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1929 · PDF PAGE 89

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ool. The captain picked them up and took them home in triumph. The weather made it impossible to do any serious climbing; but I learnt a great deal about the work of a camp at high altitudes, from the management of transport to cooking; in fact, my chief claim to fame is, perhaps, my "glacier curry". It was very amusing to see these strong men, inured to every danger and hardship, dash out of the tent after one mouthful and wallow in the snow, snapping at it like mad dogs. The admitted, however, that it was very good as curry and I should endea…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 429

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… with such expert investigators as Feilding and the rest. Still, I have some experience. I am not entirely an ass and I certainly know a great deal about psychology for one thing, and the unreliability of sensory impressions for another. Ex pede Herculem. If I, such as I am, cannot be relied upon to say whether I am or am not holding a woman's wrist, is it not possible that even experts, admittedly excited by the rapidity with which one startling phenomenon succeeds another, may deceive themselves as to the conditions of the control? It seems t…

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1906 · PDF PAGE 207

Collected Works (Vol. II)

…itic will tell him what I mean. It took a long time, too, for the missionaries (and Tommy Atkins) to discover that ‘‘ Budd” was not a ‘‘ great Gawd."" But then they did not want to, and in any case sympathy and in- telligence are not precisely the most salient qualities in either soldiers or missionaries. But nothing is more absurd than to compare men like Sir W. Jones, Sir R. Burton, Von Hammer-Purgstall, Sir E. Arnold, Prof. Max Miller, Me, Prof. Rhys Davids, Lane, and the rest of our illustrious Orientalists to the poor three

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1929 · PDF PAGE 533

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…I issued a curriculum, classifying the books whose study should give a complete intellectual knowledge of all subjects which bear on the Great Work. The book of The Sandal presents a lyrical interpretation of the Law of Thelema. This is followed by the first installment of "The Magical Record of my Son", Frater O.I.V.V.I.O., to show how in actual practice a fairly normal man came to attain to be a Master of the Temple. Every pertinent detail of his career from the start is clearly set forth. The latter half of the volume is devoted to explainin…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 151

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… to go than to stay away. I took advantage of the circumstances to test my theories. One particular horse had arrived in Calcutta with a great reputation. Everybody backed it and it lost race after race. I waited till it had become so discredited that I could get long odds against it in an important race, and then backed it to win, which it did. It was merely a question of following the psychology of the swindlers. They had pulled it till it was worth while to let it win. I had little real pleasure in rattling the rupees in my pocket. My cynica…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 249

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…onal jump is rather good fun. But to go back up hill again! No, thank you! {413} 1. Snowdrops from a Curate's Garden. The Cresta run was great joy and the sports committee paid me the greatest compliment of asking my advice about its construction. But it seemed to me ideally perfect. The only suggestions which I had to make were connected with safety; and, in fact, several men have been killed since through the precautions proposed by me not having been taken. I cannot blame anyone; my ideas were perhaps hardly practicable. Something should dou…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 579

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

579 amusement. I had read in my time a great deal of utter balderdash, but nothing quite so comprehensively ridiculous. It gave me the greatest joy to notice that practically every single detail was false. There was, for instance, a description of the abbey, without a single failure to misstate the facts. If a thing was white, they called it red, if square, circular, if stone, brick; and so for everything. I saw no reason for taking any action. I was content to enjoy the absurdity and profit by the publicity. Unfortunately the sense of humour i…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 14

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… to Alick as being the most royal, wronged, romantic, brave and solitary of the clans. There can be no doubt that this phantasy played a great part in determining his passionate. {47} Admiration of the chief of the Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn, a Hampshire man named Mathers who inexplicably claimed to be MacGregor of Glenstrae. The boy's attitude to his parents is one of the most remarkable facts of his early life. His father was his hero and his friend, though, for some reason or other, there was no real conscious intimacy or understandin…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 69

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…rself!" The company protested that she would kill herself; and she pretended to be put on her mettle, refused all help and swarmed up in great style. This made everybody very much ashamed. Even the guides were stung into trying it. But nobody else got up. So I started to coach them on the rope. Several succeeded with the moral support and without being hauled. A fair number, however, came off and looked rather ridiculous, dangling. People began the urge the chaplain to try his hand. He didn't like it at all; but he came to me and said he would …

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1906 · PDF PAGE 254

Collected Works (Vol. II)

248 SCIENCE AND BUDDHISM consciousness to consciousness by its eternity, while it fixes a great gulf between them by its changelessness. He states the knowable, states it accurately, and leaves it there. But there is a practical application of this analysis which I will treat of later. (See VIII. Maha- satipa¢¢hana.) We are told that the memory is a proof of some real “J.” But how treacherous is this ground! Did a past event in my life not happen because I have forgotten it? O the analogy of the river water given above is most valid! I who writ…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 169

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…rly, so that if one fails to get back to Kashmir before the snow blocks the pass, one is practically compelled to winter in Baltistan. A great fuss has been made about the actual difficulties and dangers of crossing the pass, but it is merely a long snow trudge. Pfannl and Wessely, who were always boiling over to exhibit their prowess, went up to the col to prospect. They reported on returning (a) that they could not see anything, (b) that the pass was very steep on the other side, and (c) that the other side was free from snow. On the followin…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 352

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ype and the wandering gentilhomme, who is seeking his fortune in one way or another and requires a pied ŕ terre. It is one which implies great mutual respect and affection, and, alas, the qualities which make such relations possible are becoming very rare in the world. Despite all its drawbacks, there was never a better social system than the feudal, so far as it derived from the patriarchal. In getting rid of its abuses, we have also got rid of the noblest springs of action and the most congenial code of manners. The war destroyed this relatio…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 320

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… should have dominated her by your superior strength on other planes. She will give you much trouble, though eventually she may become a great aid. But your shorter path lies by Egypt and S. W. (Ouarda) though she is not spiritually your equal. S. W. has been your enemy; but you have conquered, she is bound to aid you as your will. She has been your enemy and that of F. but you returned her hatred, hence her seeming power over you in the present. (Qy. this hearing.) (Qy. was F. hearing correctly) I will give you a sign when alone and away from …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 550

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… to several problems insoluble by any intellect hitherto incarnate. We talked day and night for a fortnight. On his part, he showed me a great many mysteries in The Book of the Law that I had not suspected till then. I may indeed say that more than once he asked me some questions on a subject of which I was quite ignorant, and that on searching The Book of the Law I discovered a satisfactory reply in a text whose meaning had escaped me through my ignorance of the subject in question. Our conversation was uninterrupted except for the tyranny of …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 569

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…the Order in London, the old Lodge having suspended its labours in consequence of the ridiculous raid described in "the Last Straw". For greater convenience, it was decided that the Ape and I should rent from him the top floor of his house, which we did on my return from the Continent. But now a new ordeal was prepared for me. Despite her quality, the Ape of Thoth began to show the effects of her long strain, anxiety and suffering. I called in a doctor who suspected the beginnings of phthisis, complicated with nervous weakness so serious that p…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 393

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…s; almost the only thing of its kind I have ever done --- which perhaps accounts for my having a sneaking affection for it. I had made a great many friends in London and the reconstructed Order was attracting aspirants from all classes of people, some silly loafers looking for a new sensation, but many most sincere and sensible. My inexperience led me into laxity in dealing with these people. I failed to enforce the strict rule of the Order: that probationers should be kept apart. I allowed them to meet in my studio and even to practise forms o…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 180

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…at themselves in the long run. The law of Moses was entirely intelligible to the least of the Children of Israel; but today not even the greatest judges can pretend to know what the law is until the case at issue has been thrashed out and the decision established as a precedent. The most honest man cannot always be sure that he is not violating some statute. This is even more appallingly and Gilbertainly true in the United States, where federal laws, state laws, municipal laws and police regulations clash their contradictory complexities at eve…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 427

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… Their sum struck me like a bullet in my brain. It was 418, the number of the Magical Formula of the Aeon, a numerical hieroglyph of the Great Work! Ab-ul-Diz had made no mistake. My recognition of the right place was not to depend on a mere matter of trees, which might be found almost anywhere. Recognition beyond all possibility of doubt was what he promised. He had been as good as his word. I was entirely overwhelmed. I jumped out of the car and ran up to the house. I found Virakam in the main room. The instant I entered I understood that it …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 181

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…hobutse; a very short march, but I did not want to tire the men, and this was the only good camping place for some distance. There was a great deal of snow and rain in the early part of the day, though it cleared up in the afternoon. Just after sunset, however, a very violent wind sprang up. On the eleventh, I went on to Rdokass, a much longer march in distance. But the going on the glacier had become much easier. I found some comparatively level stretches. The natives were extremely good in every way; their character compares favourably with t…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 260

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…La --- about four hours' march. Then one skirts the slopes of the Kang La and descends to the branch valley of the Yalung Chu. I found a great block of quartz three and one half hours beyond the pass and pitched camp. The doctor arrived late --- eight thirty. He had had some trouble with the coolies, but they were safely camped some short distance above. The next day was fearfully wet. There is another little pass to cross, and hour beyond the quartz block; two and a half hours more took me down the valley to a camp near Tseram, which is a grou…

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