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1954 · PDF PAGE 250

Magick Without Tears

…riouser and curiouser," she arrived at a practically identical conclusion: she believed, but what she believed in was Nothing! As to our old criterion of what we imply in practice when we say that we believe, she began by saying that if we "helped" God in His mysterious plan , He would in some fashion or other look after us. But about this she was even more vague than in the matter of intellectual conviction; "helping God" meant behaving decently according to one's own instinctive ideas of what 'decently' means . It is very encouraging that she…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 363

Magick Without Tears

…s, Mandarin, a palette, Napoleon Brandy, canvases, and other appurtenances of the artist's dismal trade. I took occasion to call upon an old mistress of mine, Jane Cheron, concerning whom see The Equinox, Vol. I, "Three Poems." She has never had the slightest interest in occult

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1907 · PDF PAGE 18

The Star in the West

…at least a healthy human smell —an odour of sanctity infinitely preferable to all the ancient pot - pourri of Philistia , that young and old ladies are alike so fond of distributing among their pretty speeches , as well as their pretty garments . “ Is life , then , to resolve itself for us into a chain of exhilarating pangs ? ” asked Pallas , in Mr. Gosse's “ Hypolympia , " in answer to the query of Æsculapius , “ What is pleasure ? ” We see the mortal form of the immortal healer climbing along the jutting cornice of some cliff , in search for …

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1911 · PDF PAGE 129

The Vision and the Voice

… Christian church; but the pupil rebelled against the master, for he foresaw that the New (z.e., the Protestant) would be worse than the Old. But he understood not the purpose of his Master, and that was, to prepare the way for the overthrowing of the Aeon. There is a writing upon the Urn of which I can but read the (two) words: Stabat Crux juxta Lucem. Stabat Lux juxta Crucem. And there is writing in Greek above that. The word ‘nox’ written in Greek, and a circle with a cross in the centre of it, a St. Andrew’s cross. Then above that is a sigi…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 255

Diary of a Drug Fiend

… curiously, the unimportant things came first. I was amazed to find that Mabel Black was dead. I wrote her a letter only yesterday. Poor old girl ! The part, too, about Dr. McCall. I could swear quite honestly that never happened. And yet it must have; for I found scraps of the dress in the cushions of the blue Chesterfield chewed to a pulp. ... October 27 We have been shooting again; but it was cold and damp. We were neither of us interested and we were too weary to walk. Peter said nothing; but all the time I can feel how disgusted he is. We'…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 147

The Equinox (Volume I, Number III)

THE TEMPLE OF SOLOMON THE KING cackling over the future like hens over a china egg, and soon they would be back at the old game of counting their chickens before they were hatched. He also must have seen, that if he postulated a God, or First Cause, every unfledged rationalist in Pataliputta would cry, ‘Oh, but what a God, what a wicked God yours must be to allow all this sorrow you talk of . . . now look at mine . . .” little seeing that sorrow was just the same with the idea of God as without it, and that all was indeed Moha or MAaya—both God…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 147

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IV)

THE TEMPLE OF SOLOMON THE KING cackling over the future like hens over a china egg, and soon they would be back at the old game of counting their chickens before they were hatched. He also must have seen, that if he postulated a God, or First Cause, every unfledged rationalist in Pataliputta would cry, ‘Oh, but what a God, what a wicked God yours must be to allow all this sorrow you talk of . . . now look at mine . . .” little seeing that sorrow was just the same with the idea of God as without it, and that all was indeed Moha or MAaya—both God…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 292

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…mission to vote more early and often than ever, after which you won't care to go to the polls at all. That’s another example of the same old story. However little we want a thing, we howl if we discover that we can’t get it; and the moment we've got it the whole business drops out of sight. “You'll find it’s the same with your drugs. You've ‘practically hypnotised yourself into thinking you can’t do without them. It’s not a real need, as you know. It’s a false and perverse appetite ; and as soon as you get out of the way of thinking that it’s v…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 34

The Stratagem and Other Stories

…ally rallied. The dim sight grew dimmer, the speech slower and thicker, the headaches more persistent and acute. Torpor succeeded to his old splendid energy and ac- tivity; his days became continual lethargy ever deepen- ing towards coma. Convulsions now and then alarmed me for his immediate danger. Sometimes his breath came hard and hissing like a snake in anger; towards the end it assumed the Cheyne- Stokes type in bursts of ever-increasing duration and severity. In all this, however, he was still himself; the horror that was and yet was not …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 499

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

499 {785} passing steamboat. We had a great lunch with the burgundy and absinthe and old brandy, which I had brought back from New York. But some people are never satisfied. She apparently expected to find a young palace with livery lackeys by the dozen, so she explained that she had merely dropped in for lunch, as per invitation, on her way to visit her brother, the incumbent of the parish of Staatsburg. She gave so many details so ingenuously that I might have believed her if I had not happened to know that the amenities of Staatsburg did not…

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1898 · PDF PAGE 18

Jezebel

…Turn to me, touch me, mix thy very breath With mine to mingle floods of fiery dew With flames of purple, like the sea shot through With golden glances of a fiercer star. Turn to me, bend above me, you may char These olive shoulders with an old-time kiss, And fix thy mouth upon me for such bliss Of sudden rage rekindled. Turn again, And make delight the minister of pain, And pain the father of a new delight. And light a lamp of torture for the night Too grievous to be borne without a cry To rend the very bowels of the sky And make the archangel …

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1907 · PDF PAGE 239

The Star in the West

…to the fallacy of supposing his own brain to be without a history . It is curious to note that Kant's à priori is but a recasting of the old myth of Pallas , Wisdom , springing full- armed from the brain of Zeus , and like the legend is a strangely false assertion .] Thus , into the trap Kant sets out to rescue Hume from , he himself falls , by asserting that : “ it is only by means of the form of sensuous intuition that we can intuite things à priori, but in this way we intuite the objects only as they appear to our senses , not as they may be…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 7

The Rites of Eleusis

3 particular age. For example, Saturn “ the lean and slippered pantaloon,” or sad old age. Jupiter the solemn and portentous justice, the serious and serene man who has arrived and controls. Mars the soldier, full of energy and life, vigorous and formidable. Sol the man who has still something of his youth left, and is gay betimes and serious betimes, the man who loves and the man who works. Venus explains itself in Shakespeare’s words, “ the lover with a woeful ballad.” Mercury the schoolboy, happy, careless and gay, mischievous and full of an…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 22

The Scented Garden

…situation is saved. It is undoubtedly the importance which he at- taches to Sin, Repentance, Penance, Grace, as the means of raising the old to the new Adam that cost el Haji so much pains in persecution by the more orthodox Muslim : possible the teaching of St. Paul had vaguely penetrated to the gulf with the mer- chant of Venice or Portugal, and their danger had been recognized by those who held to the simple grandeur of Islam. But clearly the belief in Evil — perhaps even a modified Manichaeism ;4 we must not forget that this heresy is a leg…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 227

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…wards Madness 213 spirits and demons every day than he ever saw in ten years. They are nothing to be afraid of. I should like to see the old Boy himself. I’d—— , September 18 We found a book in the library one rainy afternoon. It told us how to make the Devil appear. Cockie’s grandfather was great on that stuff. There’s a room in the north tower where he did his stunts. We went up after dinner. Everything had been left more or less the way it was. Uncle Mortimer never troubled to alter anything. There was a legend about this room too. For one t…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 388

The Equinox (Volume I, Number I)

…ou are cured now?” he added in an anxious tone. I shall not repeat the conversation that ensued. Enough to mention that I discovered the old sailor to be absolutely mad. And being unable to persuade him that I was still firmly convinced of being the cover of the lost coffin, I found it better to agree with him. And soon he fell into the trap. Hiding the longing after my box and its contents, the doll and the skull and the mighty books, I spoke to him as if com- pletely unconcerned about the loss, and unrolled a scheme for civilising the natives…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 388

The Equinox (Volume I, Number II)

…ou are cured now?” he added in an anxious tone. I shall not repeat the conversation that ensued. Enough to mention that I discovered the old sailor to be absolutely mad. And being unable to persuade him that I was still firmly convinced of being the cover of the lost coffin, I found it better to agree with him. And soon he fell into the trap. Hiding the longing after my box and its contents, the doll and the skull and the mighty books, I spoke to him as if com- pletely unconcerned about the loss, and unrolled a scheme for civilising the natives…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 144

The Equinox (Volume I, Number III)

… crushed down the Emotions of his followers, those Emotions which had found so rich and fertile a soil in the decaying philosophy of the old Vedanta. The statement in the Dhammapada that: “ All that we are is the result of what we have thought: it is founded on our thoughts, it is made up of our thoughts:” * is as equally true of the Vedanta as it is of Buddhism. But, in the former we get the great doctrine and practice of the Siddhis directly attributable to a mastering of the emotions and then to a use of the same, which is strictly forbidden…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 144

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IV)

… crushed down the Emotions of his followers, those Emotions which had found so rich and fertile a soil in the decaying philosophy of the old Vedanta. The statement in the Dhammapada that: “ All that we are is the result of what we have thought: it is founded on our thoughts, it is made up of our thoughts:” * is as equally true of the Vedanta as it is of Buddhism. But, in the former we get the great doctrine and practice of the Siddhis directly attributable to a mastering of the emotions and then to a use of the same, which is strictly forbidden…

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1913 · PDF PAGE 138

The Book of Lies

…into light!’ May his enemies learn from these words to ‘lift up’ their hearts with him.”—Euzglish Review. ‘**“ Mortadello’ is a drama of old Venice. It dis- plays a similar fearlessness of treatment. The theme is bitterly cynical, yet there prevails against the cynicism a just appreciation or poetic values. Mr. Crowley has not shirked the ugliness of his theme. He had no temptation to do so. For he holds life cheap as against ideals, even the basest of whichis sacredin his eyes. Let Monica be a raving wanton, so she love Venice and subserve her…

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