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1922 · PDF PAGE 211

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…o have played up to him and got some heroin out of him. This morning has taken everything out of me. I don’t care about saving myself. I know I can’t save Peter. Why must a woman always have a man for her motive ? All I want is H. Both Cockie and I need it heHishly. “Look here, Lou,’ he said with a cunning grin, such as I’d never seen before, quite out of keeping with his character. ‘‘ You doll yourself up and try the doctors. A man told me last night that there were some who would give you a prescription if you paid them enough. A tenner ought…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 301

Magick Without Tears

…op in to Lunn's new shop there , and pass the time of day. He might have something to take my fancy. So I did. Needless to say, I didn't know the shopman from Adam, as he did not offer me a view of his identification mark. I asked after old friends ; we gossiped of old times and new; presently he observed, putting a hand under the counter: "I think this is yours sir." "How do you know who I am? I've never seen you before." "Oh , yes sir, I was the odd-job boy at the old Sidney Street shop ; I remember you quite well." By this time there lay on …

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1907 · PDF PAGE 137

Konx Om Pax

love, so far as he may be seen in a few lines, taken from amongst hundreds of their kind: To know you love me; that your bod lea 5 With the quick passion of your sou : to Know Your fragrant kisses sting my spirit so; To be one soul where Satan smiles and sleeps: Ah ! in the very triumph-hour of Hell Satan himself remembers whence he fell! These lines are not flawless; yet it needs no adjectives as drums to sound their praises. The palate that cannot appreciate such a vintage to the full knows not the taste of good wine. T11: Imperialism of Lam—I…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 82

Diary of a Drug Fiend

68 The Diary of a Drug Fiend always the way with girls—they never know what’s enough. And then I realised with startling suddenness that the case was not confined to the frailer sex. I got out just in time. If I pass over in silence the events of the next hour, it is not because of the paucity of incident. At its conclusion we were seated once more at the table. We took little sips of very old Armagnac; it pulled us together. But all the virtue had gone out of us; we might have been convalescents from some very long and wasting illness. “‘ Ther…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 123

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…a man on his honeymoon.” Lou took up the conversation. ‘“ But do tell us,” she began, ‘‘ why this thusness. It suits you splendidly, you know. But after all, I’m a woman.” Feccles suddenly became very solemn. He went to the door of the coupé and looked up and down the corridor; then he slid the door to and began to speak in a whisper. “‘ Thisis a very serious business,” he said, and paused. He took out his keys and played with them, as if uncertain how far to go. He thrust them back into his . pocket with a decisive gesture. “‘ Look here, old c…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 6

Alexandra

… Still fair and young. II. I saw thee limned in all the robes and pearls, Diamonds and ermine that proclaim thee queen : Thou wast (or I know nothing about girls) Barely eighteen.2 . . . . . . VII. Thy royal Edward’s undivided love Hath been thy lifelong privilege, ’tis true ! Still, is he not, though us so far above, Our Edward too ? . . . . . . XII. Why did the heathen Hindoo’s loyal roar Acclaim that dream brighter than bard e’er dreamt ?3 He worshipped thee4 . . . XIII. ’Twas not thy George’s viking frame that set Australia cheering : but t…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 93

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…t sure he had left his cigarette case with us, and he valued it very much because it had been given him by his Aunt Sophronia. Well, you know, there it was, right on the table, or rather, under the table, because the table was on top of it. When we got the table on its legs again, we saw quite plainly that the cigarette case had been under it, and therefore must have been on top of it before it was overturned. Feccles laughed heartily at the humorous character of the incident. I suppose it was funny in a sort of way. On the other hand, I don’t …

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1922 · PDF PAGE 289

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…tly while Maisie sang. lLou’s eyes were full of tears. They ran down her thin, worn face. She made no effort to wipe them away. I do not know whether she felt them. Heroin dulls all physical sensation, leaving only the dull in- tolerable craving, the acrid irritation, to break in upon the formless stupor which represents the height of well-being. But I had no inclination to weep; mine was the bitter black remorse of Judas. I had sold my master, my True Will, for thirty pieces of poisonous copper, smeared with the slime of quicksilver. And all I…

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1903 · PDF PAGE 54

The Star and the Garter

… spite Of all the cruel will can do. “I take,” you say, “a keen delight In Shelley, but as much in you.” There, you are foolish. And you know The thing I meant to say. O love! What little lightnings serve to show Glimpses of all your heart! Above All, and beneath all, lies there deep, Canopied over with young sleep, 52

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1904 · PDF PAGE 56

The Argonauts

… an enemy once fallen. MEDEA. Fools always! I am tenderer than my years, And gentler than my glances. CHORUS. Sayst thou—what? MEDEA, Ye know me a most powerful sorceress. CHORUS. So I have heard, O lotus-footed one! Nathless I see not any miracle. MEDEA, Last night the heavy-hearted audience Broke up, and Jason wended wearily His way, oppressed by direful bodements of The fate of this forenoon. I saw him go Sad, and remembered how sublime he stood,

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1912 · PDF PAGE 13

Household Gods

…kes my heart cold, and sets my brain on fire. Aurcra. Learn this, as we pass through the portico: Fear nothing; there is nothing you can know! And by these terraces and steps that gleam Wintry, although the summer night is hot, This—what we seek is never what we find! 16

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1907 · PDF PAGE 141

Collected Works (Vol. III)

…e, Where wind came between ; Winter is mad of me, Earth is my queen ; Meadows are clad of me, Above, I am queen. Nestled in green. These know thee; I know thee, O master, As pearls in the cloudland I slept; but I hear I hear and obey. | the loud call ; I follow thy lyrical sway. I obey it and fall! ORPHEUS. : ORPHEUS. O tenderest child Rain’s guerdon and daughter And phantom of day ! : By sunlight’s spies Gleam fitful and wild . Divided in water, On the flowery way ! O light-stream, arise ! Blue skies reconciled Seven petals that slaughter To t…

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1939 · PDF PAGE 22

Eight Lectures on Yoga

… what artists' models can do for over thirty-five minutes. They don't. You do not hear the ticking of the clock; perhaps you do not even know whether a typewriter is going in the room; for all I know, you could sleep peacefully through an air-raid. That has nothing to do with it. As soon as you start the practices you will find, if you are doing them properly, that you are hearing sounds which you never heard before in your life. You become hypersensitive. And as you have five external batteries bombarding you, you get little repose. You feel t…

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1919 · PDF PAGE 139

The Equinox (Volume III, Number I)

…upposed to choose for himself those practices which please him best, and to experiment there- with for himself. Since however he did not know this at the time, he cannot be blamed for doing his best along the lines laid down by his Neophyte.’ In any case he might have done far worse than to strive to carry out these few simple rules which are as follows: THE RULES, 1. Ever be moderate and follow the middle path; rather be the tortoise than the hare; do not rush wildly into anything; but do not abandon what you have taken up, without much foreth…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 94

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…, but I’ve got to lunch with two birds from the Bourse. We have a tremendous deal coming off. Sir Peter’s got more money already than he knows what to do with, otherwise I’d be only too glad to let him in on the 7ez-de-chaussée.”’ Well, you know, that’s all right about my being a millionaire, and all that. It’s one thing being a single man running round London perfectly happy with a shilling cigar and a stall at the Victoria Palace, and it’s quite another being on a honeymoon with a girl whom her most intimate friends call ‘‘ Unlimited Lou.” Fe…

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1930 · PDF PAGE 131

Magick in Theory and Practice (Section 4)

… in this Path, ye must arrive inevitably at the end thereof. 20. This Path is beyond Life and Death; it is also beyond Love, but that ye know not, for ye know not Love. 21. And the end thereof is known not even unto Our Ladv, J s nor to the Beast whereon She rideth, nor unto the Virgin her daughter, nor unto Chaos her lawful Lord; but unto the Crowned Child is it known ? It is not known if it be known. 22. Therefore unto Hadit and unto Nuit be the glory in the End and the Beginning; yea, in the End and the Beginning. — 431 — 9

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1912 · PDF PAGE 99

Sir Palamedes

…t to scan Some feature, though he listened long, No shape of God or fiend or man, No whisper, groan, shriek, scream, or song Gave him to know it. Now it chanced One day Sir Palamedes rode Through a great wood whose leafage danced In the thin sunlight as it flowed From heaven. He halted in a glade, Bade his horse crop the tender grass; Put off his armour, softly laid Himself to sleep till noon should pass. 93

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1907 · PDF PAGE 48

Collected Works (Vol. III)

…o to me and more also if I look at a woman again, What a fool I have been ! GLENSTRAE. Ah, my boy, you will keep clear of the old ones, [know. (Zzd¢er a footman.) These blinds down ! (Zhe maz obeys.) But a tasty little morsel like your Molly—your first love. —Eh, my lad? There; there, don’t be angry ! Srr PERcY. You disgust me. [Zhe footman turns to go. Pshaw ! GLENSTRAE (0 footian). Wait ! (Zo Sir Percy.) Would you tell her sor Sir PERcy. If I deigned speech. GLENSTRAE. fora moment. (Lait servazt.) After which I shall leave you for an hour, my…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 470

Magick Without Tears

…ht. All my life I have been taught: governesses, private tutors, schools, private and public, the best of the Universities: how little I know! I have travelled all over the world in all conditions, from "grand seigneur," to "holy man"; how little I know! What then of the ninety-and-nine, dragged by the ears through suicide examinations, and kicked out of school into factory in their teens? They have learnt only just enough to facilitate the swallowing of the gross venal lies of the radio and the Yellow Press; or, if mother-wit has chanced to wa…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 483

Magick Without Tears

450 MAGICK WITHOUT TEARS to know the future or to get advice: their real object is to persuade some supposed "authority" to flatter them and confirm them in their folly and stupidity. It is the same thing with a terrifying percentage of the people that come for "teaching" and "initiation." The moment they learn anything they didn't know before, off they fly in a temper! No sooner does it become apparent that the Master is not a stupid middle-class prig and hypocrite-another edition of themselves, in short-they are frightened, they are horrified…

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