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1929 · PDF PAGE 94

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… neither arms nor discipline. We were younger, certainly weaker, man for man, and we lacked the force which fury lends to its victims. I found myself puzzling it out and the only conclusion was that, whatever science may say, there is such a thing as moral superiority, a spiritual strength independent of material or calculable conditions. The fight went of for twenty minutes or so and ended queerly enough. The mob thinned out, melted away at its outskirts, and the front rank men became aware of the fact simultaneously without any more reason th…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 313

The Equinox (Volume I, Number I)

… I grew thirty cubits in height—perhaps more. “Then the sun upon which I was standing rose above the four other suns, and as it did so I found myself standing before an ancient man with snow-white beard, whose countenance was a-fired with benevolence. And as I looked upon him, a great desire possessed me to stretch forth my hand and touch his beard; and as the desire grew strong, a voice said unto me, ‘ Touch, it is granted thee.’ “So I stretched forth my hand and gently placed my fingers upon the venerable beard. And as I did so, the ancient m…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 313

The Equinox (Volume I, Number II)

… I grew thirty cubits in height—perhaps more. “Then the sun upon which I was standing rose above the four other suns, and as it did so I found myself standing before an ancient man with snow-white beard, whose countenance was a-fired with benevolence. And as I looked upon him, a great desire possessed me to stretch forth my hand and touch his beard; and as the desire grew strong, a voice said unto me, ‘ Touch, it is granted thee.’ “So I stretched forth my hand and gently placed my fingers upon the venerable beard. And as I did so, the ancient m…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 367

Diary of a Drug Fiend

… He opened the door of the house, repeating his old formula :— “Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.” Till that moment I had found the phrase by turns ridiculous, annoying, or tedious. It had completely lost these attributes. The dry bones lived. I thrilled to the marrow as he uttered it. A soft, sweet voice, strangely familiar, answered him out of the vast, dim room. Dim, for the blinding sunlight of the open air was unable wholly to illuminate the interior to my contracted pupils.

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1929 · PDF PAGE 510

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… poetical puppets. I must face reality for good and all. The desolation in my heart was unspeakably dreadful and the seventh Chokmah day found me in the same solitude and silence as the first three; with this difference: that a minister was appointed to comfort and console me. Exactly as before, every single relation that I had established snapped suddenly. I had plenty of friends; but none of them meant anything. However, my consolation was supreme. On the one hand, the despairing cynicism of the wise realist Snake, on the other, the heartless…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 226

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…’t expect to get back to the top of our form in a week. Besides, we didn’t want that kind of excitement. We had enough in other ways. We found we could see things. That ass, Basil, was always talking about the danger of magic, and precaution, and scientific methods and all that bunk. We were seeing more

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1929 · PDF PAGE 64

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…llness. It was nothing very serious and I had long been accustomed to expect to die before I came of age. But for some reason or other I found myself forced to meditate upon the fact of mortality. It was impressed upon me that I hadn't a moment to lose. There was no fear of death or of a possible "hereafter"; but I was appalled by the idea of the futility of all human endeavour. Suppose, I said to myself, that I make a great success in diplomacy and become ambassador to Paris. There was no good in that --- I could not so much as remember the na…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 370

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…essed any commercial value. I shrugged my shoulders accordingly and gave up the search. The skis that I had promised Ward were not to be found any more than the Watch Towers. After putting Neuburg through this initiation1, we repaired to London. I had let the house and my tenant was coming in on the first of July. We had four days in which to amuse ourselves; and we let ourselves go for a thorough good time. Thus like a thunderbolt comes the incident of June 28th, thus described in my diary: Glory be to Nuit, Hadit, Ra-Hoor-Khuit in the highest…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 292

The Star in the West

…me and space knowledge is but relative. Is it not true that all which we call reality is but relative , for abso lute truth is not to be found in the phenomenal world . Thus your natural reason does not possess its true essence , but only the appearance of truth and light ; and the more the essence of light inwardly fades , and the man confuses him self with this appearance , and gropes vainly after the dazzling phantasmal images he conjures . This appearance of Truth is practically what the Hindu would call “. maya ,” in which all created bein…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 211

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…the characteristic American faculty of doing anything and everything easily; of scoring superficial success. One day I called on him and found a large easel in his studio on which stood a vast canvas --- evidently by Kelly. I congratulated him on his acquisition. He replied, rather huffily, that he had painted it himself. And the cream of the jest is that this hasty imitation of Kelly's imitations of Velasquez was accepted in the Salon on the strength of Stanlaws' American reputation! I gradually sickened of the atmosphere of Paris. It was all …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 382

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…, but what I heard was as unintelligible to me as Blake to a Baptist. I was encouraged by the evident importance of these results, but I found that I could no more force myself to go on to the twenty-eighth Aethyr than I could have thrown myself from a cliff. I accepted the rebuff; but, while dismissing the matter from my mind, managed to preserve the record throughout my wanderings. I had not thought of continuing this work for nearly nine years; but at Aumale a hand suddenly smote its lightning into my heart, and I knew that now, that very da…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 474

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…he psychology of Americans, who had written books about them? Was there no man of master mind, ripe experience, balanced wisdom? {749} I found such a candidate for the secret director of the German propaganda in Professor Hugo Münsterberg. As it happened, the professor was an old enemy of mine. We had quarrelled about philosophy and physics. His mind was intensely positive, brutally matter-of-fact, but capable of appreciating subtlety, and far more open to new facts and theories than most of his opponents supposed. His arrogance was, to a great…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 192

The Equinox (Volume I, Number III)

…lived. He entered one of the rooms, which he also at once recognised but curious to say, instead of finding D.D.C.F. and V.N.R. there he found Theo and Mrs. Horos. Mr. Horos (M.S.R.) incarnated in the body of V.N.R. and Mrs. Horos (S.V.A.) in that of D.D.C.F. Their 176

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1910 · PDF PAGE 192

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IV)

…lived. He entered one of the rooms, which he also at once recognised but curious to say, instead of finding D.D.C.F. and V.N.R. there he found Theo and Mrs. Horos. Mr. Horos (M.S.R.) incarnated in the body of V.N.R. and Mrs. Horos (S.V.A.) in that of D.D.C.F. Their 176

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1929 · PDF PAGE 481

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

481 When De Wend Fenton was trying to blackmail me in 1910, he found to his chagrin that I would not even meet him at dinner, so that he might propose a "friendly arrangement" over the coffee and cigars, by which I should pay cash for credit, sovereigns for silence. Balked by my contempt, he cast about him for some less wary bird. If he could only get one of my friends to sue him for libel, he would be able to wriggle out of it somehow. Then, think of all the free publicity! Even if he lost the case, it didn't matter, for his paper was bankrupt…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 40

The Star in the West

…s the most attractive wares . It is not intended here in any way to assume immaculacy for our author , far from it, for faults are to be found here as in every other work , great or small , false rime and metre , half a step left out here and there , some times a whole one : but taking these poems as a whole , these lapses are remarkably few , and it must also be borne in mind that in nearly every case they are inten tional lapses from the orthodox rules of poetic cadence and metre . One command Crowley alone obeys , and that is : that all vers…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 290

Magick Without Tears

…e Stars and the Moon; I revelled in the Universe. Yet there was something pulling at me. lt pulled eftsoons my body into my chair, and I found

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1996 · PDF PAGE 45

The Law is for All

…great is the power of asserting one’s right that it will not long be disputed. For by doing so one appeals to the Law. In practice it is found that people who are ready to fight for their rights are respected, and let alone. The slave-spirit invites oppression. 44. For pure will, unassuaged of purpose, delivered from the lust of result, is every way perfect. Commentary: This verse is best interpreted by defining “pure will” as the true expression of the Nature, the proper or inherent motion of the matter, concerned. It is unnatural to aim at an…

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1911 · PDF PAGE 60

The Vision and the Voice

…uth is your troth with Adonai the Beloved one. And the Chymical Marriage of the Alchemists beginneth with a Weighing, and he that is not found wanting hath within him one spark of fire, so dense and so intense that it cannot be moved, though all the winds of heaven should clamour against it, and all the waters of the abyss surge against it, and all the multitude of the earths heap themselves upon it to smother it. Nay, it shall not be moved. And this is the fire of which it is written: “ Hear thou the voice of fire!” And the voice of fire is th…

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1915 · PDF PAGE 4

The World On Fire

Edward VII spoke English with an accent; and at the first hour of war with Germany we found the first Lord of the Admiralty a German Prince! Until this year England has never been at war with Germany in the course of history since the Conquest. Our very speech, half German, betrayeth us. All this is finished. The German is a Hun, and a Vandal, and a monster, and a woman-torturer, and a child-murderer, and runs away in his millions at the sight of a Territorial from Hoxton. And the British Army has won victory after victory against enormous odds…

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