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1954 · PDF PAGE 40

Magick Without Tears

INTRODUCTION 7 Letter C April 30, 1943 Cara Soror, Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law. Thank you for your long letter of no date, but received two days ago. I am very sorry you are still feeling exhausted. I am not too good myself, for I find this weather very trying. I will answer your various points as best I can. I am arranging to send you the official papers connected with the O.T.O. but the idea that you should meet other members first is quite impossible. Even after affiliation, you would not meet anyone unless it were necess…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 74

The Equinox (Volume I, Number III)

… darkness, that shines in yonder sun as in the moon, the fire and the lightning. Thus the Atman little by little came to be known and no longer believed in; yet at first it appears that those who realized it kept their methods to themselves, and simply explained to their followers its greatness and splendour by parable and fable, such as we find in Brihadaranyaka, 2. 1. 19. That is his real form, in which he is exalted above desire, and is free from evil and fear. For just as one who dallies with a beloved wife has no conscious- ness of outer o…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 74

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IV)

… darkness, that shines in yonder sun as in the moon, the fire and the lightning. Thus the Atman little by little came to be known and no longer believed in; yet at first it appears that those who realized it kept their methods to themselves, and simply explained to their followers its greatness and splendour by parable and fable, such as we find in Brihadaranyaka, 2. 1. 19. That is his real form, in which he is exalted above desire, and is free from evil and fear. For just as one who dallies with a beloved wife has no conscious- ness of outer o…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 40

The Scented Garden

… there was nothing against him : it’s difficult to 1. The pathics of Laknau, when offering themselves for hire to British officers, draw long strips of muslin from their recta, whose perfect cleanliness is thus beyond suspicion. O si sic omnes ! Ed.

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1922 · PDF PAGE 239

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…floor in a corner of the drawing-room. It was all shrunk and rumpled and dirty, and it was still quite wet. I suppose I must have gone a long walk in the rain, though I don’t remember anything about it. All the heroin was washed away. There wasn’t a grain left. Peter came in and found me crying. He understood at once what had happened. All he said was :— “ You'll have to go back to McCall.” I couldn’t even be angry. Men are too grossly animal to understand. How could I do such a thing, seeing who I was? He wanted some H. badly; finding it gone,…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 139

Magick Without Tears

…are! pink leopards are exactly what you have a right to expect! Until you have practiced this method, all day and every day, for quite a long while, you cannot tell how amazingly your mnemonic power increases by virtue thereof . But be careful always to range the new ideas as they come along in their right order of importance. It is not unlike the system of keys used in big establishments, such as hotels. First, a set of keys, each of which opens one door, and one door only. Then, a set which opens all the doors on one floor only . And so on, u…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 387

Magick Without Tears

…erse 7 might refer to the tank or the aeroplane-or to something we haven't yet got. Notice also Verse 28, a surprising conclusion to the long magical instruction about the "Cakes of Light." Then the mysterious opening of Verse 46 demands attention and research! Can "the Forties" refer to the years '39 (e.v.) onward-will this war last till '49 (e.v.)? Can the "Eighties" be symbolic, as the decade in which universal peace seemed to nearly everybody as assured for an indefinite period? There are any number of other passages, equally warlike; but s…

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1906 · PDF PAGE 119

Collected Works (Vol. II)

… my malice lock her. The doom is divine ! MEDEA. Ai! Ai! This rankles sorely in my mind That Pelias should wander, free to slide His sidelong looks among our courtiers Ripe ever for some mischief. Yet methinks There is a wandering other than this present— Say, by the Stygian waves, unburied corpse !— But, for the means? It ill befits our power And grace—my husband’s honour—to stretch forth The arm of murder o’er the head of age. But surely must be means—-— MADNESS. The prophecy ! VoL. 0 MEDEA. Happy my thought be! Ha! ‘* Athena shall relent not…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 253

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…certain sombre serenity. It does not show us the way of escape, if such there be, but at least it makes the idea of escape thinkable. As long as one is trying to get out of the burning theatre for one’s own sake, the panic makes concerted action impossible. ‘‘ Every man for himself and the devil take the hindmost ”’ is not the kind of order that is likely to secure victory. It does not even ensure the safety of any one man. How quickly I had recovered my own well-being when I was forced to forget about it ! Peter is still desperately striving t…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 89

Magick Without Tears

…is rare for any dream, unless frequently repeated, or linked to waking impressions by some happy conjunction of circumstances, to remain long in the mind with any clear-cut vision) it is hardly ever mistaken for an event of actual life. Good: then, as waking life is to dream, so-yes, more sol-is Religious Experience as above described to that life common to all of us. It is not merely easy, it is natural, not merely natural, but inevitable, for anyone who has 3. I have discussed this and the following points very fully in Book 4, Part I, pp. 63…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 357

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ither. I let him suffer for two or three days, then one afternoon I went across to his hotel and told him that this nonsense had gone on long enough; and it was time for him to learn something of life; I told him the facts. He regarded them as outrageous lies. I pointed out a hundred indications that they were true, but he was absolutely convinced of her purity and my infamy. I realized that I was wasting my breath. "Come across the road", I said wearily, "and see with your own eyes." I was almost obliged to use actual force, but he came; and t…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 193

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…mpossible to get off and quite impossible to get ashore, though one might be only six feet from the bank. At each corner is a man with a long bamboo pole to fend off rocks. But otherwise little can be done to direct one's course or even to steer sufficiently to prevent the zak turning round and round. I was reminded of Ben Gunn's coracle in Treasure Island. The behaviour of a zak on a sea confirms the analogy, for at one place the river was traversed by rows of waves five or six feet high. It seemed inconceivable that we should not be swamped. …

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1922 · PDF PAGE 290

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…out by them is so harmful indirectly to the sense of moral responsibility that I am really not sure whether it would not be wiser in the long run to do away with the Blue laws and the Lizzie laws altogether. Legislative interference with the habits of the people produces the sneak, the spy, the fanatic, and the artful dodger. Take finance! Swindling has become a fine art, and is practised on a gigantic scale in ways which would have been impossible when there were no laws intended to protect the public.” ' It was a very strange view to take. I …

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1907 · PDF PAGE 82

Konx Om Pax

62 KONX OM PAX knaves; show to them wise and honest men, and the socialistic ginger is no longer hot in the individualistic mouth.” Juju grunted assent. He had gone almost to sleep, but Kwaw, absorbed in his subject, never noticed the fact. He went on with the alacrity of a steam-roller, and the direct and purposeful vigour of a hypnotized butterfly. “Man is perfected by his identity with the great Tao. Subsidiary to this he must have balanced perfectly the Yang and the Yin. Easier still is it to rule the sixfold star of Intellect ; while for th…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 153

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…ass of so-called guide was our constant companion. Weary in spirit, we dragged ourselves from one dirty doubtful street to another; held long whispered conferences with the scavenger type of humanity, and as often as not bought various harmless powders at an exorbitant price, and that at the risk of blackmail and other things possibly worse. But the need of the stuff drove us relentlessly on. We ultimately found an honest dealer, and got a small supply of the genuine stuff. But even then we didn’t seem to pick up. Even large doses did hardly mo…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 433

Magick Without Tears

…e forces of Nature employed in these presumably abominable practices are similar or identical. The doctrine of "Vital Force" has been so long and so completely exploded that I hardly need to tell you that in some still undiscovered (or, rather, unpublished) and unmeasured form it is certainly a fact. Haven't I told you one time how we nearly starved on Iztaccihuatl with dozens of tinned foods all round us, they being ancient; of how one can get drunk on half a dozen oysters; of how the best meat I have ever eaten is half-raw Himalayan sheep, cu…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 473

Magick Without Tears

…ar-and I thought it might be useful to him to learn this game, needing, as it does, such very meagre apparatus, to wile away some of the long hours between attacks. He picked it up quickly enough; but, after a bit when I suggested that he should pass it on to his comrades-in-arms, he jeered at me openly! Their vocabulary to mine, he said, holds just about the same proportion as mine does to yours; 1 hypothesized modestly, "about five percent." (After all, I am forty-five years his senior.) He roared at me. "Not one in a hundred," he said, "know…

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1904 · PDF PAGE 78

Snowdrops from a Curate’s Garden

…uffice it to say that no less than 175 (all girls, with an admixture of mon- key and slug from maternal impressions — infidelities I had long suspected without being able to prove) — were actually born and our reputations would have been ruined but for the cunning and resource which has ever brought me through the most difficult and adverse circumstances. I bribed the Pope’s valet to conceal them in his Holiness’ jerrypot : when he perceived them, he supposed himself to be seized with a return of the Horrors, and gave orders for their instant d…

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1904 · PDF PAGE 55

The Goetia

THE OTHER MAGICAL REQUISITES. Tue other magical requisites are : a sceptre, a sword, a mitre, a cap, a long white robe of linen, and other garments for the purpose ;' also a girdle of lion’s skin three inches broad, with all the names written about it which be round the outmost part of the Magical Circle. Also perfumes, and a chafing- dish of charcoal kindled to put the fumes on, to smoke or perfume the place appointed for action; also anointing oil to anoint thy temples and thine eyes with; and fair water to wash thyself in. And in so doing, t…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 211

Diary of a Drug Fiend

… tenner ought to do the trick.” He pulled some dirty crumpled notes out of his trousers’ pocket. “Here you are. For God’s sake, don’t be long.” I was as keen as he was. All the will to stop had been washed out of me when Basil went. My self-respect was annihilated. | Yet I think it was reluctance to go that kept me hanging about on the pretence of attending to my toilet. Peter watched me with approval. There was a hateful gleam in his eye, and I loved it. We were both de- graded through and through. We had reached the foul straw of the sty. The…

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