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1929 · PDF PAGE 574

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…a thief and only she had the opportunity in most of the cases. The insane element was manifest; she stole for stealing's sake. She stole things that she could not have sold for sixpence. I suspect that part of her complex was that she enjoyed the annoyance caused by the theft. Betty once out of the way, Sheila told me a string of the most stupid lies I ever heard, each absurd and incompatible with known facts in itself, and in contradiction with the rest of her remarks. She then proceeded to lock up all the rooms and hide all the keys on ridicu…

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1919 · PDF PAGE 148

The Equinox (Volume III, Number I)

…ntence remaining unspoken. I never before noticed how unneces- sary some of our speech is; in fact I have now no doubt that a great many things are better left unsaid. Monday, Jan. oth. Bedtime. Said word to-day for the first time at Lunch. I. at 1.20 P.M. Lunch. 1. at 2.25 P.M. at Office. 2. at 4 PM. { Was careless enough to repeat a sentence containing it. Gave extra sharp cut. I. at 5.10 P.M. I. at 5.30 P.M. Total 6 I am glad this shows further improvement. I was working and talking at the Office all the evening up to 10 o’c. and then had so…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 54

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…ough. I was incomparably better than I had ever been before. And yet I had omitted just one obvious precaution. I suddenly realised that things might be exceedingly nasty. The only thing to be done was to shut off, and volplane down to the straits. And there were points in the problem which appalled me. Oh, for another sniff! As we swooped down towards the sea in huge wide spirals, I managed to extract my bottle. Of course, I realised instantly the impossibility of taking it by the nose in such a wind. I pulled out the cork, and thrust my tongu…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 153

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…ype of humanity, and as often as not bought various harmless powders at an exorbitant price, and that at the risk of blackmail and other things possibly worse. But the need of the stuff drove us relentlessly on. We ultimately found an honest dealer, and got a small supply of the genuine stuff. But even then we didn’t seem to pick up. Even large doses did hardly more than restore us to our normal, by which I mean, our pre-drug selves. We were like Europe after the war. The worst and the best we could do was to become utterly disgusted with ourse…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 315

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…she was taking a very wrong view of the matter. He told her that when people are getting over drug-habits they were liable to say and do things entirely foreign to their characters. We all know how abundantly you have shown your courage and your sense of honour. We know your race, and we know your exploits. What happened at the interview with Mr. Platt didn’t count. You were a sick man. That was all. Maisie suggested that she should go round and fetch you ;; and thank heaven she got there in time!”

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1907 · PDF PAGE 83

Konx Om Pax

…ourable toil. There are those whose lives are rendered wretched by the fear of infection; they see bacteria of the deadliest sort in all things but the actual solutions of carbolic acid and mercuric chloride with which they hysterically combat their invisible foemen; such would I send to live in the bazaar at Delhi, where they shall haply learn that dirt makes little difl'erence after all. “There are slow men who need a few months’ experience of the bustle of the stockyards; there are business men in a hurry, and they shall travel in Central Asi…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 177

The Equinox (Volume I, Number III)

…ht, and said. Further he said: “Let me abandon these follies of poesy and Vamacharya (“debauchery,” ze, normal life) and health and vain things and let me put in some work.” 22nd. Began Suddhi and “ Namo Shivaya Namaha Aum.” to.1g-11.15 A’sana, Pranayama. Nine minutes 10, 20. 30. am. am. Dharana on nose ten minutes. 5.55-6.25, Pranayama. Four minutes: 10. 20. 30. p.m. p.m. Pranayama. Ten minutes: 10. 20. 30. Prandyama. One of 30. 15. 60. twice. Two such consecu- tively quite out of the question. 9.12-9.45 Pranayama. Twelve minutes. 10. 20. 30. …

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1910 · PDF PAGE 177

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IV)

…ht, and said. Further he said: “Let me abandon these follies of poesy and Vamacharya (“debauchery,” ze, normal life) and health and vain things and let me put in some work.” 22nd. Began Suddhi and “ Namo Shivaya Namaha Aum.” to.1g-11.15 A’sana, Pranayama. Nine minutes 10, 20. 30. am. am. Dharana on nose ten minutes. 5.55-6.25, Pranayama. Four minutes: 10. 20. 30. p.m. p.m. Pranayama. Ten minutes: 10. 20. 30. Prandyama. One of 30. 15. 60. twice. Two such consecu- tively quite out of the question. 9.12-9.45 Pranayama. Twelve minutes. 10. 20. 30. …

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1922 · PDF PAGE 331

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…said, ‘‘ Sister Athena is our chief psychologist. You will find her knowledge very useful to you and your work. I will leave her to talk things over with you for the next couple of hours. But, of course, the first thing is to get you rested from your journey.” He got up and walked off round the corner of the house. We didn’t feel that we needed rest, we were much too interested by the atmosphere of the place.

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1922 · PDF PAGE 348

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…s of tilled land, the distant hillsides with their fairy-like remoteness, the level plain of the sea, the receding coast line; all these things were so many witnesses of one great truth— that only by climbing painfully to a spot beyond human intervention, could one obtain a stable point of view from which to regard the Universe in due pro- portion. At once we drew the moral analogy to our physical situation, and applied it to our immediate problem. Yet, in spite of what Lamus had said, we were both obsessed by the idea that we must stop taking …

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1954 · PDF PAGE 416

Magick Without Tears

…all be with him at noonrise on the hirteenth of next month. Sorry he's a friend of yours; but to one knows better than you do that these things can't be telped." Mohammed set off sadly for Bassorah. Indeed, as the days 'assed, the incident preyed upon his mind, until at last he esolved to risk the breach of professional confidence and V'arn his friend. He sent accordingly a letter of condolence nd farewell. But Isaak was a man of action. Prompt and stealthy, on he day appointed he saddled his best horse and so passed hrough the silent streets o…

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1996 · PDF PAGE 94

The Law is for All

…mer Night’s Dream. So then we laugh at the mock woes of Pyramus and Thisbe, the clumsy gambols of Bottom; for we understand the Truth of Things, how all is a Dance of Ecstasy. 1 [A Midsummer Night’s Dream v, 1.]

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1907 · PDF PAGE 84

Konx Om Pax

…of their country shall be called the Synagogue of Satan, so as to keep themselves from the friendship of the fools who mistake names for things. There shall be masters of the Synagogue, but they shall never seek to dominate. They shall most carefully abstain from inducing any man to seek the Tao by any other way than that of equilibrium. They shall develop individual genius without considering whether in their opinion its fruition will tend to the good or evil of their country or of the world; for who are they to interfere with a soul whose bal…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 82

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…’s one thing to hear a thing and another to go through it yourself.” _ ‘* Experience is the only teacher,” admitted Feccles. ‘ All these things are perfectly all right, but the main thing is to go slow at first, and give yourself a chance to learn the ropes.” All this time Haidée had been sitting there like a statue. She exhaled a very curious atmosphere. There

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1954 · PDF PAGE 57

Magick Without Tears

…arnation," you would not be so likely to be a little Martha, worried "about much serving." Don't get surfeited with knowledge, above all things; it is so very fascinating , so dreadfully easy; and the danger of becoming a pedant-"Deuce take all your pedants! say I." Don't "dry-rot at ease 'till the Judgment Day." No, I will NOT recommend a book. It should not hurt you too much to browse on condensed hay (or thistles) such as articles in Encyclopedias . Take Roget's Thesaurus or Smith's Smaller Classical Dictionary (and the like) to read yoursel…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 106

Magick Without Tears

… form of existence is exempt from sorrow. Huxley says, in his Evolution and Ethics, "Suffering is the badge of all the tribe of sentient things." The philosophers of this School, seeking, naturally enough, to amend the evil at the root, inquire into the cause of this existence which is sorrow, and arrive immediately at the 'Second Noble Truth' of the Buddha: "The Cause of Sorrow is Desire." They follow up with the endless concatenation of causes, of which the final root is Ignorance. (I am not concerned to defend the logic of this School: I mer…

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1911 · PDF PAGE 45

The Vision and the Voice

… wheel, I cannot see them. But at the top seems to be the Lamb and Flag, such an one sees on some Christian medals, and one of the lower things is a wolf, and the other a raven. The Lamb and Flag symbol is much brighter than the other two. It keeps on grow- ing brighter, until now it is brighter than the wheel itself, and occupies more space than it did. It speaks: I am the greatest of the deceivers, for my purity and innocence shall seduce the pure and innocent, who but for me should come to the centre of the wheel. The wolf betray- eth only t…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 93

Diary of a Drug Fiend

… moment when her natural protector, myself, was physically unable to apply the necessary what-you- may-call-it. Well, of course, the way things were at the moment, I wished Feccles in the place that modern Christianity has decided to forget. But the least I could do was to ask him to lunch. But before I had time to put this

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1922 · PDF PAGE 180

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…l it by the way I am writing this entry. I have a quiet impersonal point of view. I have got back my sense of proportion. I can think of things consecutively and I feel physically much stronger, but I’ve got very sleepy again... . Joy! Cockie has just come in full of good news. He looks fine—as fine as he feels. He had a sample from a pediar he met in the Wisteria. It’s absolutely straight stuff. Pulled him round in a second. There are two of them in it; the man with the dope and the sentry. They talk business in the lavatory, and if another ma…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 321

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…s poems in the world, is lost. But there are the shepherds saluting each other to-day as they did then. MANTA PEI said Heracleitus, ‘all things flow.’ And everything that tries to escape that law, that relies on its strength, that becomes nigid, that endeavours to calla halt, is broken up by the irresistible waves of time. We think steel stronger than water; but we cannot build a ship to resist its

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