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1904 · PDF PAGE 39

Snowdrops from a Curate’s Garden

…ge upon that flabby doodle-sack : but the champion pizzle- skinner of the World was not to be toyed with by a boy of not yet eight years old ! The mouth thank- less swallowed all my hoarded spendings and asked, shrieked, yelled, for more. On the sixteenth day I was feeling weak toward morning, and the [37]

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1906 · PDF PAGE 12

Collected Works (Vol. II)

…The flame-tongue of passion Is lambent and strong; In mystical fashion Sucks sweetness from shade, As the voice of thy song Give me the golden trumpet In the halls of the dead, Blown at the judgment-day, Closing the gate of mercy Over the Cast Away. Melt me its gold to money, Coin me that small, small ring Stamped with the Hoof of Satan, Bearing the name of King. Then, in the murky midnight, Silently lead me down, Down into Hell’s dark portals, Far in the West of Town. Then to the shrieks of devils Writhing in torments keen, Sing me the song th…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 48

Collected Works (Vol. III)

…w. God do so to me and more also if I look at a woman again, What a fool I have been ! GLENSTRAE. Ah, my boy, you will keep clear of the old ones, [know. (Zzd¢er a footman.) These blinds down ! (Zhe maz obeys.) But a tasty little morsel like your Molly—your first love. —Eh, my lad? There; there, don’t be angry ! Srr PERcY. You disgust me. [Zhe footman turns to go. Pshaw ! GLENSTRAE (0 footian). Wait ! (Zo Sir Percy.) Would you tell her sor Sir PERcy. If I deigned speech. GLENSTRAE. fora moment. (Lait servazt.) After which I shall leave you for …

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1922 · PDF PAGE 281

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…drove back to London, and had tea on the way in a cottage where the people seemed to know our friends very well. It was kept by a little old man and his wife who had the air of being family retainers. The cottage stood well away from the road in grounds of its own. Two mighty yew trees stood one on either side of the gate. Lala told us that the place belonged to the Order of which King Lamus was the head, and that he occasionally sent people down here for certain parts of his training which could only be carried out in solitude and silence. A g…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 318

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…ieces, and no wonder. White tablets for two and a little H. to sweeten them. And you've missed your lunch! That’s too bad. We'll have an old-fashioned high tea. I know there’s some- thing to eat in the coal scuttle or somewhere, and Lala can cook something while I make the buttered toast. You sit down and talk and make your plans for honey- moon number eight, or whichever it is. And don’t get in my way, because I’m going to be a very busy man. In fact, it’s rather lucky that I’ve acquired the habit of starting for three years’ trips around the …

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1954 · PDF PAGE 480

Magick Without Tears

…t you, too, Master, have not you too led a life as strange, as glamourous, as weird and as romantic, as the best of them? Then why this cold detachment from that ambience?" Well, if you put it like that, I can only say that I feel at the same time more guilty and entirely innocent! For, while the charge is true, the defence is not to be shaken. The worst of all teachers are the Boloney Magnates, of whom I have already given some account. But the next worst are just exactly those who try to create an atmosphere of romance, and succeed only in a …

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1904 · PDF PAGE 85

Why Jesus Wept

…would say an habitual reader of the ‘ Daily Mail ’ watching nobility at lunch. In front of the board, around the table, are several dear old ladies and gentlemen, a beautiful, overdressed, languid woman, some oilily lousy, lop- eared, leprous, lack-brained, utterly loathsome tradespeople who gurgle and grin, and a sprinkling of horny-handed sons of toil, very shiny. Above, with an olive-branch in one hand and a copy of the ‘ Daily News ’ in the other, floats Mr. G. K. Chesterton in the position Padmasana, singing ‘ Beneath the Cross of Jesus ’ …

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1910 · PDF PAGE 133

The Equinox (Volume I, Number III)

…ed as we physical beings are. Then the images of my vision sped past me rapidly. I saw a mountaineer; my father preaching with me in his old home; my mother; his mother; a man doing Rajayoga on white god-form. At last a wave of pale light, or rather of a silky texture passed through and over me; then one of the strange inhabitants passed through me unconscious of me, and I returned. Golden Dawn symbol. 14m. Three breaks. May 8th. Position 1. 22m. Seven breaks, Calvary Cross. 50m. Did I go to sleep? 11th. Designed Abrahadabra for a pantacle.* 12…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 133

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IV)

…ed as we physical beings are. Then the images of my vision sped past me rapidly. I saw a mountaineer; my father preaching with me in his old home; my mother; his mother; a man doing Rajayoga on white god-form. At last a wave of pale light, or rather of a silky texture passed through and over me; then one of the strange inhabitants passed through me unconscious of me, and I returned. Golden Dawn symbol. 14m. Three breaks. May 8th. Position 1. 22m. Seven breaks, Calvary Cross. 50m. Did I go to sleep? 11th. Designed Abrahadabra for a pantacle.* 12…

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1996 · PDF PAGE 46

The Law is for All

…be the adorant, Isa the sufferer; Hoor in his secret name and splendour is the Lord initiating. Commentary: This verse declares that the old formula of Magick — the Osiris-Adonis-Jesus-Marsyas-Dionysus-Attis- et cetera formula of the Dying God—is no longer efficacious. It rested on the ignorant belief that the Sun died every day, and every year, and that its resurrection was a miracle. The Formula of the New £on recognizes Horus, the Child crowned and conquering, as God. We are all members of the Body of God, the Sun; and about our System is th…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 63

Diary of a Drug Fiend

… met a girl in Paris, half a Red Indian, a lovely baby with the fascination of a fiend and a fund of the foulest stories that ever were told. She lived on cocaine. She was a more or less uneducated girl; and the way she put it was this: ‘I’m in a long, lovely garden, with my arms full of parcels, and I keep on dropping one; and when I stoop to pick it up, I always drop another, and all the time I am sailing along up the garden.” , So this w4s Gretel’s letter. “My DariinG Lou,—I could not begin to tell you the other day how delighted I was to se…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 223

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…that most of the people we see walking about, and eating and drinking and dancing, are really dead— ‘dead in trespasses and sins,’ as my old uncle used to say—in the sin of not knowing themselves to be Stars, True and Living Gods Most High——’’ | I sighed with sadness. I, too, was a dead soul—and I had given up the Lord of Resurrection that morning out of loyalty to another dead soul. And—the same afternoon! Faugh! what a charnel-house Life is! How chill and damp and poisonous is the air! How the walls sweat the agony of the damned! “And look at…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 208

Moonchild

…ter in her charge: for Cremers had the great gift of inspiring confidence. This daughter was being educated in a convent in Belgium. The old woman immediately telegraphed for her, and presented her to Douglas with the compliments of the season. Nothing could have been more timely or agreeable. She was a gentle innocent child, as pretty and charming as he had ever seen. It was a great point in the game of the astute Cremers to have pleased the sorcerer; and she began insensibly to gain ascendancy over his spirit. He had at first suspected her of…

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1904 · PDF PAGE 32

The Sword of Song

…as much for your Three As they do for their One ? I have seen—may you see ! They sleep and know not what a mat is ; Seem to enjoy their cold chapaties ;* Are healthy, strong—and some are old. They do not care a damn24 for cold, Behave like children, trust in Allah ; (Flies in Mohammed’s spider-parlour !) They may not think : at least they dare Live out their lives, and little care Worries their souls—worse fools they seem Than even Christians. Do I dream ? Probing philosophy to marrow, What thought darts in its poisoned arrow But this ? (my wis…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 333

Magick Without Tears

…operties of water, and let him perceive ultimately through all this the necessity and concord of things, not concord as the schoolmen of old believed, making all things for man's benefit or convenience, but the essential mechanical concord whose final law is inertia. And in these meditations let him avoid as if it were the plague any speculations sentimental or fantastic . Second Method-The Practice Proper. Having then perfected in his mind these conceptions, let him apply them to his own career, forging the links of memory into the chain of ne…

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1996 · PDF PAGE 166

The Law is for All

…pit upon them! 43. Let the Scarlet Woman beware! If pity and compassion and tenderness visit her heart; if she leave my work to toy with old sweetnesses; then shall my vengeance be known. I will slay me her child: I will alienate her heart: I will cast her out from men: as a shrinking and despised harlot shall she crawl through dusk wet streets, and die cold and an-hungered. 44. But let her raise herself in pride! Let her follow me in my way! Let her work the work of wickedness! Let her kill her heart! Let her be loud and adulterous! Let her be…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 130

Diary of a Drug Fiend

… there was Feccles turning to me in a sort of limp, helpless protest, imploring me to put my foot down about it. So I said, ‘“‘ Feccles, old top, you’re the right sort. I always liked you at school, and I shall never forget what you've done for me these last thirty or forty years or whatever it is we've been in Capri, and Lloyd George can trust you to nip that blighter you're after, why shouldn’t I trust you to see us through this fun at the Gatto Fritto? ” Lou clapped her hands, screaming with merriment, but Feccles said :— “Now, that’s all ri…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 212

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…-zags. I took a taxi to the doctor’s. Doctor Collins, it was, 61 or 71 Fairelange Street, Lambeth. I found him at home; a horrid, snuffy old man with shabby clothes; a dingy grimy office as untidy as himself. He seemed disappointed at my story. It wasn’t his line, he said, and he didn’t want to get into trouble. On the other hand, he was frightened of me because of what I knew about Billy. He promised to do what he could; but under the new law, he couldn’t do more than prescribe ten doses of an eighth of a grain apiece. Four or five sniffs, the…

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1930 · PDF PAGE 57

Magick in Theory and Practice (Section 3)

…e Book, giving a double meaning to many passages. A third 31 is the compound letter ShT, the two hieroglyphs of Sh and T (many centuries old) being pictures of the “Dramatis Personæ” of the Book; and ShT being a haphazard line scrawled on the MS. touch letters which added to 418, valuing “this circle squared in its failure” as tc correct to six places of décimais, etc. Again: “thou shalt know not”, meaning “thou shalt know LA”; and “he shall discover the Key of it ail”, id est, the Key AL. (c) His power to combine subséquent events beyond the c…

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1996 · PDF PAGE 168

The Law is for All

…ppose that this verse supports the historicity of “Jesus.” “Jesus” is not, and never was, a man; but he was a “god,” just as a bundle of old rags and a kerosene tin on a bush may be a “god.” There is a man-made idea, built of ignorance, fear, and meanness, for the most part, which we call “Jesus,” and which has been tricked out from time to time with various gauds from Paganism, and Judaism. The subject of “Jesus” is, most unfortunately, too extensive for a note; it is treated fully in my book 888.1 1 [See Jesus: The Gospel According to St. Ber…

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