Thelema ScholarTHE ALEISTER CROWLEY COLLECTION
FOLLOW A WORD THROUGH THE COLLECTION

Search the corpus.

Phrase search ignores case and repeated whitespace. All-words search finds whole words anywhere on the same page. OCR errors can affect results.

1,585 matching pages

Page 37 of 80
1909 · PDF PAGE 125

The Equinox (Volume I, Number II)

…ootpads. Nothing, however, occurred until—I always preferred to walk through the narrow streets ; there is romance in narrow streets !—I found myself in the Rue des Quatre Vents ; not a stone’s-throw from this house, as you know. “T had been thinking of my previous misadventure, and, with the folly of youth, had been indulging in a reverie of the kind that begins ‘If only.’ If only she had been a princess ravished by a wicked ogre. Ifonly... Ifonly... “On the south side of the Rue des Quatre Vents is a house standing well back from the street, …

original embedded textRead original & transcription →
1912 · PDF PAGE 50

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VII)

THE EQUINOX he found his old comrade, I. A., now a member of the Buddhist Sangha, under the name οί Bhikku Ananda Metteya. It was from him that he received the instructions which were to help him to reach the great and terrible pinnacle of the mind whence the Adept must plunge into the Abyss, to emerge naked, a babe—the Babe of the Abyss “Explore the River of the Soul," said Ananda Metteya, “ whence and in what order you have come” For three days—the longest period allowed by the Buddhist law—he remained in the Choung, meditating on this matter…

original embedded textRead original & transcription →
1912 · PDF PAGE 135

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VII)

… had said, “ if we could only crystallize it, what splendid diamonds we could have ! But we can’t—not to any effect. Diamonds are always found in a kind of blue mud—I suppose there can’t be any here?" leading her to a box full of modelling clay which he used in some of his experiments. And he made her dive and dirty her dear little fingers ever so, before she ran against the necklace. And when they retrieved it quite, and washed it, and he put it round her neck for her very own ! She played in her demure, modest way; not very good, but pleasing …

original embedded textRead original & transcription →
1912 · PDF PAGE 139

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VII)

…iumph— antly. Now we'll see if we’ve managed to crystallize any coal 1 " So the child began to hunt in the scuttle, and in a few minutes found the ring glittering in its dusty setting, like the eyes of a snake in the jungle. “Oh, you darling I " she cried, “Oh, you old fraud 1 You said nothing about making gold l" “ Ah] that’s a little accident,” replied the Professor. " Discoveries never come singly." “And is it really for me? All my very own?" ”Who else should it be for, darling?” “ You’re a darling sweet boy." “ Run away and wash your handsl…

original embedded textRead original & transcription →
1912 · PDF PAGE 181

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VII)

… to me, though, for the fact is I had the most awful dream SERGEANT. And so you shrieked, of course. Strikes me, neighbour Clark, you've found a pretty mare‘s nest. CLARK. But where’s 016 Meyer? I swear I saw him come in less than half an hour ago. JACK. I tell you he's not here. Why don’t you look for him, you dear old muddlehead? SERGEANT. Why, yes, Mr. Adams, that seems the simplest way. JACK. Just take a note first of all of what the burglars have done, Sergeant. Three large patent safes carried bodily away—shutters broken—[Goes and mfi/es […

original embedded textRead original & transcription →
1912 · PDF PAGE 50

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VIII)

THE EQUINOX he found his old comrade, I. A., now a member of the Buddhist Sangha, under the name οί Bhikku Ananda Metteya. It was from him that he received the instructions which were to help him to reach the great and terrible pinnacle of the mind whence the Adept must plunge into the Abyss, to emerge naked, a babe—the Babe of the Abyss “Explore the River of the Soul," said Ananda Metteya, “ whence and in what order you have come” For three days—the longest period allowed by the Buddhist law—he remained in the Choung, meditating on this matter…

original embedded textRead original & transcription →
1912 · PDF PAGE 135

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VIII)

… had said, “ if we could only crystallize it, what splendid diamonds we could have ! But we can’t—not to any effect. Diamonds are always found in a kind of blue mud—I suppose there can’t be any here?" leading her to a box full of modelling clay which he used in some of his experiments. And he made her dive and dirty her dear little fingers ever so, before she ran against the necklace. And when they retrieved it quite, and washed it, and he put it round her neck for her very own ! She played in her demure, modest way; not very good, but pleasing …

original embedded textRead original & transcription →
1912 · PDF PAGE 139

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VIII)

…iumph— antly. Now we'll see if we’ve managed to crystallize any coal 1 " So the child began to hunt in the scuttle, and in a few minutes found the ring glittering in its dusty setting, like the eyes of a snake in the jungle. “Oh, you darling I " she cried, “Oh, you old fraud 1 You said nothing about making gold l" “ Ah] that’s a little accident,” replied the Professor. " Discoveries never come singly." “And is it really for me? All my very own?" ”Who else should it be for, darling?” “ You’re a darling sweet boy." “ Run away and wash your handsl…

original embedded textRead original & transcription →
1912 · PDF PAGE 181

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VIII)

… to me, though, for the fact is I had the most awful dream SERGEANT. And so you shrieked, of course. Strikes me, neighbour Clark, you've found a pretty mare‘s nest. CLARK. But where’s 016 Meyer? I swear I saw him come in less than half an hour ago. JACK. I tell you he's not here. Why don’t you look for him, you dear old muddlehead? SERGEANT. Why, yes, Mr. Adams, that seems the simplest way. JACK. Just take a note first of all of what the burglars have done, Sergeant. Three large patent safes carried bodily away—shutters broken—[Goes and mfi/es […

original embedded textRead original & transcription →
1922 · PDF PAGE 235

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…d ran out of the house down to the lake and dived right in. He swam a few strokes and then came out and walked slowly up to the house. I found some towelsin the linen chest. I was afraid of his catching a chill, so I rubbed him hard all over. He seemed to have forgotten everything. He was quite nice and normal but just a little scared. I can’t make out what’s the matter with him. He

original embedded textRead original & transcription →
1929 · PDF PAGE 412

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…tual of the 30° had taken hold of my imagination. The idea of my proposed play, The Scorpion, sprang into life full-armed. I have always found that unless I jump on such inspiration like a tiger, I am never able to "recapture the first fine careless rapture". I accordingly jumped out of the train at El Kantara and wrote it that evening and next day. I had done little creative work during the walk. My Retirements, as a rule, especially when they involve physical hardship, keep me in intimate communion with the universe and rarely dispose me to w…

original embedded textRead original & transcription →
1904 · PDF PAGE 27

The Sword of Song

…aming Star,75 Jeheshua (See thou Zohar !)76 And thus our formidable Pigeon-77 Lamb-and-Old-Gentleman religion Fizzles in smoke, and I am found Attacking nothing. Here’s the ground, Pistols, and coffee—three in one, (Alas, O Rabbi Schimeon !) But never a duellist—no Son, No Father, and (to please us most) Decency pleads—no Holy Ghost! All vanish at the touch of truth, A cobweb trio—like, in sooth, 705 710 715 720 725 730 735 740 Mystical mean-ing o f “Ascen-sion Day.” Futility of whole discus- sion, in view o f facts.

original embedded textRead original & transcription →
1910 · PDF PAGE 106

The Equinox (Volume I, Number III)

… in not only strengthening but in pro- longing this life to an indefinite period.j These practices are called the Mudras, they are to be found fully described in the Tantras, and are made use of as one of the methods of awakening the sleeping Kundalini.t There are many of these Mudras, the most important being the Yoni-Mudra, Maha Mudra, Maha Bandha, Maha Vedha, Khechari, Uddiyana, Mula and Salandhara Bandha, Viparitakarani, Vajroli and Shakti Chalana. 1. The Yont Mudra. With a strong inspiration fix the mind in the Adhar lotus; * “Hatha Yoga P…

original embedded textRead original & transcription →
1910 · PDF PAGE 106

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IV)

… in not only strengthening but in pro- longing this life to an indefinite period.j These practices are called the Mudras, they are to be found fully described in the Tantras, and are made use of as one of the methods of awakening the sleeping Kundalini.t There are many of these Mudras, the most important being the Yoni-Mudra, Maha Mudra, Maha Bandha, Maha Vedha, Khechari, Uddiyana, Mula and Salandhara Bandha, Viparitakarani, Vajroli and Shakti Chalana. 1. The Yont Mudra. With a strong inspiration fix the mind in the Adhar lotus; * “Hatha Yoga P…

original embedded textRead original & transcription →
1910 · PDF PAGE 208

The Winged Beetle

… ? Who dost distinguish between the just and the unjust ? Thou keeper of all secrets, of this great secret which I seek, and have nowise found ! This secret for whose very shadowing-forth in parable I, who am young, strong, successful, beloved, most enviable of men, would throw it all away ! Oh Thou who givest that which none other can give, who art Thou ? How can I bargain with Thee ? what shall I give that I may possess Thy secret ? O question unavailing ! For I know not yet Thy name ! Who art Thou ? Who art Thou ? THOMAS [opening the door]. …

original embedded textRead original & transcription →
1913 · PDF PAGE 5

The Writing On the Ground

…AD IN GOMORRAH. It is very fortunate that even in times when the greatest laxity of morals prevails, in England at least there is always found some austere and noble soul to protest against decadence ; to be a witness in the midst of corruption, that there is a standard of pure and lofty thought, a City of the Soul, forti- fied against all evil, and whose artillery can over- whelm the savage hordes of impurity. We do not think any one will accuse us of flat- tery in saying that Lord Alfred Douglas is just such a person, and this is the more str…

original embedded textRead original & transcription →
1922 · PDF PAGE 250

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…um. The obsession of the poem still enthralled him. While I was dressing the wounds he said feebly and dreamily :— “She it is, she, that found me ‘In the morphia honeymoon ; With silk and steel she bound me; In her poisonous milk she drowned me, Even now her arms surround me.” “Yes,” I said, “‘ but it’s your wife who loves you and is going to nurse you through this trouble, and we're going to live happy ever afterwards.” He smiled very faintly and sweetly and dozed off... . Wednesday I count the days now. We are having an Indian summer. Nature …

original embedded textRead original & transcription →
1929 · PDF PAGE 179

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…of the spur. There are actually a few trees at this place. On this march one has to cross the Punmah, a broad and shallow stream which I found easy enough to ford. The alternative --- to which we were reduced on our return --- is to trudge about six miles up stream to a rope bridge and down the other bank. It may be that the low barometric pressure affects the velocity of running water, for streams seem much swifter than one would expect for the slope. The current carries down round stones in the most dangerous way. When Knowles tried to ford t…

original embedded textRead original & transcription →
1909 · PDF PAGE 365

The Equinox (Volume I, Number I)

…ould be very much surprised if this were not the cover I am waiting for. No fallacies will induce me to free you now that at last I have found you. I was dead; my life was nothing more than a spring without motion. Every twenty-one days, according to the calendar, I came, pacing the lonely streets of this remote spot. For two hours each time did I wait and wait, longing, eager, nervous, hopeful, hopeless, desperate, distressed, with gigantic thoughts crowding my mind. I almost despaired of seeing this moment; at last it has come. I forgot the d…

original embedded textRead original & transcription →
1909 · PDF PAGE 365

The Equinox (Volume I, Number II)

…ould be very much surprised if this were not the cover I am waiting for. No fallacies will induce me to free you now that at last I have found you. I was dead; my life was nothing more than a spring without motion. Every twenty-one days, according to the calendar, I came, pacing the lonely streets of this remote spot. For two hours each time did I wait and wait, longing, eager, nervous, hopeful, hopeless, desperate, distressed, with gigantic thoughts crowding my mind. I almost despaired of seeing this moment; at last it has come. I forgot the d…

original embedded textRead original & transcription →