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1910 · PDF PAGE 243

The Equinox (Volume I, Number III)

… loving you. I offer you the sympathy and devotion of a lifetime. EUPHEMIA. I beg you to spare me. It is impossible. DELHOMME. It is the truth—it is necessary—I should kill myself if you refused. EUPHEMIA. My father DELHOMME. Your respected father is my warmest advocate. EUPHEMIA. You distress me, sir. It is impossible. DELHOMME. Ah, fairest of maidens, well I know your English coyness and modesty! [Taking her hand.] Ah, give me this pure hand for good, for ever! This hand which has been ever open to the misery of the poor, ever closed to box t…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 243

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IV)

… loving you. I offer you the sympathy and devotion of a lifetime. EUPHEMIA. I beg you to spare me. It is impossible. DELHOMME. It is the truth—it is necessary—I should kill myself if you refused. EUPHEMIA. My father DELHOMME. Your respected father is my warmest advocate. EUPHEMIA. You distress me, sir. It is impossible. DELHOMME. Ah, fairest of maidens, well I know your English coyness and modesty! [Taking her hand.] Ah, give me this pure hand for good, for ever! This hand which has been ever open to the misery of the poor, ever closed to box t…

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1899 · PDF PAGE 16

Jephthah and Other Mysteries

…o fling Into the waters that abound and spring ! Back, to your mother filth! With hope, and youth Love, light, and power, and mastery of truth

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1910 · PDF PAGE 12

Rosa Decidua

…hat one seems brag, the other sentiment. I cannot leave the present ; I will not pose There lies the rotten rose And stinks. That is the truth ; the rest is gloss. My loss was total loss. So close that rose lay to my heart, its fall Was the catastrophe of all.

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1928 · PDF PAGE 38

Little Poems in Prose

… have learned from books, and this indefatigable melancholy, fit to inspire who looks upon it with quite another sentiment than pity? In truth I sometimes feel that I should like to teach you what real un- happiness is like. To see you thus, my beauti- ful invalid, your feet in the mire and your eyes turned dimly towards heaven, as if you wanted

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1961 · PDF PAGE 136

Liber Aleph

…en were already aware how this Unconscious, or Libido, is opposed, for the most Part, to the conscious Will. In the Slave-Ages this is a Truth Universal, or well night to it; for in such Times are Men compelled to Uniformity by the Constraint of Necessity herself. Yea, of old it was a continual Siege of every Man of every Clan, of every Environment; and to relax guard was then Self-murder, or also Treachery. so then no Man might chose his way, until he were Hunter, Fighter, Builder; not any Woman, but she must first be Breeder. Now in the Growt…

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1904 · PDF PAGE 90

The Sword of Song

…ool,” they laughed back—nay, even his maiden queen. For she would not any should know thereof. Yet all were right, both he and they. But truth ran quickly about; for that was the House of Truth; and Mercury stood far from the Sun. Yet the Suggler was ever in the Sign of Sorrow, and the Fig Tree was not far. So went our Father to the Fool’s Paradise of Air. But it is not lawful that I should write to y ou, brethren, of what there came to him at that place and time; nor indeed is it true, if it were written. F or alway doth this Arcanum differ fr…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 95

Collected Works (Vol. III)

… Then of all things the soul were freest. 4. Move then the centre of thy pain ! NV. ’Tis done, A, A trick to cheat a child. NV. Itis the truth that I am nought. Hear what I have gatheredin the wild, Flowers of imperishable thought With glory and with rapture clothed. This being, thinking, loved or loathed, Hath attributes. This sand is gold :— Deem’st thou a gilder lurks within The atom ? What should Nature hold Of aureate save a mind begin Colour-conception? Then we win To think our thought itselfa chance Grafted upon the circumstance Of cereb…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 149

The Winged Beetle

…hat one seems brag, the other sentiment. I cannot leave the present ; I will not pose There lies the rotten rose And stinks. That is the truth ; the rest is gloss. My loss was total loss. So close that rose lay to my heart, its fall Was the catastrophe of all.

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1929 · PDF PAGE 516

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…fe, that it was essentially illusory and self-contradictory. It had been my constant preoccupation to find a means of expression for the truth of spiritual illumination in terms of rational comprehension, and moreover to justify the former without denying the validity of the later. Professor Thompson's remarks filled me with hope. It must be remembered that at the period when I studied science most exclusively, the reaction against mysticism was in full swing. The persecution of Darwin was like an unhealed scar; its contemplation bred resentmen…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 311

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…could go all round the circle in any argument. Christian philosophers have seized on this fact to urge that our only hope of arriving at truth is through faith; but it is the bankruptcy of faith that originally drove us to test it by reason. I saw that the true solution was, on the contrary, that of the mystic. In Cabbalistic and scientific language, we possess a faculty of apprehension independent of reason, which informs us directly of the truth. I wrote in my Magical Diary on November 19th, 1905: I realize in myself the perfect impossibility…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 61

Clouds Without Water

…ring you, The whole face fragrant with your full free kisses, The soul thereof exhaling scented dew Born in the utmost world where we in truth Abide like Bacchus with a Bassarid Drunk with our art, love, beauty, force and youth ; But place that head upon a pyramid Of snaky lightnings, lest — but that shall be Alwaysa secret between you and mie. —_ y i Or, an you will, evoke me as the Sphinx With lion’s claws, bull’s breast, and eagle’s wings ! You are my riddle, and the answer sinks Below the deep essential base of things, Rises above the utmos…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 271

The Star in the West

… bowed awhile Before the terror suddenly shown. The nameless fear for self , far hurled By death to dissolution vile, Fades as the royal truth is known : Though change and sorrow range and roll , There is no self - there is no soul !? TIME AND SPACE One question still remains before we dismiss the question of Time and Space , and that is their homo geneity and accidental reality in the Ego . Being forms of extension , Space permits Size , and Time , Number , i.e., in Consciousness . This is the meaning of “ Time is the fourth Dimension .” So th…

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1898 · PDF PAGE 20

White Stains

…rd of enquiry as to what became of the heroic figure of Mathilde Doriac. It is a bitter task to have to write in cold blood the dreadful truth about her death. She had the misfortune to contract, in the last few days of her life with him, the same terrible disease which he describes in the last poem of this collection. This shock, coming so soon after, and, as it were, as an unholy perpetual reminder of the madness and sequestration of her lover, no less than of his infidelity, unhinged her mind, and she shot herself on July 5th, 1869. Her last…

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1899 · PDF PAGE 20

Jephthah and Other Mysteries

xx PRELUDE. _Completing Truth in its amazing span :— “ Godhead is made the Spirit that is Man.” To whose white mountains, and their arduous ways, Turn we our purpose, till the faith that slays Yield up its place to faith that gives us life, The faith to conquer in the higher strife ; Our single purpose, and sublime intent, With their spilt blood to seal our sacrament, Who stand among the martyrs of the Light; Our single purpose, by incarnate might Begotten after travail unto death, To live within the light that quickeneth ; To tread base though…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 64

The Equinox (Volume I, Number I)

… reputation for unparalleled cowardice; in the world I am equally accused of foolhardiness. The judgment of the boys was the better. The truth is that I have always been excessively cautious, have never willingly undertaken even the smallest risk. The paradoxical result is that I have walked hundreds of miles unroped over snow-covered glaciers, and that nobody (so far as I know) has even attempted to repeat my major climbs on Beachy Head. One may add a little grimly that the same remark applies to my excursions into the regions of the mind, the…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 64

The Equinox (Volume I, Number II)

… reputation for unparalleled cowardice; in the world I am equally accused of foolhardiness. The judgment of the boys was the better. The truth is that I have always been excessively cautious, have never willingly undertaken even the smallest risk. The paradoxical result is that I have walked hundreds of miles unroped over snow-covered glaciers, and that nobody (so far as I know) has even attempted to repeat my major climbs on Beachy Head. One may add a little grimly that the same remark applies to my excursions into the regions of the mind, the…

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1912 · PDF PAGE 8

Book 4 (Part I)

…of, all real religious experience. The whole life of Frater Perdurabo is now devoted to seeing that you obtain this living experience of Truth for, by, and in yourselves! SOROR VIRAKAM (Mary d’Este Sturges).

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1912 · PDF PAGE 362

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VII)

… K.D. aban L.C.K. pp. 99, 729] The Great Dragon; means thn “curls.” (LR.Q. 8343 vide 510} Irreproachable ; perfect on 2x Jv44t Cerva nox Truth; Temurah of D48, by ADN Aiq Bekar A live coal nbm Day Demon of 2” Dec. “NH Angel L-T.D. of sw 442 Termini Terrae ys ‘DEN 7443 A virgin; acity. ny abina Goliath ma 444 ‘The Sanctuary wpa Damascus punt The total value of the Single Letters; 445 4B, 3D. Y¥ andp Number of Stars in the Northern hemisphere 446 Destruction ; death nye 46 Pison pe Tali pedum pip 447 Initials of the Three N29 957 Above and the Th…

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1912 · PDF PAGE 362

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VIII)

… K.D. aban L.C.K. pp. 99, 729] The Great Dragon; means thn “curls.” (LR.Q. 8343 vide 510} Irreproachable ; perfect on 2x Jv44t Cerva nox Truth; Temurah of D48, by ADN Aiq Bekar A live coal nbm Day Demon of 2” Dec. “NH Angel L-T.D. of sw 442 Termini Terrae ys ‘DEN 7443 A virgin; acity. ny abina Goliath ma 444 ‘The Sanctuary wpa Damascus punt The total value of the Single Letters; 445 4B, 3D. Y¥ andp Number of Stars in the Northern hemisphere 446 Destruction ; death nye 46 Pison pe Tali pedum pip 447 Initials of the Three N29 957 Above and the Th…

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