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1929 · PDF PAGE 85

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ng. He finds the situation nodal for the spirit of romance. An extraordinary number of vital threads or "nerves" of romance. He attaches great significance to the failure of Eckenstein to keep the appointment. It seems to him as if the whole business were a sort of magical ordeal, that Eckenstein should have been awake to the miraculous character of the adventure and kept his appointment though hell itself yawned

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1929 · PDF PAGE 411

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…fore attaining the peak, small heart stoppage of a second or so on attaining the height, second wind again on the way back after a rest, great exaustion, sudden cut into third wind and ran the last five miles --- at a rate impossible at the start of the hike! It did take two days to recover. During third wind, no pain; but the forest seemed suffused with a spectral light at dusk and strange lights moved in the sky. Probably a consequence of opiate production in the brain as a result of extreme stress reaction. could go on. The psychology of thi…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 479

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…lash about abolishing the wicked German Santa Claus!1 No! I was again in error. I must have misinterpreted the motives. The man was that great soul, the Patriot Bottomley! Such a man would doubtless be as difficult to understand as others had found me. He must have had some noble reason for his apparently vile and baseless attacks on bishops, judges and ministers of the crown, to say nothing of firms like Waring and Gillow. I could not concur in the prevalent opinion that he was as much a blackmailer as De Wend Fenton. I could appreciate the el…

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1913 · PDF PAGE 604

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IX)

…t A.*‘.A.*. PUBLICATION IN CLASS B ° BOOK ~ (10 HIS book contains in concise tabulated form a comparative view of all the symbols of the great religions of the world; the perfect attributions of the Taro, so long kept secret by the Rosicrucians, are now for the first time published ; also the complete secret magical correspondence of the G.*. D.*. and R.R.et A. C._ It forms, in short, a complete magical and philosophical dictionary ; a key to all religions and to all practical occult working. For the first time Western and Qabalistic symbols ha…

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1913 · PDF PAGE 604

The Equinox (Volume I, Number X)

…t A.*‘.A.*. PUBLICATION IN CLASS B ° BOOK ~ (10 HIS book contains in concise tabulated form a comparative view of all the symbols of the great religions of the world; the perfect attributions of the Taro, so long kept secret by the Rosicrucians, are now for the first time published ; also the complete secret magical correspondence of the G.*. D.*. and R.R.et A. C._ It forms, in short, a complete magical and philosophical dictionary ; a key to all religions and to all practical occult working. For the first time Western and Qabalistic symbols ha…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 241

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…aw to anybody outside the negligibly small circle of their acquaintances what these men did in their private lives, but England lost her greatest foreign minister and Ireland her greatest leader, because it was discovered that they were doing exactly the same as practically everyone else in their class. With regard again to personal jealousy and ill-regulated passion, is it too much to say that nine tenths of the social misery not due to poverty arises from these hallucinations? The Book of the Law sweeps them out of existence. "There shall be …

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1904 · PDF PAGE 122

The Sword of Song

…n- kindly, in his speech realising the love and pity that is in his heart—that man has attained to Stage the Third. “And becaus e of the great power of a man’s thoughts and words to change his being, because by thinking of the pitiful our acts grow full of m ercy, therefore is Stage the Fourth called Right Conduct. To him who has gained this Fourth Stage, his intense as-piration, his right understanding, his care-fully guarded speech—perhaps for many years of self-control—have at last borne outward fruit, till all his acts are loving, and pure,…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 259

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…rain till eight or ten in the morning every day. The partial failure of the bandobast kept us a day atGamotang. There was in any case no great hurry. I was glad of every opportunity to acquire the affection of the men. I was careful not to overwork them. I gave a prize to the first three men to come into camp every day and those who had come in first three times had their pay permanently raised. I made friends with them, too, by sitting with them round the camp fire and exchanging songs and stories. On the other hand, I made it clear that I wou…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 576

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…Crowley." He bowed deeply. "I don't doubt it for a second, but as I have not had the pleasure of hearing your name till now --- "I saw a great light. "Heaven help me for a fool," I cried. "You can't be my Mencken at all!" Explanations took place. He was a business man from South Africa. At this moment Harrison strolled up and we all enjoyed the joke over more brandy and still bigger cigars. When the real Mencken turned up, the tale of the conversation wagged out the message --- Jane Burr. This lady had recently arrived in London and created a s…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 144

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…e King of Siam provided a new one at the cost of an incredible number of lakhs of rupees. He made a journey to Kandy with his retinue in great pomp to make the presentation in person and the priests refused to allow him to see the tooth! It was a magnificent piece of impudence --- of of policy. My own Unpretentious Holiness met with better fortune. Allan and I were permitted to be present at the annual inspection by the trustees. I believe the tooth to be that of a dog or crocodile, but though I got an excellent view at close quarters, I am not…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 342

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…y, as science is inclined to do, that all dancing symbolized passion. I am always annoyed with research that stops half way. That is the great error of Freud. When he says, quite correctly, that dreams are phantasms of suppressed sexual desire, the question remains, of what is sexual desire the phantasm? To me it seems no more than one of the ways of expressing the formula of creation. I regard chemical action as identical. A man and a woman unite; and the result is a child, which is totally different from them though formed of their elements. …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 284

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… steamship Java and reached Mandalay on the twenty-first. I spent my days and nights leaning over the rail, watching the wavelets of the great river and the flyingfish. I became insane. There I was, lean, stern, brown and immobile; and there was a set of disconnected phenomena, each with a sufficient reason in itself, and the whole of them uniting to produce another phenomenon; but there was no connection between one set of reasons and the other. Each wavelet was caused by certain physical conditions and the effect of the total was to slow down…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 463

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…od. The actual situation, by the way, is critical. There are, roughly speaking, two and a half of the seven and a half million people of Great New York put to grave inconvenience by the congestion and all alike are embarrassed by the ratio of rent to income. In Europe we reckon that rent should not absorb more than one tenth or at most one eighth of one's earning. In New York, this proportion is rarely less than one fourth and sometimes more than on third. Again, despite all efforts to establish a satisfactory system of transport, conditions ar…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 534

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… learnt to doubt himself. His will was sodden with scepticism. He could never make up his mind to do anything definite. The man had many great qualities, but the dollar- snatching charlatans that pullulate in America had driven him to drift and potter. He did not even understand that he might have saved his soul by devoting himself to the shallowest quack in Chicago, daring death and damnation for the hollowest humbug that ever wrote himself Rosicrucian without knowing how to spell it. Pluck would have pulled him through in the long run; as Bla…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 382

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…Hogg was therefore a knave, well; but do not try to argue that, Hogg not being a poet, The Cenci must be drivel. I had used these Keys a great deal and always with excellent effect. In Mexico I thought I would discover for myself what the Aethyrs really were, by invoking them in turn by means of the nineteenth Key and, skrying in the spirit vision, judge their nature by what I saw and heard. I investigated the first two Keys on November 14th and 17th, 1900. "The Vision and the Voice" was mysterious and terrific in character. What I saw was not …

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1907 · PDF PAGE 249

Collected Works (Vol. III)

…ow is our sin requited of the Lord, i. 66 Now is the gold gone of the year, ili, 188 Now on the land the woods are green, i. 120 Now the great elephant strode with lordly foot- steps in the forest, il, 227 Now the road widens and grows darker still, lil, 180 Now, when the sun falls in the dismal sky, il. 85 Now your grave eyes are filled with tears, iil. 11 O BLUEBELL of the inmost wood, ili. 14 O body pale and beautiful with sin, i. 117 O chainless Love, the frost is in my brain, i, 109 O coiled and constricted and chosen, ii. 96 O crimson che…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 410

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…least memorable, yet these are the only things which are capable of description. We were sometimes obliged, for example, to push on at a great pace in order to reach a place where we could renew our water supply. On one occasion we covered a hundred miles in two days and a half. The last stage was pretty bad. It taught me a useful lesson about physical endurance. Most men who have practised athletics, even mildly, know the meaning of the phrase "second wind". One's original enthusiasm being exhausted, one goes on quietly and steadily, almost un…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 481

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…r Jones' pompous imbecility, there was something sad. He had induced my old friend Eckenstein to sign that silly letter. Eckenstein is a great man and my dearest friend. But he is an old man and (I fear me) a dying one.1 His judgment cannot be what it used to be; but if his memory has not failed him, I will remind him of certain events in our long friendship. I met him at Wastdale Head during Easter week of 1898. We soon became climbing companions, a relation which endured so long as he was physically able to climb. We were together in the Engl…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 556

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…rto been able to determine. But he was subject to amiable delusions, one of which took the sinister shape of Cacoethes Scribendi. In the Great War he joined the army and became a real "capting". Advised of this fact, the Germans wisely refrained from entering Edinburgh. His next step was to become a dipsomaniac and lose his teeth. During this period he suffered from hydrophobia and did not wash for eighteen months. This romantic situation enflamed the virgin heart of a large, white, red-haired maggot named Mary Butts, or rather Rodker. In the p…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 465

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…nly after reading Shelley's Elopement and his book on Howells did I attain full insight into his mind and manner. But, having done so, a great light dawned upon me. I had to acknowledge him as a master. In the series of essays on which I am working at present I have consecrated one to him. I need only observe there that Alexander Harvey, more subtle and ethereal than Poe himself, possesses a delicacy and a sense of humour as exquisite, elfish, elusive as any man that ever wrote. His irony is incomparably keen. That I should have missed the poin…

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