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1922 · PDF PAGE 199

Diary of a Drug Fiend

… at the table, lost to all sense of actuality. He cried in a shrill, cracked voice :— ‘** Her cranial dome is vaulted, Her mad Mongolian eyes Aslant with the ecstasies Of things. immune, exalted . Far beyond stars and skies, Slits of amber and jet——” I heard him across abysses of aching inanity. A thrill of Satanic triumph tingled in my soul, and composed a symphony from its screams. I leapt with lust to recognise myselfin the repulsive Phantasm pictured by the poet. :

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1907 · PDF PAGE 116

Konx Om Pax

…l adore it age by age; to these shall it give lust and force, Absolve their spirits of remorse, and make them sage among the sage. “ lts eyes shall gleam when Borgia goes simpering to her stallion, Her hair bedecked, her jewels on—to please her neighing, champing spouse. “ It shall smile loose on Katherine wallowing in the mire of blood, Her lovePs’cold congealing flood paying their silly hour of sin. “ Salammbo mated with an asp shall shudder at its leering face, And kiss the gilded lips, and lace her serpent in a closer clasp. “ It shall inspi…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 114

The Star in the West

…!”! When lo !-in the very moment of his supreme despair , his Genius mysteriously manifests , and “ darting long rugged fingers and deep eyes ” reaches to the sceptre with his word and will : Buds , roses , blossoms ! Lilies of the Light ! Bloom , bloom , the fragrance shed upon the air ! Out flames the miracle of life and love ! Out, out the lights ! Flame , flame , the rushing storm ! Darkness and death , and glory in my soul ! Swept , swept away are pope and cardinal, Palace and city ! There I lay beneath The golden roof of the eternal stars…

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1913 · PDF PAGE 422

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IX)

…od ; she trembles in every limb. “No,” said she, ‘no; He frightens me ; I will not look at Him.” “Look at Him, I wish it.” She opens her eyes, her pupils expand; she is terrifying. “What do you see?” “T should not know how to say it. . . . Oh for pity’s sake awaken me!” 124

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1913 · PDF PAGE 422

The Equinox (Volume I, Number X)

…od ; she trembles in every limb. “No,” said she, ‘no; He frightens me ; I will not look at Him.” “Look at Him, I wish it.” She opens her eyes, her pupils expand; she is terrifying. “What do you see?” “T should not know how to say it. . . . Oh for pity’s sake awaken me!” 124

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1907 · PDF PAGE 38

The Star in the West

…t of an anthem : I rose within the elemental ball, And lo ! the Ancient One of Days did sit ! His head and hair were white as wool . His eyes A flaming fire : and from the splendid mouth Flashed the Eternal Sword ! Lo ! Lying at his feet as dead , I saw The leaping - forth of Law : Division of the North wind and the South , The lightning of the armies of the Lord ; East rolled asunder from the rended West ; Height clove the depth ; the Voice begotten said : “ Divided be thy ways and limited ! ” Answered the reflux and the indrawn breath : “ Let…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 36

The Equinox (Volume I, Number I)

… should be practised until the figures drawn appear in flame, in flame so near to physical flame that it would perhaps be visible to the eyes of a bystander, were one present. It is alleged that some persons have attained the power of actually kindling fire by these means. Whether this be so or not, the power is not one to be aimed at. 3. Success in “banishing” is known by a “feeling of cleanliness” in the atmosphere; success in “invoking” by a “ feeling of holiness.” It is unfortunate that these terms are so vague. But at least make sure of th…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 36

The Equinox (Volume I, Number II)

… should be practised until the figures drawn appear in flame, in flame so near to physical flame that it would perhaps be visible to the eyes of a bystander, were one present. It is alleged that some persons have attained the power of actually kindling fire by these means. Whether this be so or not, the power is not one to be aimed at. 3. Success in “banishing” is known by a “feeling of cleanliness” in the atmosphere; success in “invoking” by a “ feeling of holiness.” It is unfortunate that these terms are so vague. But at least make sure of th…

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1911 · PDF PAGE 155

The Equinox (Volume I, Number V)

…, though In the meantime—oh, be a Devil!" The younger man divined the infinite love and wisdom beneath the brusquerie of the Brother. His eyes filled with tears. “ I'll win her, sir, by God I " he said enthusiastically. “Lose yourself to her. Only so. Off now, boy! I am busy. I must twiddle—twiddle—twiddle." Edgar bowed and went. He could not trust himself to speak: the Love that was the whole being of the Brother melted the snow of his soul. He loved. Not Ida, not the world, not anything. It was pure love, love without object, love as love is in…

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1911 · PDF PAGE 155

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VI)

…, though In the meantime—oh, be a Devil!" The younger man divined the infinite love and wisdom beneath the brusquerie of the Brother. His eyes filled with tears. “ I'll win her, sir, by God I " he said enthusiastically. “Lose yourself to her. Only so. Off now, boy! I am busy. I must twiddle—twiddle—twiddle." Edgar bowed and went. He could not trust himself to speak: the Love that was the whole being of the Brother melted the snow of his soul. He loved. Not Ida, not the world, not anything. It was pure love, love without object, love as love is in…

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1913 · PDF PAGE 404

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IX)

…aw them to him. It can take all the forms evoked by thought, and, in the transitory coagulations of its radiant particles, appear to the eyes; it can even offer a sort of resistance to the touch. But these manifestations and uses of the plastic medium being abnormal, the luminous instru- ment of precision cannot produce them without being strained, and there is danger of either habitual hallucination, or of insanity. Q. What is animal magnetism ? A. The action of one plastic medium upon another, in order to dissolve or coagulate it. By augmenti…

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1913 · PDF PAGE 404

The Equinox (Volume I, Number X)

…aw them to him. It can take all the forms evoked by thought, and, in the transitory coagulations of its radiant particles, appear to the eyes; it can even offer a sort of resistance to the touch. But these manifestations and uses of the plastic medium being abnormal, the luminous instru- ment of precision cannot produce them without being strained, and there is danger of either habitual hallucination, or of insanity. Q. What is animal magnetism ? A. The action of one plastic medium upon another, in order to dissolve or coagulate it. By augmenti…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 110

The Star in the West

…s , warp his body round With your entangling leprosy ! And me , Let me assume the belovéd limber shape , The crested head , the jewelled eyes of death , i Tannhäuser , vol . i, p . 234 .

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1909 · PDF PAGE 110

John St. John

…e mighty flood of the Chittam is again rolling its tremendous tide toward the sea—the Sea of annihilation. Amen. Returning home, with his eyes fixed on the supreme glory of the Moon, in his heart and brain invoking Adonai, he hath now entered into his little chamber, and will prepare all things for the due performance of the New Ritual which he hath got by heart. Nearly ready. In a state of very intense magical strain—anything might happen. 9.48. Washed, robed, temple in order. Will wait until 10 11.5. 108 o’clock and begin upon the stroke. O.M. …

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1912 · PDF PAGE 114

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VII)

…areless. Dr. F. Yes, yes. A bit ofa {right is the very thing to do one good. [Eider ΜΠ Stanley, his lmz'r 614/”?!!!ששa wild [00/5 in his eyes. He does not see Mrs. Bob (md Jane, who are?וש L. at one/é ofstage, but addresses Dr. Fielding, who 2": at tab/e.] W. S. I say, dec., it's all up. Dr. F. Nonsense. Cheer up, old son. It's never as bad as Dr. Bob makes out. W. S. Yes; I'm finished. God! but this will break up the mother. Dr. F. Then you mustn’t tell her. W. S. I’m not going to. But she’ll guess. Mothers seem to feel things. Look here, dec.,…

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1912 · PDF PAGE 114

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VIII)

…areless. Dr. F. Yes, yes. A bit ofa {right is the very thing to do one good. [Eider ΜΠ Stanley, his lmz'r 614/”?!!!ששa wild [00/5 in his eyes. He does not see Mrs. Bob (md Jane, who are?וש L. at one/é ofstage, but addresses Dr. Fielding, who 2": at tab/e.] W. S. I say, dec., it's all up. Dr. F. Nonsense. Cheer up, old son. It's never as bad as Dr. Bob makes out. W. S. Yes; I'm finished. God! but this will break up the mother. Dr. F. Then you mustn’t tell her. W. S. I’m not going to. But she’ll guess. Mothers seem to feel things. Look here, dec.,…

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1919 · PDF PAGE 421

The Equinox (Volume III, Number I)

…ously said, patience here implies rather self-control, a refusal to accept even favours until one is ready for them. 33. Close not thine eyes, nor lose thy sight of Dorje (the Svastika);Méra’s arrows ever smite the man who has not reached Vairaga. 99

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1922 · PDF PAGE 249

Diary of a Drug Fiend

… from the north tower. I climbed to the balustrades and gasped, and slid myself, sitting, from step to step. I was almost blind, too. My eyes seemed unable to focus on anything. | But the moment I saw what had happened, my strength came back to me, at least, not my strength but the strength of nature. It flowed through me like the wind blowing through a flimsy ragged curtain. The cartridges were very old, and the powder must have lost its strength; for the bullet turned on his breast bone and ran round the ribs. It was really a trifling wound; …

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1922 · PDF PAGE 288

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…ve with silence as we drowse; Melt we our souls, hearts, senses in this shrine, Vague languor of arbutus and of pine!” “ Half-close your eyes, your arms upon your breast ; Banish for ever every interest ! The cradling breeze shall woo us, soft and sweet, Ruffling the waves of velvet at your feet.” “When solemn night of swart oaks shall prevail Voice our despair, musical nightingale ! ”’ The exquisite images, so subtle and yet so concrete, filled my mind with memories of all my boyhood’s dreams. They reminded me of the possibilities of love and …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 28

The Stratagem and Other Stories

side. “What is it, Magdalen?” he cried, anxiety in every word. I closed my eyes. “Make gestures!” said I. (He was directly between me and the sun.) He obeyed, wondering. “You are——you are”——I stammered——“no! I don't know what you are doing. I am blind!” He sawed his arm up and down. Useless; I had be- come absolutely insensitive. We repeated a dozen ex- periments that night. All failed. We concealed our disappointment, and it did not cloud our love. The sympathy between us grew even subtler and stronger, but only as it grows between all men and…

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