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1913 · PDF PAGE 221

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IX)

…ing me up to death; the cool, strong death, Even death I shall slay in the cool, strong colonnades: I shall bear the Rose of life to the heart of death. And death shall lead me back to the shadowy river, The murmuring waters shall mock me then no more. I shall know, and knowing I shall strive again, Shall ever strive until the petals fall! There is no way for me, my darling, now, Save one ; the hour is passed, and I have chosen. I have chosen, and the mellow river calls Insistently; the darkness grows more deep, And night more luminous, yieldin…

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1913 · PDF PAGE 317

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IX)

…lies in unknown meadows, and we shall scatter their dew upon the earth. We shall touch the eyelid of the sleeping child, and rejoice the heart of its mother with the spectacle of the beauty of her well-belovéd son! Il THE BINARY TuE binary is more particularly the number of woman, mate of man and mother of society. Man is love in intelligence; woman is intelligence in love. Woman is the smile of the Creator content with Himself, and it is after making her that He rested, says the divine parable. Woman stands before man because she is mother, an…

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1913 · PDF PAGE 221

The Equinox (Volume I, Number X)

…ing me up to death; the cool, strong death, Even death I shall slay in the cool, strong colonnades: I shall bear the Rose of life to the heart of death. And death shall lead me back to the shadowy river, The murmuring waters shall mock me then no more. I shall know, and knowing I shall strive again, Shall ever strive until the petals fall! There is no way for me, my darling, now, Save one ; the hour is passed, and I have chosen. I have chosen, and the mellow river calls Insistently; the darkness grows more deep, And night more luminous, yieldin…

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1913 · PDF PAGE 317

The Equinox (Volume I, Number X)

…lies in unknown meadows, and we shall scatter their dew upon the earth. We shall touch the eyelid of the sleeping child, and rejoice the heart of its mother with the spectacle of the beauty of her well-belovéd son! Il THE BINARY TuE binary is more particularly the number of woman, mate of man and mother of society. Man is love in intelligence; woman is intelligence in love. Woman is the smile of the Creator content with Himself, and it is after making her that He rested, says the divine parable. Woman stands before man because she is mother, an…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 101

John St. John

…uld sleep. John St John has arisen, after doing 20 breath- cycles, reciting internally the ritual, 70 per cent. of which he now knows by heart. To the Dome—a cafe-croissant. Some proofs to cor- rect during the meal. Having walked over to the studio reciting the Ritual (925—9.55 approximately), John St. John got into his pose, and began going for the gloves. The Interior Trembling began, and the room filled with the Subtle Light. He was within an ace of Concentration; the Violet Lotus of Ajna appeared, flashing like some marvellous comet; the Dawn…

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1904 · PDF PAGE 76

The Sword of Song

…ditions even to begin the most elementary practices. 742. My Eastern Friend.60—Abdul Hamid, of the Fort, Colombo, on whom be peace. 755. Heart.61— Heart is a trifling misquotation : This poem is for publication. 810. Mind the dark dorrway there !62—This, like so many other (perhaps all) lines in these poems, is pregnant with a host of hidden meanings. Not only is it physical, of saying good-bye to a friend : but mental, of the dark- ness of metaphysics ; occult, of the mystical darkness of the Threshold of Initiation : and physiological, contai…

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1961 · PDF PAGE 147

Liber Aleph

THE BOOK OF WISDOM OR FOLLY 135 Ee De Duobus Præmiis Viæ (Of the Two Rewards of the Path) ET it be a Treasure in thine Heart, o my Son, this Mystery that I shall next unveil before thine Eyes, O Eagle that art undazzled by the brilliance of Light, that soarest continually with virile Flight to thine august Inheritance. Behold the Beatific Vision is of two Orders, and in the Formula of the Rosy Cross it is of the Heart and is called Beauty; but in the Formula of the Silver Star (id est, of the Eye within the Triangle) it is of the mind, and is c…

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1898 · PDF PAGE 119

Songs of the Spirit

There steals through my coldness a fire, Between my slow words is a sword, One lit by the heart of desire, One sharp in the hand of the lord ; To these that sink, sleep, and expire, your welcome accord. With winds and white seas for your raiment Your stature immutably stands : My love, with no claim, as a claimant Came seeking out truth in the sands, Found truth, and must place in poor payment this book in your hands. 109

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1910 · PDF PAGE 67

Ambergris

…remember, One leap toward the knees and destinies, Where shine Her lips like flames, Her breasts like amber, Like moons Her eyes. For my heart turns—ah still !—in Sorrow’s traces, Where sad chill footprints pash the sodden leaves ; Where ranged around me are the cold, gray faces ; Fallon on the stubble are the rotten sheaves ; The vicious ghosts abound ; and Chronos paces No soul deceives. Yet my heart looks to Madness as its mother, Remembering who once caught me by the well ; And strange loves of that misshapen Other, The feast of blood, the …

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1910 · PDF PAGE 106

Ambergris

…t of that is won Hardly, with labour and pain that are as pleasure, The first flower of the garden, the stored treasure That lies at the heart’s heart of eternity. This treasure is for thee. 16. O ! but shall hope arise in happiness ? That may not be. My life is like a golden grape ; the veins Peep through the ecstasy Of the essence of ivory and silk,

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1903 · PDF PAGE 23

Alice: An Adultery

…language; others as among the best and loveliest we have of any poet, living or dead. “ The roses of the world are sad ” and “ I have no heart to sing ” are, in my opinion, unsurpassed in any language. Their presence alone is sufficient apology for the publication of an otherwise objectionable book. G.K. xx

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1909 · PDF PAGE 36

John St. John

…ing at every sound, eager, afraid . . . I will, however, rise and open (as for a symbol) the door and the window. Oh that the door of my heart were ever open! For He is always there, and always eager to come in. I rise and open unto my Beloved. . . . May it be granted unto me in the daylight of this day to construct from DCLXXI a perfect ritual of self-initiation, so as to avoid the constant difficulty of assuming various God-forms. Then let that ritual be a constant and perfect link between Us . . . so that at all times I may be perfect in Thy …

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1961 · PDF PAGE 156

Liber Aleph

LIBER ALEPH VEL CXI 144 En De Constantia Amoris Cordi Candido (Of Constancy in Love, for a Pure Heart) HINK it not strange, my Son, that I, praising Adultery, should praise also Constancy and Delight therein. For this is to state ill thy question. Herein is Truth and Wisdom concerning this Matter, that so long as Love be not wholly satisfied, and equilibrated by entire Fulfilment and Exchange, Constancy is a point of thy Concentration and Adultery a Division in thy Will. But when thou hast the Summit and Perfection of any Work, of what Worth is…

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1911 · PDF PAGE 247

The Equinox (Volume I, Number V)

…p ; and these tears are of mine offering to the Lord. LEO. Let us throw her to the sacred crocodile SCORPIO-APOPHIS. But in the water my heart would be chilled; and this heart is of mine offering to the Lord. LEO. Let us throw her to the Winds from the Watchtowers of Silence. SCORPIO-APOPHIS. But in the wind my hymns would not be heard ; and these hymns are of mine offering to the Lord. LEO. Let us bury her in the consecrated mountain! SCORPIO-APOPHIS. But in the earth the worms would devour my flesh; and this flesh is of mine offering to the Lor…

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1911 · PDF PAGE 247

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VI)

…p ; and these tears are of mine offering to the Lord. LEO. Let us throw her to the sacred crocodile SCORPIO-APOPHIS. But in the water my heart would be chilled; and this heart is of mine offering to the Lord. LEO. Let us throw her to the Winds from the Watchtowers of Silence. SCORPIO-APOPHIS. But in the wind my hymns would not be heard ; and these hymns are of mine offering to the Lord. LEO. Let us bury her in the consecrated mountain! SCORPIO-APOPHIS. But in the earth the worms would devour my flesh; and this flesh is of mine offering to the Lor…

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1919 · PDF PAGE 347

The Equinox (Volume III, Number I)

…H. [See Tur Equinox LV. 5.] 42. Before that path is entered, thou must destroy thy lunar body, cleanse thy mind body, and make clean thy heart. The Lunar body is Nephesh, and the Mind body Ruach.: The heart is Tiphareth, the centre of Ruach. 43. Eternal life’s pure waters, clear and crystal, with the monsoon tempest’s muddy torrents cannot mingle. We are now again on the subject of suppressing thought. The pure water is the stilled mind, the torrent the mind in- vaded by thoughts. 44. Heaven’s dew-drop glittering in the morn’s first sun- beam w…

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1913 · PDF PAGE 110

The Book of Lies

…eth like a scorpion. L. the green fertile earth. Fierce are the Fires of the Universe, and on their daggers they hold aloft the bleeding heart of earth. Upon the earth lies water, sensuous and sleepy. Above the water hangs air; and above air, but also below fire—and in all—the fabric of all being woven on Its invisible design, is AIOHP.

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1909 · PDF PAGE 64

John St. John

… 62 THE EQUINOX course this thought acts through the will and the apparatus of nerves and muscles. But might not a sudden fear cause the heart to stop? I think cases are on record. But all this is unknown ground, or, as Frank Harris would say, Unpath'd Waters. We are getting dangerously near “mental arsenic ” and " all—god— good—bones—truth—lights—liver—mind—blessing —heart——-one and not of a series—ante and pass the buck." The common sense of the practical man of the world is good enough {or me! Will G. R. S. Mead or somebody wise like that te…

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1904 · PDF PAGE 43

Why Jesus Wept

…9 To have him. Damn them ! Are they cock and hen To make this cackling over their affairs ? Muck ! Muck ! SIR PERCY. I love you so, dear heart, dear love. MOLLY. Oh yes, I love you ! Percy ! SIR PERCY. Molly ! Molly ! MOLLY. Dear boy, how I love you ! SIR PERCY. And I you, sweetheart. MOLLY. Good-bye, then ! SIR PERCY. Good-bye ! Good-bye ! At moonrise. MOLLY. At my door. ANGELA. Better write it down, and then you won’t forget.

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1912 · PDF PAGE 115

The Equinox (Volume I, Number VII)

…ll you stand by me? Dr. F. You know I will. What is it? Mrs. B. Let’s teach him a lesson. I’ve got a splendid idea. It isn’t hardness of heart; but he doesn’t see clearly. I want to make him feel and understand what it is that he‘s doing. Dr. F. And how do you propose to do it? Mrs. B. Well, you know he asked you to look at his throat. Tell him it's something terrible, that he’s got to diel Can you think of anything? Dr. F. Why, of course, cancer! Mrs. Β. (shocked) Ohl Dr. F. Cancer of the throat has just such slight symptoms. Nobody can tell w…

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