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1905 · PDF PAGE 10

Orpheus

WARNING MAy I who know so bitterly the tedium of this truly dreadful poem be permitted to warn all but the strongest and most desperate natures from the task of reading or of attempting to read it? I have spent more than three years in fits of alternate enthusiasm for, and disgust of, it. My best friends have turned weeping away when I introduced its name into conversation; my most obse- quious sycophants (including myself) were revolted when I approached the subject, even from afar. I began Book I. in San Francisco one accursed day of May 1go1…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 12

Rosa Decidua

…ath the moon. I feel my weakness, O thou soul that soarest Into a heaven beyond imagining On the unfaltering wing. Of the magic swan ! I know this tune Should swell to a strong note, a triumph note Blared through a trumpet’s throat To tell the world I am no coward, or else Sob in sweet minor, soft as Asmodel’s Chant to the nightingale. I am so wrecked, so rent That one seems brag, the other sentiment. I cannot leave the present ; I will not pose There lies the rotten rose And stinks. That is the truth ; the rest is gloss. My loss was total loss…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 199

Magick Without Tears

…tudent. Let me insist that all that is worth while comes by experience . Learning one thing will give you the clue to another. Well do I know to my sorrow how hard it is, as a rule, to learn how to do a thing solely from written instruction ; so perhaps you had better arrange to see me one day about the actual setting-up of a figure. Probably , too , there will be a few points that you would like to discuss. I will end by betting you six clothing coupons to a pound of sugar that in two years concentrated work on these lines you will become a be…

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1961 · PDF PAGE 143

Liber Aleph

…ilure in Elasticity or in Obstinacy, each at its Moment, suffering Defeat in the Hour of Shock. So, then, o my Son, this is thy Work, to know the Word of thy Will without Error, and to make perfect every Faculty of thy Mind, in right Order and Readiness to impose that Word as Law upon the Universe. So mote it be! t

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1905 · PDF PAGE 82

Collected Works (Vol. I)

…u so? He told you other thing. CHORUS. Nay, lord, no saying that we understood. JEPHTHAH. Speak thou its purport; I may understand. For, know you, in the desert where I dwelt I had strange store of books obscure ; books written Not openly for fools, but inwardly Toward the heart of wise men. And myself Studied no little while upon these things, And, seeking ever solitude, I went Nightly upon a rock that stood alone Threatening the sandy wilderness, and prayed Where many visions came before mine eyes So strange—these eyes have started from my he…

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1901 · PDF PAGE 85

The Mother’s Tragedy

…d not mine: I was a fool to kiss Her dead lips—aye, her living lips for that ! I cannot bid her rise and live again. I would not. Nay, I know not; for is this My triumph or my ruin, satiate Of death, insatiate alway of pain ? What have I done? In vain, in vain!

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1909 · PDF PAGE 69

Clouds Without Water

…ll the “ King’’ — the British Public — say When they perceive their sorrow was my fun, Their Hecuba my mocking Brinvilliers? * I neither know nor care. What we have done We have done. Admit, though, you are rare and rich! This palely-wandering knight has found a flame Both merciless and beautiful, you witch! ' You play the game, and frankly, as a game! This is the hour of prattle — tell me true! I have never met another such. Have you? —113— .

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1909 · PDF PAGE 71

John St. John

…e exuberance of the former can excite the latter. In other words there is probably some first matter of the work which is not anything we know of as bodily. On my return to London, I must certainly put the matter before more experienced mathematicians, and if possible, get a graphic analysis of the kind in- dicated.] How difficult and expensive it is to get drunk, when one is doing magic ! Nothing exhilarates or otherwise affects one. Oh, the pathos and tragedy of those lines : Come where the booze is cheaper ! Come where the pots hold more! How …

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1910 · PDF PAGE 149

The Winged Beetle

…ath the moon. I feel my weakness, O thou soul that soarest Into a heaven beyond imagining On the unfaltering wing. Of the magic swan ! I know this tune Should swell to a strong note, a triumph note Blared through a trumpet’s throat To tell the world I am no coward, or else Sob in sweet minor, soft as Asmodel’s Chant to the nightingale. I am so wrecked, so rent That one seems brag, the other sentiment. I cannot leave the present ; I will not pose There lies the rotten rose And stinks. That is the truth ; the rest is gloss. My loss was total loss…

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1912 · PDF PAGE 31

Mortadello

…O. I want you for my wife. MONICA. My lord, ask something else. I am not worthy of love. ORLANDO. Love, if I read you, spells a word you know not of. Therefore therein for me the supreme triumph lies. [MONICA hesitates and prays silently. MONICA. My Venice, ‘tis for thee I make the sacrifice. Must it be so ? Behold, like babe-soft moons of snow. Moons barely three days old, my virgin breasts aglow. Are these worth Magdalene’s, that blaze throughout the night. The swart imperious queen’s ? O read your heart aright ! Spare me, save Venice ! ORLAN…

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1912 · PDF PAGE 160

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VII)

… the twenty-fourth part of 3 moment, 1031 with 3 hundred mighty earthquakes and 3 thousand times 35 many surges, which rest not, neither know any1 time here, One rock bringeth forth a thousand, even as the heart of man doth his thoughts Woel Woel Woel Woel Woel Woel Yea, Woe be to the Earth, for her iniquity is, was, and shall be great Come away] but not your mighty sounds] The Angle of A of V in the tablet of V. The Prince of the Chariot of the Waters. \ ν.Ι. “ Any echoing time between." 118

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1912 · PDF PAGE 160

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VIII)

… the twenty-fourth part of 3 moment, 1031 with 3 hundred mighty earthquakes and 3 thousand times 35 many surges, which rest not, neither know any1 time here, One rock bringeth forth a thousand, even as the heart of man doth his thoughts Woel Woel Woel Woel Woel Woel Yea, Woe be to the Earth, for her iniquity is, was, and shall be great Come away] but not your mighty sounds] The Angle of A of V in the tablet of V. The Prince of the Chariot of the Waters. \ ν.Ι. “ Any echoing time between." 118

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1898 · PDF PAGE 19

The Poem

…TERIES: SCENE IV. The next morning. Esméin bed asleep. Enter Vaughan. VAUGHAN. OOR child, poor child, how are you? You have not slept, I know. Why, she is still asleep! Hush! How calmly and regularly she breathes! How fresh she looks! How she smiles! It is wonderful! It is impossible! Esmé! Esmé! it is a pity you cannot always sleep so, and never wake up to the cruel sorrow of yesterday. Ah me! When we all thought to be so happy. And in a month he would have married her: in a day he would have finished the poem. What a wonderful poem it was! On…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 14

The Star in the West

…ffer this essay to the public . It has been a difficult task . In simple words and complex symbols Crowley has written with St. Leo :— “ Know , O man , thy dignity ; ” and this I have in this essay attempted to explain , though many I am afraid will misunderstand me , and more still misinterpret my modest efforts . For these latter ones I can but exclaim : “ Caeterum scis quid ego cogitem , scortum scorteum ; Di tibi dent , nudosque lares inopemque senectam et longas hyemes perpetuamque sitim ." And for those former , bid them contemplate well …

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1909 · PDF PAGE 61

Clouds Without Water

XIV I‘or me therein shall you erect a statue Even as you know me with the mystic eyes Hungrily, hungrily a-gazing at you, Afeast upon our strange sad ecstasies. Make me the aching mouth parched-up with blisses The lips curled back, the breath desiring you, The whole face fragrant with your full free kisses, The soul thereof exhaling scented dew Born in the utmost world where we in truth Abide like Bacchus with a Bassarid Drunk with our art, love, beauty, force and youth ; But place that head upon a pyramid Of snaky lightnings, lest — but that s…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 239

The Equinox (Volume I, Number III)

MR. TODD carr. —Anything I don’t know. EUPHEMIA. Oh, you laugh even at me! carr. Because I love you. So I laugh at humanity: if 1 took men seriously I should have to cut my throat. EUPHEMIA. So you don’t take me seriously either? carr. IfI did, I should have to cut- EUPHEMIA. What? carr. My lucky! EUPHEMIA. What a dreadful expression! Where do you learn such things? carr. I notice you don’t have to ask what it means. EUPHEMIA. Stop teasing, darling! carr. I’m not teething! That’s what I complain of; you always treat me as a baby! EUPHEMIA. Come…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 239

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IV)

MR. TODD carr. —Anything I don’t know. EUPHEMIA. Oh, you laugh even at me! carr. Because I love you. So I laugh at humanity: if 1 took men seriously I should have to cut my throat. EUPHEMIA. So you don’t take me seriously either? carr. IfI did, I should have to cut- EUPHEMIA. What? carr. My lucky! EUPHEMIA. What a dreadful expression! Where do you learn such things? carr. I notice you don’t have to ask what it means. EUPHEMIA. Stop teasing, darling! carr. I’m not teething! That’s what I complain of; you always treat me as a baby! EUPHEMIA. Come…

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1912 · PDF PAGE 72

Mortadello

…sting, a sun to shed Life on all wanderers in the maze of love, a moon To curve, and Venus’ self to craze. LUCREZIA. O tender tune ! You know the secret of all sweetness. MONICA. No ! ’tis you Who are too fair.

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1913 · PDF PAGE 173

Cambridge Poets 1900–1913

…am I was true , and I followed the light Till it vanished , and left me in darkness all cold and forlorn ; It may be that is the end ; I know not nor care . If these songs that were wrought in the days of my springtide are fair , Perchance they shall seem to you good in the heart of the night , When you wait for the light that shall come in the wake of the morn . 154

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1954 · PDF PAGE 439

Magick Without Tears

…TER PERDURABO as he leapt from rock to rock of the moraine without ever casting his eyes upon the ground. Or in The Book of the Law. You know the passage well enough. Conclusion : this discussion has for ever abolished the use of the word faith to imply conscious belief of any sort. At least, if there should ever be an element of awareness, it is of the nature of a sudden leap into daylight of the quintessence of a mass of subconsciously selected and ordered experience. Then what , if you please, did Paul mean when he wrote "Faith is the substa…

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