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Page 59 of 871929 · PDF PAGE 260
… from subconscious irritation; due to what the Hindus call Ahamkara, the ego-making faculty. The idea of self is a continual torment and though I was still far from having got rid of this idea completely. I was pretty free of it in practice in matters where my responsibility was extensive. I had begun to understand how to work "without lust of result". Unfortunately, Tartarin and Righi were undoing my web as fast as I wove it. Righi was a low-class Italian, who ran his hotel by hectoring the men under him. Finding himself for the first time in …
1919 · PDF PAGE 377
…bout Initiation and all the rest of it. The universe is exceedingly elastic, especially for those who are themselves elastic. Therefore, though of course one cannot remember humanity when one is wearing the Dharmakaya body, one can hang the Dharmakaya body in one’s magical wardrobe, with a few camphor-balls to keep the moths out, and put it on from time to time when feeling in need of re- freshment. In fact, one who is helping humanity is con- stantly in need of a wash and brush-up from time to time. There is nothing quite so contaminating as h…
1922 · PDF PAGE 18
4 The Diary of a Drug Fiend I had gone into the air service; did pretty well, though somehow I was never sure either of myself or of my machine. My squadron commander used to tell me that I should never make a great airman. “Qld thing,” he said, “ you lack the instinct,” qualifying the noun with an entirely meaningless adjective which somehow succeeded in making his sentence highly illuminating. “Where you get away with it,” he said, “is that you have an analytic brain.” Well, I suppose I have. That’s how I come to be writing this up. Anyhow, a…
1922 · PDF PAGE 264
…had given up trying to communicate the results of his researches to people. They couldn’t even be trusted to read words of one syllable, though they might have taken the best degrees in Humane Letters at Oxford. For example, he would write, ‘Do what thou wilt” to somebody, and would be attacked by return of post for having written “ Do as thou wilt.” Every one interprets everything in terms of his own experience. If you say anything which does not touch a precisely similar spot in another man’s brain, he either misunderstands you, or doesn’t un…
1929 · PDF PAGE 1
…untry that tolerates it, to the civilisation that permits that such things should be. The same thing happened to me here last year, sir, though luckily on that occasion I had but half-an-hour to wait. But I wrote to The Times a strong half-column letter on the subject, and Im damned if they didnt re- fuse to print it. Of course, our independent press, etc.; I might have known. I tell you, sir, this country is run by a ring, a dirty ring, a gang of Jews, Scotchmen, Irish, Welshwheres the good old jolly True Blue English- man? In the cart, si…
1904 · PDF PAGE 82
… reciprocity en affaire damour. The Captain on his part only asked fidelity ; and indeed Monty had grown to love him so dearly that the thought of an adultery would have been insupportable. One day, how- ever, a sudden desire came upon him towards the most popular of the lieutenants, Andrew Clayton, a man of violent passions not usually associated with fair hair and rather timid grey eyes. Andrew saw the sly looks of the midshipman and one day went into his cabin and, stepping to his side with- out a word, gave him a fierce kiss, while his han…
1954 · PDF PAGE 276
…f previous deaths. You recall the Buddhist "Ten Impurities";-The Drowned Corpse, the Gnawed-by-wild-beasts-Corpse, and the rest. Magick (though I says it as shouldn't) gives a very full and elaborate account of this Memory, and Liber CMXIII (Thisharb) a sound Official Instruction on the two main methods of acquiring this faculty. None of my writings, by the way, deal with the First Method; this is because I could never make any headway with it; none at all. Fr:. lehi Aour , on the other hand, was a wizard at it; he thought that some people coul…
1904 · PDF PAGE 24
…rest of bacteriologists, who had previously be- lieved that the latter animal was not susceptible to syphilis had declared in forcible though refined language that its a fair bugger, and ought to do my little Fannys job a treat. Eulogy, you will ad- mit, can no further go. To return : I was a healthy and well-formed boy, and my innate stern moral sense guarded me against the temptations into which so many youngsters fall nowadays. The diminutive size of my meat-skewer baffled all the attempts of my fiery-arsed nurse, for her well-worn sn…
1910 · PDF PAGE 102
…lowing Ganges) or Ida. By a similar modification in the opposite direction the * “Shiva Sanhita,” chap. v, 110. t Ibid., chap. v, 49. $~ Though all Hindu works proclaim that the Sahasrara has but one thousand petals, its true number is one thousand and one as depicted in the diagram called the Yogi. 1001 =91 X II (JONX TN); OI =MT+4 TIN 11 =ABRA- HADABRA =418 (38 x 11)=Achad Osher, or one and ten, =the Eleven Averse Sephiroth= Adonai. Also 91=13x7 1NNX ARARITA, etc, etc. 11 is the Number of the Great Work, the Uniting of the Five and the Six, a…
1910 · PDF PAGE 102
…lowing Ganges) or Ida. By a similar modification in the opposite direction the * “Shiva Sanhita,” chap. v, 110. t Ibid., chap. v, 49. $~ Though all Hindu works proclaim that the Sahasrara has but one thousand petals, its true number is one thousand and one as depicted in the diagram called the Yogi. 1001 =91 X II (JONX TN); OI =MT+4 TIN 11 =ABRA- HADABRA =418 (38 x 11)=Achad Osher, or one and ten, =the Eleven Averse Sephiroth= Adonai. Also 91=13x7 1NNX ARARITA, etc, etc. 11 is the Number of the Great Work, the Uniting of the Five and the Six, a…
1929 · PDF PAGE 312
…further and describe the Deity as "without quantity or quality". Even the Prayer Book describes Him as "without body, parts or passion", though it continues cheerfully by describing His parts and His passions in detail. The Hindus actually realize that their Parabrahman thus defined, by negating all propositions soever about him, is not a being at all in any intelligible sense of the word. Their aspiration to be absorbed in his essence depends on the thesis that "Everything is Sorrow." {510} The Buddha took the last logical step, rejected Brahm…
1898 · PDF PAGE 75
NOTE. 71 of the written Qabalah, though, perhaps (a word to the wise is enough), truth lies hidden deeper yet in the ten volumes of that Qabalah which is unwritten, and which is only granted to those who by previous incarnations have fitted themselves for so sublime a knowledge. The brief sketch above will, however, make clear the Oath of the people and the Prayer of Jephthah, among other phrases which may seem at first sight less unin- telligible to ordinary analysis. That I have made Jephthah a Magician is also in accordance with tradition. G…
1904 · PDF PAGE 68
…d to give a great treat to celebrate it. His numerous negro slaves yes, friend H..msw..th, I know you think I am lying, but my father, though living in France at the time of my birth, had subsequently bought a plantation in the West Indies, and I had dutifully gone out there for the joyful celebration his numerous negro slaves as I said before oh yes, you are a clever fellow, I know slavery has been abolished in most of the West Indies, but my father lived on a secret island, which is not on the map, being protected from observation by …
1922 · PDF PAGE 215
…ity; but for all that he was bound by his sense of right feeling, and above all by realising that to give rein to his passion, God-given though it was, would mean social ruin for me, for the woman he loved. He went on to talk about affinities and soul-mates and love at first sight. He reproached himself for having told me the truth, even now, but it had been too strong for him. The irony of fate! The tragic absurdity of social restrictions!
1944 · PDF PAGE 70
…oroughly, for only the course of events can show how the new current of initiation will work out. It is the aeon of Horus, of the Child. Though the face of the Hierophant appears benig‐ nant and smiling, and the child himself seems glad with wanton innocence, it is hard to deny that in the expression of the initiator is something mysterious, even sinister. He seems to be enjoying a very secret joke at somebody’s expense. There is a distinctly sadistic aspect to this card; not unnaturally, since it derives from the Legend of Pasiphae, the protot…
1922 · PDF PAGE 239
…e drawing-room. It was all shrunk and rumpled and dirty, and it was still quite wet. I suppose I must have gone a long walk in the rain, though I don’t remember anything about it. All the heroin was washed away. There wasn’t a grain left. Peter came in and found me crying. He understood at once what had happened. All he said was :— “ You'll have to go back to McCall.” I couldn’t even be angry. Men are too grossly animal to understand. How could I do such a thing, seeing who I was? He wanted some H. badly; finding it gone, made him want it insan…
1906 · PDF PAGE 119
…nour—to stretch forth The arm of murder o’er the head of age. But surely must be means—-— MADNESS. The prophecy ! VoL. 0 MEDEA. Happy my thought be! Ha! ‘* Athena shall relent not till the king Shall die and live.” Vainly the prophet meant Mere transference of the crown. his saying To daze the children — fools theyare ! So mask Evil beneath the waxen face of Good, Trick out Calamity in robes of Luck— Come, children! Is the sun bright? your eyesP I have found it. I'll twist And ALCESTIS. Dear queen, all’s well with us. Such happi- ness Crowds da…
1922 · PDF PAGE 280
…re it at so remote a place without a prescription. But Lou’s eyes were fixed on him with an expression of delighted curiosity. I felt as though somehow or other she had divined the secret. She seemed intensely amused at my perplexity, and stroked my hair in her most patronising manner. “You poor brainless creature,” she seemed to be saying with her finger-tips Well, we all had heroin with our second cup of coffee, and my spirits rose immediately. Lamus produced two little note books which he had bought in the village, so that we might record ou…
1922 · PDF PAGE 349
… no longer produced any particular effect to take it. Now that I was getting down to two or three doses a day, at the most, it seemed as though there were no particular object in taking it, even as dulling the craving for it. I found it in- creasingly difficult to fill column two. King Lamus descended on me one morning, just after I had taken a dose, and was raking my brain for a reason for my action. I was alternately chewing the end of my pencil and making meaningless marks on the paper. I told him my difficulty. “ Always glad to help,” he sa…
1954 · PDF PAGE 22
…ll discover in these letters a veritable mine of important information and an encyclopedia of occult learning not to be found elsewhere. Though the title of the book may be amusing, the contents are far from being so. Crowley's reputation as a writer and teacher of the greatest magnitude must be enhanced by these letters, which are thus strongly recommended to all who seek the Light. There are some magnificent flashes of profundity in this book as when Crowley examines the necessity of keeping a diary, a personal record of all practices underta…