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1929 · PDF PAGE 556

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…gulations, might put them on the right road. They arrived. The very next day I got the shock of my life. I must mention first that, some time earlier, Maitland had had some sort of job mining or planting in the East. On his journey out, his ship was standing off Colombo pending quarantine inspection. He was sitting on the rail talking to a girl. Suddenly he fell backwards and was pulled into a boat by Singhalese pedlars who had no consideration for the perfectly justifiable feelings of the local sharks, or any philosophical care for the welfare…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 120

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ee of completeness. Since its publication, of course, new knowledge has come to light and I hope to issue a revised edition in course of time. As it stands, however, it is the essential book of reference for the student. It can never be complete; for one thing, every student must create his own Cabbala. My conception, for instance, of the number 6 will not be identical to yours. The difference between you and me is, in fact, just this; you are capable of perceiving one set of aspects of absolute reality, I another. The higher our attainment, th…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 392

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…he Desert" and "The Camel", which my wanderings in the Sahara inspired. Part of the effect of crossing the Abyss is that it takes a lone time to connect the Master with what is left below the Abyss. Deprived of their ego, the mind and body of the man are somewhat at sea until, as one may say, the "wireless control" has been established. In the year 1910 Aleister Crowley was as a sheep not having a shepherd; the motives and controlling element had been removed and he was more or less cut off from the past. One thing seemed as good as another. He…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 465

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ere. My already zero opinion dropped below the liquid air mark. My first personal acquaintance with the actual conditions of the present time did not improve matters noticeably. My first glimmer of hope was supplied by the "candle and the flame" of George Sylvester Viereck. Here at least was a man with a mind of his own, a worthy aspiration and an excellent technique, even though the actual achievement was nothing to leave home for. His prose was better. The Confessions of a Barbarian which purport to describe Europe are excellent. Europe is th…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 240

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

240 I may now point out that the reign of the Crowned and Conquering Child is limited in time by The Book of the Law itself. We learn that Horus will be in his turn succeeded by Thmaist, the Double- Wanded One; she who shall bring the candidates to full initiation, and though we know litter of her peculiar characteristics, we know at least that her name is justice. THE ETHICS OF THE BOOK OF THE LAW. Every cosmography implies some sort of ethical theory. The Aeon of Osiris had been succeeded by that of Horus. The Magical Formula of the Aeon bein…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 224

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…assessit. Certain incidents of this shoot are worth passing notice. Rose had an attack of fever on the seventh of January. For the first time since my marriage I had a moment to spare from celebrations of Hymen. I sat at my camp table in my Colonel Elliot's chair and wrote the poem Rosa Mundi, the first for many months. I sing to her, recall the incidents of the birth of our love, hint at the prospect of its harvest, and weave the whole of the facts into a glowing tapestry of rapture. It was a new rhythm, a new rime. It marks a notable advance …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 429

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…was on her right, I on her left. It was my business to make sure that she did not kick and to keep hold of her left writs. After a short time the fun began in the customary manner by the curtain of the cabinet bulging and finally falling across Eusapia's left arm and my right. I could thus see into the cabinet, that is, into the corner of the room, by turning my head. Now, Eusapia was supposed to have a third arm, an astral arm, with which she could do her deadly deeds. My attention was attracted to the cabinet by seeing a shadowy arm moving ab…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 514

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…han the rest. While at Montauk, I had put my sleeping bag to dry in the sun. When I went to take it in, I remarked, laughingly, "Your bedtime, Master Bag," as if it were a small boy and I its nurse. This was entirely frivolous; but the thought flashed into my mind that after all the bag was in one sense a part of myself. The two ideas came together with a snap, and I understood the machinery of a man's delusion that he is a teapot. From this I came to another discovery: I perceived why platitudes were stupid. The reason was that they represente…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 122

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… would print it. I was told it was the the thing to "crab" these gallant gentlemen. No. But should my prophecies come true, then was the time to explain why. What I had foretold came to pass precisely as I had predicted it. But I was still unable to get a hearing. Why add to the tribulations of these heroes by showing up their stupidity? Besides, England had failed --- better not talk about it at all. On Iztaccihuatl, on off days, we had a lot of practice with rifles and revolvers. At that altitude and in that clear air one's shooting becomes s…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 533

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…osities and banalities of their ragbag of rituals by a simple, lucid and coherent system. I soon saw that any effort would be a waste of time. Even their compact group was torn by bitter jealousies. Their leader, for all his fine talk, had only one real desire --- to communicate with his dead wife, a silly smirking society waxwork, a pink-tea princess! Their second string was a doctor, who spent sleepless nights sweating with shame and sentimentality in an agony of anxiety as to whether it was his duty to get divorced in order to marry a white-…

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1911 · PDF PAGE 305

The Equinox (Volume I, Number V)

…Almost every department of the secret arts is touched upon in this manual, and, for those who are interested in such things and have the time to study them, it is a mine of information.’ —Tve Academy. | «A well-furnished store of information for students of the occult arts and sciences.” —Ligikt, THE NEW GOD AND OTHER ESSAYS. By Ratpu Suirtey, Editor of “The Occult Review.” Crown 8vo, cloth gilt, 248 pp., 3s. 6d. net. CONTENTS ‘The New God—Prophets and Prophecies—Prophecies and Anticipations—Julian the Apostate—Mystical Christianity—The Perfect…

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1911 · PDF PAGE 305

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VI)

…Almost every department of the secret arts is touched upon in this manual, and, for those who are interested in such things and have the time to study them, it is a mine of information.’ —Tve Academy. | «A well-furnished store of information for students of the occult arts and sciences.” —Ligikt, THE NEW GOD AND OTHER ESSAYS. By Ratpu Suirtey, Editor of “The Occult Review.” Crown 8vo, cloth gilt, 248 pp., 3s. 6d. net. CONTENTS ‘The New God—Prophets and Prophecies—Prophecies and Anticipations—Julian the Apostate—Mystical Christianity—The Perfect…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 151

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…d filed to learn much. Fortunately, we managed without it; but it was easy to get a munshi to teach me Hindustani and I spent most of my time in acquiring that language. The "native telegraph" now reappeared in a different form. Somehow or other my munshi got it into his head that I was a Magician. This was very curious, as I had done practically no Magick since landing in Ceylon and certainly had not talked about it at all. The Sword of song bears witness to the completeness with which I had abandoned Magick. I had not in the least lost my fai…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 364

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ersal Holy King, or killed my father and mother --- at least I can suggest no better an hypothesis to explain my having been held up sometimes as much a four days at a time waiting for a steamer. The only way to keep from acute delirious melancholia is to indulge furiously in the only two articles purchasable in the place which even promise to palliate one's pangs. One can buy cheap editions of fearful and wonderful fiction and packets of the best butterscotch. By exhibiting these two drugs continuously, one can produce in oneself a kind of com…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 14

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…s pretending to be Hyder Ali, and himself Tipu Sahib, he once asked his cousin, "Be cruel to me." The influence of Cousin Gregor at this time was paramount. When Gregor was Rob Roy, Alick was Greumoch, the outlaw's henchman in James Grant's novel. The MacGregors appealed to Alick as being the most royal, wronged, romantic, brave and solitary of the clans. There can be no doubt that this phantasy played a great part in determining his passionate. {47} Admiration of the chief of the Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn, a Hampshire man named Mathers…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 56

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…he true offences against marriage arise when sexual freedom results in causing injury to the health or estate of the partner. But the sentimental wrong of so-called infidelity is a symptom of the childishness of the race. Among artists, the system here advocated has always been more or less in full swing. Such societies exist in circumstances highly inimical to a {111} satisfactory life. Financial considerations alone make this obvious; yet it is notorious that such people are almost uniformly happy. There is no revolt against the facts of life…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 186

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… sources of error. Camp 11 is roughly 20,000 feet; but I suspect it to be a little higher. I estimated my climbing at 21,500 feet at the time; but this was mostly out of respect for Eckenstein. I was his most devoted disciple; I would not have given him any chance to reproach me by making a statement which might afterwards prove an exaggeration. But my real opinion is that I reached something over 22,0000 feet. I could see clearly over Windy Gap; I must have been well above it. I would not depend on the reading of aneroids in any circumstances.…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 209

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ss than a quarter of a mile --- to the siding where the sleeper had been shunted. The pocket book was found intact under my pillow. Some time in 1913 or '14 Eckenstein referred to this incident and immediately noticed that I did not catch on. He tackled me pointedly; and I denied all knowledge of the affair with the emphasis of St. Peter! Eckenstein repeated the facts given in the above paragraph and as he did so the whole thing cam back to me. But I would certainly have gone into the witness-box and sworn point blank that no such thing had eve…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 506

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…matter, I inflicted physical pain. I had unusually pointed canine teeth. I fix a fold of flesh between the two points; and then, beating time with one hand, suddenly snap, thus leaving two neat indentations on the flesh concerned. I have often done this as a demonstration; often as a jest or a psychological experiment, sometimes as an intimation of affection, but never till then as a callous and cruel insult. Probably I misjudged my own motives. Somehow or other the genuineness and integrity of this lost soul began to appeal to me. I began to c…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 529

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

529 man: Th = 400 R = 200 I = 10 V = 6 N = 50," giving the spelling HB:Nun HB:Vau HB:Yod HB:Resh HB:Taw = 666. At the exact time, therefore, when the Wizard had told {834} me that this could be done, a stranger in a distant town was actually writing the solution which baffled me. Observe that the preparation of this was the problem in my article "The Revival of Magick" published three months earlier! This incident in itself is sufficiently startling. On the theory that Amalantrah is what he claims to be it is quite natural and simple. Any other…

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