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1929 · PDF PAGE 5

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…rried on. At the moment of writing this paragraph everything in connection with the book is entirely in the air. I am carrying on. But apart from any of this, I have felt throughout an essential difficulty with regard to the form of the book. The subject is too big to be susceptible of organic structure unless I make a deliberate effort of will and a strict arbitrary selection. It would, as a matter of fact, be easy for me to choose any one of fifty meanings for my life, and illustrate it by carefully chosen facts. Any such method would be open…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 99

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…tual and emotional experiences, but his technique must be based on the study of grammar and so on, which have no essential relation with art. Talking over these matters with Jones and Baker, I found them quite in sympathy with my pint of view; but they insisted, rightly enough, that I was not in a position to judge the circumstances. I must first reach the Second Order. Accordingly, I took the grade of Zelator in December, of Theoricus in January and of Practicus in February. One could not proceed to Philosophus for three months, so I did not t…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 115

Collected Works (Vol. III)

…I'N RIME 1907 AUTHOR’S NOTE AUGUSTE RODIN AND THE NOMENCLATURE OF HIS WORKS A STUDY IN SPITE WHEN illegitimate criticism is met with a smart swing on the point of the jaw, and has subsided into an unpleasant and unpitiful heap; when its high-well-born brother has shaken hands—not without many years of friendly sparring—with the new pugilist, all his family are very disappointed, for Society takes no notice of them in its (to them un- seemly) adulation of the rising star. Their unfraternal feeling may even lead them to employ a sandbagger and a …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 464

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…very crisis he can bring only the intense impulsive energy of instinct. In 1912 I took it into my head to write three essays on American art and literature, past, present and future. I only completed the first, which is published in the English Review. It aroused a hurricane across the Atlantic and, hard as it is to believe, the echoes have not yet died away. Within the last twelve months it was violently attacked by one of America's best poets, Robert Haven Schauffler. I make a point of mentioning the fact. He accused me of prejudice and unfai…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 428

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

428 making it clear why it should be necessary at all. Part Two is therefore an wholly admirable treatise only for one who has already mastered the groundwork and gained some experience of the practice of the art. The number 4 being the formula of the book, it was of course to consist of four parts. I carried out this idea by expressing the nature of the Tetrad, not only by the name and plan of the book, but by issuing it in the shape of a square 4 inches by 4, and pricing each part as a function of 4. Part One was published at 4 groats, Part T…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 251

Collected Works (Vol. III)

… you scold? I had rather have you scold, iii. 62 Sweet, sweet are May and June, dear, i. 230 Swift and subtle and thin are the arrows of.Art, ili, 112 Syrinxis caught upon the Arcadian field,iii. 119 TAKE Oscar Eckenstein—he climbs, ii. 210 Tender the phrase, and faint the melody, i. 249 Tender the smile, and faint the lover's sigh, i, 249 Terror, and darkness, and horrid despair, ii. 1 That which is highest as the deep, i. 34 The ashen sky, too sick for sleep, ii. 12 The conqueror rides at last, i. 85 The constant ripple of your long white han…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 356

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

356 {574} 1. WEH NOTE: At the time, a particularly good brand of absinthe. Pernod is still widely sold, but the wormwood has been excluded and the proof cut drasticly from the 186 proof of absinthe. say or do. He made all sorts of clumsy advances, which the girls cruelly repressed. Dorothy reproached him sadly: "Surely, Mr. Neuburg, you would not say such things to your dons' wives at Cambridge!" Baffled in this direction, he made a supreme appeal to Nina by offering her two francs and twenty- five centimes. We then went to our respective hotel…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 400

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ang me up. I merely said, "I take it that you don't want me to be blackmailed over your coffee." Fenton accordingly proceeded to publish article after article, packed with the most stupid falsehoods about me; some of them deliberate distortions of fifth-hand fact; some simple invention. To my surprise many of my friends took fright and urged me to bring a lawsuit for libel. Fuller, in particular, to my great surprise, was almost dictatorial about my duty. He had probably been persuaded by his brother, who was a junior partner in the firm of sol…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 229

Collected Works (Vol. III)

…the bosom of Nephthys, so that for a while the world lies fallow. It is in feiling to see this constant fume of incense rising from the earth that pessimistic philosophies make their grand fundamental error: in that, and in assuming the very point in dispute, the nature of the laws of other worlds and the prospects of the individual soul. Confess, O subtle author, that thou thyself art even now in the same trap! Willingly, reader; these slips happen when, although one cannot prove to others, one knows.! Thou too shalt know, an thou wilt :—ask h…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 339

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ose most easterly point is in the longitude of Oxford. He was homesick for the dull uniformity of family life. That is, I believe, the heart of England's horror. Frank Harris has described English vices as "Adultery with home comforts". The average Englishman likes to drink tea in a pair of previously warmed soft slippers, with a smiling piece of meat presiding over the soggy toast, and unintelligent brats playing halma in the background. "The East" only means to him sunstroke, fever and other diseases, each more dreadful than the rest; people …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 492

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…w that the only hope of making her love me was to kill the vanity which prevented her from being true to herself, and giving her whole heart. Before I left for New Hampshire, we had a farewell meeting. She was now too far advanced in gestation to appear in public, so her husband had persuaded her to go to England for the confinement, and also to make various necessary arrangements with regard to the future. He had now cunningly pretended to give way about the divorce, admitting my right to my child and its mother. His real motive was very diffe…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 24

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… as I heard of chemistry, I realized that it dealt with reality as I understood the word. So I soon had "Little Roscoe" practically by heart, though it was not a school subject. I furnished a laboratory in the house at Streatham, and spent all my time and money in making experiments. It may be interesting to mention how my mind worked. I had heard of the petard as a military engine; and I was hoist with it. Roscoe told me that chloride of nitrogen was the most powerful and sensitive explosive known. My idea was to dissolve it in some volatile f…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 360

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

360 has been ruined by the expedients which at present buttress her artificial system of centralization and standardization. At the moment, Spain was deeply exercised with the matter of base coinage. It appears that a certain cabinet minister had a brother in Mexico who eked out a precarious livelihood by exporting brass bedsteads. The calibre of the uprights was such that silver pesos could be neatly packed therein, and the influence of the minister prevented the custom house being surprised at the weight. These silver pesos were of the same q…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 425

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

425 Montparno, the Queen of the Quarter. But I have not mentioned an obscure prig whom I will call Monet-Knott, whom I had met through my fiancée, the "Star" to Nina's "Garter". This brainless and conceited youth had become accompanist to the greatest dancer of her generation. Let me call her Lavinia King. She, first and never equalled, had understood and demonstrated the art of dancing as a complete language of the affections of the mind and heart. Knott and Nina, as already recorded, had contracted a liaison. I met Knott for the second time w…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 41

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…d asked him about the Coolins. He was kind enough to suggest to some real climbers who were staying at the hotel to include me in their party the next day, and they were kind enough to take me up Sgurr-nan-Gillean by the Pinnacle Ridge. I found myself up against it; and realized at once that there was something more to be done than scrambling. I think it was the following summer that I was staying at a farm in Langdale and heard from the natives of the celebrated twenty-four hours' walk. The idea is to climb the four highest fells, Scafell Pike…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 202

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

202 I went through life at this time with a kind of cynical bonhomie; nothing was really any particular good, so I might as well do what was expected of me. I wrote even of Buddhism with a certain detached disenchantment, as may be seen by reference to my Summa Spes, which I published separately (twelve copies contain the portrait of me by Haweis and Coles, subsequently reproduced in volume II of the vellum edition of my Collected Works) and sent to some of my friends in Paris on my departure for England. After Rodin, the most important of thes…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 395

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…representative of the goddess and the lunar influence invoked into her by the appropriate lyrics. (I wrote "The Interpreter" and "Pan to Artemis".) The violinist was to reply by expressing the divine nature through her art. She was a rough, ill-trained executant, and her playing coarse, crude, with no touch of subtlety to interpret or passion to exalt the sequence of sound. The most cynical critics present were simply stunned at hearing this fifth-rate fiddler play with a genius whose strength and sublimity was equal to anything in their experi…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 405

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…et. It rather took the wind out of my sails. I made my speech and unveiled Epstein's effort in the dull drizzling weather. It was a disheartening success. The affair, however, made a great noise in the newspapers, both in France and in England, and the funniest thing about it was {645} that Epstein himself, the one person above all others who should have been gratified, one would have supposed, took my action in rather bad part. I have always found Epstein's psychology very puzzling. He is a German Jew, born in the lower East Side of New York C…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 471

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ught, long delayed. So I bethought me whether I could not, irrationally, immorally, unphilosophically, with a game leg but with all my heart and brain, serve England. I was furious at the stupidity of the British propaganda. It was worse in America than it had been in England. At its best, it was an exaggeration and sheer falsehood, so transparent that Woodrow Wilson himself, to say nothing of a legion of Italian bootblacks, saw through it. As for the German propaganda, it was hardly noticeable. Was it that they did not understand the importanc…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 247

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

247 {410} ad they are, practically all abuse and perversions would disappear. They are for the most part morbid phantasms of putrefaction, aggravated by the attempt at suppression. The wound of Amfortas will not heal because it has never been properly opened and rendered aseptic. Madame Bovary was assumed to be a provincial Phryne. The story of her adultery was condemned as "immoral", as tending to incite illicit passions. Its critics had been simply unable to read the book. Flaubert was in reality grinding his heel into the woman's foolish fac…

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