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1922 · PDF PAGE 43

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…ore sniff of that Snow. I’d show her!” At that moment she threw me off as if I had been a feather. I felt myself all of a sudden no more good. Quite unaccountably I had collapsed, and I found myself, to my amazement, knocking out a little pile of cocaine from a ten-gramme bottle which had been in my trousers’ pocket, on to my “and, and sniffing it up into my nostrils with greedy relish. Don’t ask me how it got there. I suppose Gretel Webster must have done it somehow. My memory is an absolute blank. That’s one of the funny things about cocaine.…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 306

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…gland, remember!” I wasn’t deceived by any of the nauseating humbug of the scoundrel, but it was evident that his proposal was a genuine good thing. The Schneezugchemischewerke had been paying well enough in the ordinary way when he bought them. I determined to sell the necessary securities and take over the shares. My state of mind was exceedingly complex. My reasons for the purchase were not merely various but mutually exclusive. For one thing, the

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1954 · PDF PAGE 40

Magick Without Tears

…Law. Thank you for your long letter of no date, but received two days ago. I am very sorry you are still feeling exhausted. I am not too good myself, for I find this weather very trying. I will answer your various points as best I can. I am arranging to send you the official papers connected with the O.T.O. but the idea that you should meet other members first is quite impossible. Even after affiliation, you would not meet anyone unless it were necessary for you to work in co-operation with them. I am afraid you have still got the idea that the…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 178

Magick Without Tears

… consider it best, in view of your complete ignorance as to who he is and where you are, to assume the god-form of Harpocrates, as being good defence in any case; but of course this will not take you very far. If you are sufficiently curious and bold,

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1922 · PDF PAGE 117

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…act that it was not an act of necessity which made it an act of piety. In the same way, I cannot say that the dose did us any particular good. It was at once a routine and a ritual. It was a commemoration like the Protestant communion, and at the same time a consecration like the Catholic. It reminded us that we Were heirs to the royal rapture in which we were afloat. But also it refreshed that rapture. We noticed that in spite of the Alpine air, we did not seem to have any great. appetite for breakfast, and we appreciated with the instantaneou…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 233

Moonchild

…ll never capture Paris. Why, the man is actually of plebeian origin!" "After dinner — but only then — such observations are in perfectly good taste. Proceed!" "I am not joking in the least, General. Von Kluck will not be allowed to try to capture Paris." "It is at least curious that he is marching straight upon the city!" "Only to thin out our line, sir. Do you observe that the Germans have driven a salient to St. Mihiel?" "I have. What of it? " "The object, sir, I submit, is to cut off Verdun from the South." "Yes?" "Why Verdun? Because the Cr…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 84

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… be allowed to leave by the front door. The door was opened by a young and beautiful woman in fashionable evening dress. She appeared of good social position and, on his explaining himself, asked him to sty to supper. He accepted. No servants appeared, but on reaching the dining-room --- which was charmingly furnished and decorated with extremely good pictures, Monet, Sisley and the like, with sketches or etchings by Whistler, all small but admirable examples of those masters --- he found a cold supper for two people was laid out. Eckenstein re…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 118

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

118 Mexico City was full of American professional gamblers and confidence men. I saw a good deal of two of these; a lank grey Yankee named McKee and his genial jackal Wilson, or some such name. After a few days' acquaintance Wilson approached me with the following proposal. It appeared that the manager of a mine near St. Luis Potosi had stolen a quantity of gold dust. He had got scared and dared not bolt. Wilson thought that if we offered him a thousand dollars, each putting up half, he would be willing to hand over the compromising sacks, valu…

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1906 · PDF PAGE 119

Collected Works (Vol. II)

…e prophet meant Mere transference of the crown. his saying To daze the children — fools theyare ! So mask Evil beneath the waxen face of Good, Trick out Calamity in robes of Luck— Come, children! Is the sun bright? your eyesP I have found it. I'll twist And ALCESTIS. Dear queen, all’s well with us. Such happi- ness Crowds daylight—even sleep seems sorrow- ful, Though bright with dainty dreams ! FIRST DANAID. But you are sad ! MEDEA. I meditate the ancient prophecy. Thus a foreboding is upon my heart, Seeing some danger follow yet, o’erhang Our …

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1910 · PDF PAGE 124

The Equinox (Volume I, Number III)

…taste of chocolate; this proved extremely difficult; and after this the ticking of a watch. This proved easier, and the result was quite good; but there was a tendency to slow up with the right ear, which however was easy to test by approaching a watch against the ear.”§ During this whole period of rough travel, work is fatiguing, difficult and uncertain. Regularity is impossible, as regards hours and even days, and the * The Akasic egg of spirit set between the Pillars of Mercy and Severity with a ray of light descending upon it from Kether. +…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 124

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IV)

…taste of chocolate; this proved extremely difficult; and after this the ticking of a watch. This proved easier, and the result was quite good; but there was a tendency to slow up with the right ear, which however was easy to test by approaching a watch against the ear.”§ During this whole period of rough travel, work is fatiguing, difficult and uncertain. Regularity is impossible, as regards hours and even days, and the * The Akasic egg of spirit set between the Pillars of Mercy and Severity with a ray of light descending upon it from Kether. +…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 280

Diary of a Drug Fiend

… could hardly do anything else. As a matter of fact, the fresh air had excited in us both a very keen appetite. The meal did us a lot of good, and at its conclusion our host slipped out unostenta- tiously and returned in ten minutes with a little packet of powder. It struck me as very extraordinary that he should have been able to procure it at so remote a place without a prescription. But Lou’s eyes were fixed on him with an expression of delighted curiosity. I felt as though somehow or other she had divined the secret. She seemed intensely am…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 369

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…esides which I had my own work to do preparing the books of instruction on a special and scientific basis. Besides this, I was writing a good deal of poetry. Some of my most important work belongs to this period. "The Wizard Way", "the Garden of Janus", "After Judgment" and "Bathyllus" are especially notable. I was seeing a good deal of Frank Harris, who was publishing much of my best work in Vanity Fair. It was the first encouragement I had ever had, and in a way it came too late, since I was already entirely disillusioned with regard to fame.…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 157

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…hism for at least ten minutes by the clock. When he found the snake was sufficiently impressed he nodded pleasantly and went off with a "Good day, brother krait!" Some men would take this anecdote as illustrating fearlessness; but the true spring is to be found in compassion. Allan was perfectly serious when he preached to the snake, though he was possibly a better man of science than a good many of the stuck-up young idiots who nowadays lay claim to the title. I have here distinguished between fearlessness and compassion; but in their highest …

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1954 · PDF PAGE 521

Magick Without Tears

…e's that Book of Lies? Ah, here we are. "It is chance, and chance only, that rules the Universe; therefore , and therefore only, life is good." Then, is it mere fatuity and folly to make plans? Was not the IXth Atu, the Hermit, also at one time called "Prudence"? Of course . Abstract philosophy rarely coincides with common-sense. We should plan as carefully as we can; but we should always allow a margin for every conceivable accident . Nor should we trust to luck, like England, when she goes to war. Bret Harte has an admirable story "The Outcas…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 58

Konx Om Pax

…olving the subject. What he would care about was whether or no his answer showed that he was thinking as a sceptical philosopher. If so, good. This brings us—how subtly !—to a statement which I do not wish to support by proofs. I imagine that he who is able to receive it will receive it. This is Truth, that one should be concerned with one’s own busi ness, and with nothing else whatever. If I enter thy laboratory, 0 Fellow of the Institute of Chemistry, who protestest that thou dost aspire to the Great White Brotherhood, and demand of thee, “ W…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 54

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…n of the trouble. I was out of gas. My mind shot back with a vivid flash of hatred toward King Lamus. ‘A case of indiscretion!’’ He'd as good as called me a fool to my face. I thought of him as the sea, shaking with derisive laughter. All the time I had been chuckling over my dear old squad commander. Not a great flyer, am I? This will show him! And that was true enough. I was incomparably better than I had ever been before. And yet I had omitted just one obvious precaution. I suddenly realised that things might be exceedingly nasty. The only t…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 153

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…ples, and life in general. The spirit of adventure was dead—as dead as the spirit of love. We had just enough moral courage after a very good lunch at Gambrinus, to make up our minds to get out of the entire beastly atmosphere. Our love had become a mutual clinging, like that of two drowning people. We shook hands on the definite oath to get back to England, and get back as quick as we could. . I believe I might have fallen down even on that. But once again Lou pulled me through. We got into a veittura and took our tickets then and there. We we…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 28

Magick Without Tears

…trictly classical, and admitted only the "Publication in Class A," "A-B," ''E,'' and "D" material. But I had the idea that it would be a good plan to add all sorts of other stuff, so that people who were not in any way interested in the real Work might preserve their copies . ... "They" [the Secret Chiefs of the Order / . . . were agreed on measures calculated to assure the survival of the Wisdom worth saving until the time, perhaps three hundred or six hundred years later, when a new current should revive the shattered thought of mankind. The …

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1954 · PDF PAGE 302

Magick Without Tears

…ll is either a dilettante, a crook, or a B.F. If you could get the B.F.'s to understand the very elementary mathematics set forth above, good-night to

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