mistakes. Scratch the man, you will find the beast. I must admit this has proved true for me also. It is the last time that I let my own personality come between the readers and the wickedly mad hero of history, and I apologise for this intr…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 380

The Equinox (Volume I, Number II)

… of myself, but curiosity is stronger than shame. The carrier-pigeons have fled back to him with my word of honour. I was too anxious to know more about the Man-Cover, and my duty as a reporter has made me forget the moral ideas painfully inculcated unto me by a life of hard experience and severely-paid-for mistakes. Scratch the man, you will find the beast. I must admit this has proved true for me also. It is the last time that I let my own personality come between the readers and the wickedly mad hero of history, and I apologise for this intr…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 281

Diary of a Drug Fiend

First Aid 267 We drove back to London, and had tea on the way in a cottage where the people seemed to know our friends very well. It was kept by a little old man and his wife who had the air of being family retainers. The cottage stood well away from the road in grounds of its own. Two mighty yew trees stood one on either side of the gate. Lala told us that the place belonged to the Order of which King Lamus was the head, and that he occasionally sent people down here for certain parts of his training which could only be carried out in solitude…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 283

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…to replace it at night by these tablets, with a nice warm drink of whisky or rum and water, and you will find yourself asleep before you know it. Then in the morning, you awake much fresher than usual, and the heroin will have something more to catch hold of. The result of this will be that you will find quite a small quantity do you as much good as a big one did last week, and more.” - Well, all that seemed pretty sensible tome. We took his advice. We did not go to sleep at once. I felt my thoughts too varied. They wandered from one thing to a…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 318

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…e tablets for two and a little H. to sweeten them. And you've missed your lunch! That’s too bad. We'll have an old-fashioned high tea. I know there’s some- thing to eat in the coal scuttle or somewhere, and Lala can cook something while I make the buttered toast. You sit down and talk and make your plans for honey- moon number eight, or whichever it is. And don’t get in my way, because I’m going to be a very busy man. In fact, it’s rather lucky that I’ve acquired the habit of starting for three years’ trips around the world at three minutes not…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 332

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…lain it. “Thank you for reminding me,” said Sister Athena. “The Big Lion said you had better rest. Suppose you lie down in the studio. I know you don’t want to go to sleep, but we can talk there just as well as we can here. So you’d better make yourselves comfortable while I explain our funny little ways.” The arrangements for repose were as primitive as everything else. The studio was furnished with narrow mattresses on steel springs on the floor. They were covered with comfortable cushions. We threw ourselves down with a certain hesitation; b…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 29

Magick Without Tears

…be sanctimonious, other-worldly or guru-like, but deals with abstruse problems easily, without being afraid to say occasionally "I don't know." One is impressed by his honesty and forthrightness. There is no other writer on this subject today who can hold a candle to him.

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1929 · PDF PAGE 347

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…rdeal, however severe, is not much use in genuine initiation. A man can always more or less brace himself up to meet a situation when he knows that he is on his trial. A man might have a certificate of ability to swim half a mile; and yet be utterly unable, for a dozen different reasons, to save a friend from drowning when the need arose. Of course it sounds totally impossible to administer ordeals of the real kind required, but I found by experience that I did not even have to give the matter a moment's thought. My magical self took complete c…

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1905 · PDF PAGE 239

Collected Works (Vol. I)

…ss. me, love! Kiss TANNHAUSER. Ah, but the waking! As [ sink to sleep >illowed in nuptial arms —so fresh and cool— (Yet in their veins I know the fire that runs Racing and maddening from the crown of flame, The monolithic core of mystical Red fury that is called a woman’s heart) Sinking, I say, from the supreme embrace, The Good-night kisses; sinking into sleep-— What dreams betoken the dread solitude? VENUS. What dreams? Ah, dreamest not of me, my knight ? Of vast caresses that include all worlds? Of transmutation into molten steel Fusing with…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 272

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…was making experiments with it myself, how I would go out with the intention of keeping away from the stuff all day, and how, without my knowing it, I took advantage of ali sorts of little incidents that cropped up to get back to the studio some hours before I had intended. I found myself out at once, of course, having learnt some of the tricks of the mind. And I sat and watched myself finding excuses for starting in. One gets into an absolutely morbid state, in which everything that happens has some bearing on the question, ‘Shall I or shall I…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 23

Magick in Theory and Practice (Section 1)

…cts are sensitive to certain physical forces, such as electrical and thermal conductivity ; but neither in us nor in them — so far as we know — is there any direct conscious perception of these forces. Imperceptible influences are therefore associated with ail material phenomena; and there is no reason why we should not work upon matter through those subtle energies as we do through their material bases. In fact, we use magnetic force to move iron, and solar radiation to reproduce images.) (14) Man is capable of being, and using, anytbing which…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 6

The Stratagem and Other Stories

…this man took a pleasure in the glint of the sun on the steel, and he forbade that man to clean his spade. A trifle, indeed. What do you know of what pris- oners think of trifles? The man went raving mad, and for no other reason. It seemed to him that such de- tailed refinement of cruelty was a final proof of the in- nate and inherent devilishness of the universe. Insanity is the logical consequence of such a faith. No, sir, I will spare you the description.” Bevan thought that there had already been too much description, and in his complacent …

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1954 · PDF PAGE 186

Magick Without Tears

…se you expect a cable next Friday week, transferring cash to your account. You need $500 to make up an important payment , and you don't know whether they will send even $200. What are you going to do about it? Skimp, and save your expenses, and make yourself miserable and incapable of vigorous thought or action? You may succeed in saving enough to swing the deal; but you won't get a penny beyond the amount actually needed - and look at the cost in moral grandeur! No, go and stand yourself a champagne luncheon , and stroll up Bond Street with a…

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