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1922 · PDF PAGE 189

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…sty quarrel, and I had to pull his hair for him. It broke one of my nails. I’ve let them go very long. I don’t know when I was manicured last. For some reason, they're dry and brittle. I must have them done. I’d send the boy out, but I don’t like the idea of a strange girl coming here. One never knows what may go wrong. It doesn’t really matter, either. The body is merely a nuisance, and it hurts. “So blood wrenches its pain Sardonic through heart and brain.” I am beginning to hate that horrible poem. It haunts me. I don’t know why I should rem…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 25

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…sed. This punishment, which I believe criminal authorities would consider severe on a poisoner, went on for a term and a half. I was, at last, threatened with expulsion for my refusal to "confess", and so dreadful a picture of the horrors of expulsion did they paint me --- the guilty wretch, shunned by his fellows, slinks on through life to a dishonoured grave, etc. --- that I actually chose to endure my tortures and to thank my oppressor. Physically, I broke down. The strain and the misery affected my kidneys; and I had to leave school altoget…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 104

The Star in the West

…a strengthening within him of the higher self , struggling against his desire , again and again every nerve in him cries , “ halt ” : at last he reaches the land of lost ideals : The plain is covered with a many dead . Glisten white bone and salt - encrusted head , Glazed eye imagined , a crystal built . And see ! dark patches , as of murder spilt . Ugh ! “ So my fellows of the quest are sped ! Thou shalt be with them : onward , if thou wilt !”3 He sees in the distance the pillar : Quaintly shaped and hued , It focussed all the sky and all the …

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1910 · PDF PAGE 367

The Equinox (Volume I, Number III)

…; for I love not the badger-reek of Suburbia and Bohemia in my nostrils. But for this also I praise thee, that lion-like thou turnest at last upon the jackal-crowd at thy heels. That ungainly dragon, the Chesterbelloc, hast thou ridden against, 349

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1910 · PDF PAGE 367

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IV)

…; for I love not the badger-reek of Suburbia and Bohemia in my nostrils. But for this also I praise thee, that lion-like thou turnest at last upon the jackal-crowd at thy heels. That ungainly dragon, the Chesterbelloc, hast thou ridden against, 349

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1916 · PDF PAGE 15

A Prophet In His Own Country

All his life, until the last five years, Mr. Stuart has been a man of affairs. He went to work at fourteen years of age under his father, and was gradually compelled to do the work of both, with the result that before his twenty-first birthday he had become freight traffic manager for Central America’s most important railroad. He has also been in charge of various consular and diplomatic offices from time to time. He was land commissioner of the Panama Railroad; and has also been in the real estate and mining businesses, and factor of an import…

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1911 · PDF PAGE 307

The Equinox (Volume I, Number V)

…terary Guide” “He is a lofty idealist. He sings like a lark at the gates of heaven. ‘Konx Om Pax’ is the apotheosis of extravagance, the last word in eccentricity. A prettily-told fairy-story ‘for babes and sucklings’ has ‘explanatory notes in Hebrew and Latin for the wise and prudent ’—which notes, as far as we can see, explain nothing—together with a weird preface in scraps of twelve or fifteen languages. The best poetry in the book is contained in the last section—‘The Stone of the Philosophers,’ Here is some fine work,” k

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1911 · PDF PAGE 307

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VI)

…terary Guide” “He is a lofty idealist. He sings like a lark at the gates of heaven. ‘Konx Om Pax’ is the apotheosis of extravagance, the last word in eccentricity. A prettily-told fairy-story ‘for babes and sucklings’ has ‘explanatory notes in Hebrew and Latin for the wise and prudent ’—which notes, as far as we can see, explain nothing—together with a weird preface in scraps of twelve or fifteen languages. The best poetry in the book is contained in the last section—‘The Stone of the Philosophers,’ Here is some fine work,” k

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1912 · PDF PAGE 430

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VII)

… Literary Guide “He is a lofty idealist. He sings like a lark at the gates of heaven. Konx Om Pax is the apotheosis of extravagance, the last word in eccentricity. A prettily-told fairy-story ‘for babes and sucklings’ has ‘explanatory notes in Hebrew and Latin for the wise and prudent’—which notes, as far as we can see, explain nothing—together with a weird preface in scraps of twelve or fifteen languages. The best poetry in the book is contained in the last section—‘ The Stone of the Philosophers,’ Here is some fine work.” —.|

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1912 · PDF PAGE 430

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VIII)

… Literary Guide “He is a lofty idealist. He sings like a lark at the gates of heaven. Konx Om Pax is the apotheosis of extravagance, the last word in eccentricity. A prettily-told fairy-story ‘for babes and sucklings’ has ‘explanatory notes in Hebrew and Latin for the wise and prudent’—which notes, as far as we can see, explain nothing—together with a weird preface in scraps of twelve or fifteen languages. The best poetry in the book is contained in the last section—‘ The Stone of the Philosophers,’ Here is some fine work.” —.|

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1907 · PDF PAGE 42

The Star in the West

…he applies it to a totally different end , namely to the expres sion of modern surroundings , or to his own in trinsic ideas , as in the last -named play , which , even more so than in “ The Mother's Tragedy " is , as we shall see later on , a subtle discount on present -day morality . What Beardsley and Whistler did for art , Crowley is now doing for poetry . Beardsley , especially , suc ceeded Rossetti just as Crowley is now superseding Swinburne . A poetic iconoclast to the very backbone , we find Crowley , especially in his later works , br…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 164

The Star in the West

… Crowley , we find not only a reverential handling of the Christ idea , but an almost orthodox adoration for the Christ Himself . In the last two verses of “ Aceldama " this is strongly brought out . “ Thy love will stand while ocean winds en dure "; and again , “ Here I abandon all myself to thee .” ? In “ Songs of the Spirit ” we find this venera tion acutely portrayed , and the Christ as depicted in “ The Goad ” closely resembles the one as described in “ The Farewell of Paracelsus to Aprile .” Here is a passage from each : I contemplate the…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 254

The Star in the West

…n paraphrases and hermeneutical constructions . Because of their unintelligibility words were transposed , numericalisms added , till at last much if not all its sense was lost in a maze of mental legerdemain , and in such exegetical methods as 1 Orpheus , vol . iii , pp . 156 , 157 .

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1910 · PDF PAGE 277

The Equinox (Volume I, Number III)

…nsane, and leaping up and down, mimicked them all, and drank their demented spirit. Hasheesh is indeed an accursed drug, and the soul at last pays a most bitter price for all its ecstasies; moreover, the use of it is not the proper means of gaining any insight, yet who shall say that at that season of exaltation I did not know things as they are more truly than ever in the ordinary state? Let us not assert that the half-careless and uninterested way in which we generally look on nature is the normal mode of the soul’s power of vision. There is …

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1910 · PDF PAGE 277

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IV)

…nsane, and leaping up and down, mimicked them all, and drank their demented spirit. Hasheesh is indeed an accursed drug, and the soul at last pays a most bitter price for all its ecstasies; moreover, the use of it is not the proper means of gaining any insight, yet who shall say that at that season of exaltation I did not know things as they are more truly than ever in the ordinary state? Let us not assert that the half-careless and uninterested way in which we generally look on nature is the normal mode of the soul’s power of vision. There is …

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1910 · PDF PAGE 18

The Scented Garden

…nsiderable extension of the notes to cover ethnographical, critical, and other interesting points. We went to work accordingly during my last leave in England, and accomplished (I think) a good deal. (Major Lutiy’s death left this paragraph incom- plete. I need only add that on his departure for the front he sent the MSS., with numerous further ad- ditions, to me. I have retained the paragraph to explain the occasional diversity of opinion in read- ing or interpretation, and the way in which ‘ I ’ and ‘ We ’ are alternatively used in the notes.…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 502

The Equinox (Volume I, Number III)

…erary Guide ” “He is a lofty idealist. He sings like a lark at the gates of heaven. ‘Konx Om Pax’ is the apotheosis of extravagance, the last word in eccentricity. A prettily-told fairy-story ‘for babes and sucklings’ has ‘explanatory notes in Hebrew and Latin for the wise and pradent "—which notes, as far as we can see, explain nothing—together with a weird preface in scraps of twelve or fifteen languages. The best poetry in the book is contained in the last section—‘ The Stone of the Philosophers.’ Here is some fine work.”

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1910 · PDF PAGE 502

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IV)

…erary Guide ” “He is a lofty idealist. He sings like a lark at the gates of heaven. ‘Konx Om Pax’ is the apotheosis of extravagance, the last word in eccentricity. A prettily-told fairy-story ‘for babes and sucklings’ has ‘explanatory notes in Hebrew and Latin for the wise and pradent "—which notes, as far as we can see, explain nothing—together with a weird preface in scraps of twelve or fifteen languages. The best poetry in the book is contained in the last section—‘ The Stone of the Philosophers.’ Here is some fine work.”

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1929 · PDF PAGE 226

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…lways got away. Nothing seemed to cripple him, though one would have thought that he must have been more hole than bull by this time. At last he turned at a small clearing. As I came out from the thick jungle, I saw him not ten yards away. He lowered his head to charge. My bullet struck him again in the Ajna Cakkra, if a bull has such a thing; anyway, in {377} 1. At that time headquarters of Evangelicalism. the middle of the forehead just above the eyes. This time he dropped. It was my nineteenth bullet and only the first had failed to strike h…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 416

The Equinox (Volume I, Number I)

‘the apotheosis’ of extravagance, the last wor » KONX OM PAX THE MOS¢ REMARKABLE TREATISE ON THE MYSTIC PATH EVER WRITTEN ~ Contains an Batroduction and Four Essays ; the first an account of the progress of the soul to perfect illumination, under the guise of a charming fairy tale ; © The second, an' Essay on Truth, under the guise of a Christmas pantomime ; The third, an Essay on Magical Ethics, under the guise of the. story of a Chinese philosopher ; The fourth, a Treatise on many Magical Subjects of the profoundest importance, under the guis…

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