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1909 · PDF PAGE 5

Alexandra

…o down to Marlow or Maidenhead in a punt, and there lie in some shady favourite backwater with my favourite girl friend in front. What a thing friendship is, world without end ! — and my favourite old black briar between my lips, and her sweet face fixed on my old favour- ite thumb-worn — copy of Sappho, and pore over the deevie pages, hour after hour, bound by the Woman’s Guild. No ! Sappho has nothing like this in all her scroll of gorgeous rhyme : Cox has, and I am proud to have been to her what I have. Rosie Brooks (Diaper)

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1922 · PDF PAGE 94

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…y too glad to let him in on the 7ez-de-chaussée.”’ Well, you know, that’s all right about my being a millionaire, and all that. It’s one thing being a single man running round London perfectly happy with a shilling cigar and a stall at the Victoria Palace, and it’s quite another being on a honeymoon with a girl whom her most intimate friends call ‘‘ Unlimited Lou.” Feccles did not know that I had spent more than a third of my annual income in a fortnight. But, of course, I couldn’t tell the man how I was situated. We Pendragons are a pretty pro…

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1905 · PDF PAGE 147

Oracles

…with vigorous stride. By earnestness did Maghava attain of Gods to be the Lord. Praise is one-pointed thought’s reward ; Dispersion is a thing abhorred. The Bhikkhu who in Earnestness delights, who fears dispersions dire, His fetters all, both great and small, burning he moves about the fire.

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1922 · PDF PAGE 283

Diary of a Drug Fiend

… reserves of force on which it can work. When you take it at night, you are administering it to a sick person, which is a very different thing. However, what you should do is to replace it at night by these tablets, with a nice warm drink of whisky or rum and water, and you will find yourself asleep before you know it. Then in the morning, you awake much fresher than usual, and the heroin will have something more to catch hold of. The result of this will be that you will find quite a small quantity do you as much good as a big one did last week…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 24

Magick in Theory and Practice (Section 1)

…rdedly utters a chosen word. He may serve the same purpose by resolving that every incident of his life shall remind him of a particular thing, making every impression the starting point of a connected sériés of thoughts ending in that thing. He might also devote his whole energies to some one particular object, by resolving to do nothing at variance therewith, and to make every act turn to the advantage of that object.) (18) He may attract to himself any force of the Uni verse by making himself a fit réceptacle for it, establishing a connectio…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 175

Magick Without Tears

… . The unusual word unassuaged is very interesting. People generally suppose that 'will' is the slave of purpose, that you cannot will a thing properly unless you are aiming at a definite goal. But this is not the case. Thinking of the goal actually serves to distract the mind. In these few words is included the whole method without all the bombastic piety of the servile doctrine of mysticism about the surrender of the Will. Nor is this idea of surrender actually correct ; the will must be identified with the Divine Will, so-called. One wants t…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 483

Magick Without Tears

…their real object is to persuade some supposed "authority" to flatter them and confirm them in their folly and stupidity. It is the same thing with a terrifying percentage of the people that come for "teaching" and "initiation." The moment they learn anything they didn't know before, off they fly in a temper! No sooner does it become apparent that the Master is not a stupid middle-class prig and hypocrite-another edition of themselves, in short-they are frightened, they are horrified, they flee away on both feet, like the man in the Bible! I ha…

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1905 · PDF PAGE 239

Collected Works (Vol. I)

…ay, not in death! again ! Alas! Alas! The slave—He rose VENUS, Alas indeed, my knight! We love not! Being both enamoured of Just the one thing that is impossible. But in this carnal strife the Intimate Achieves for one snatched swiftness. me, love! Kiss TANNHAUSER. Ah, but the waking! As [ sink to sleep >illowed in nuptial arms —so fresh and cool— (Yet in their veins I know the fire that runs Racing and maddening from the crown of flame, The monolithic core of mystical Red fury that is called a woman’s heart) Sinking, I say, from the supreme em…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 272

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…ricks of the mind. And I sat and watched myself finding excuses for starting in. One gets into an absolutely morbid state, in which everything that happens has some bearing on the question, ‘Shall I or shall I not take it?’; and one gets so pleased with oneself for saying ‘no’ so often that one is tempted to reward oneself by saying ‘yes’ just once. I can promise you a very interesting time watching your minds and spotting all the little dodges. The great thing I want you to remember is that you have to learn to take pleasure in what.is really …

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1899 · PDF PAGE 188

Jephthah and Other Mysteries

…hat sobs, and chokes, and strains. Self-damned on earth, live out thy tortured days, That men may look upon thy face, and see How vile a thing of woman born may be. Then, we are done with thee; go, go thy ways To other hells, thou damned of God hereafter, "Mid men’s contempt and hate and pitiless laughter.

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1910 · PDF PAGE 226

The Equinox (Volume I, Number III)

THE DREAMER In the grey dim Dawn where the Souls Unborn May look on the Things to Be ; A tremulous Shade, a Thing Unmade, Stood Lost by the silent Sea; And shuddering fought the o’erwhelming thought Of Its own Identity. Is the frenzied form that derides the storm A ghost of the days to Be? And the restless wave but the troubled grave Of Its own dread Imagery? Or merely a wraith cast up without faith From the jaws of a Phantom Sea? To his Love Unborn in that grey dim Dawn Did the Shade of the Dreamer flee; Nor marked he the Flood where the Visio…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 226

The Equinox (Volume I, Number IV)

THE DREAMER In the grey dim Dawn where the Souls Unborn May look on the Things to Be ; A tremulous Shade, a Thing Unmade, Stood Lost by the silent Sea; And shuddering fought the o’erwhelming thought Of Its own Identity. Is the frenzied form that derides the storm A ghost of the days to Be? And the restless wave but the troubled grave Of Its own dread Imagery? Or merely a wraith cast up without faith From the jaws of a Phantom Sea? To his Love Unborn in that grey dim Dawn Did the Shade of the Dreamer flee; Nor marked he the Flood where the Visio…

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1910 · PDF PAGE 104

The Winged Beetle

…one swift suction, one slow thrust Maniacal, murderous, musical, magical ! So then I would not have him for my thrall, So I despised the thing I had devoured ! And therefore, as I squat upon this ball That spins and knows not, I shall spew the coward Out from the bliss wherein he is embowered, A stain of senseless sex upon the sod, And live my life, the honeyed and the flowered, As ever. . . . Shall the even match the odd ? His immortality worth my period ? Nay ! He is but the seed on whom I showered My rain, the dear mortality of God !

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1901 · PDF PAGE 89

The Mother’s Tragedy

…am ; Droned the sleepy dragon-fly by the water-spring ; Stood we in the noontide in a misty dream, Fearful of our voiees, of some sudden thing. O Madonna of the Golden Eyes! Dared we whisper? Dared we lift our eyes to see there In their desperate depth some mutual flame of treason ? Dared we move apart? So glad were we to be there, Nothing in the world might change the constant season. O Madonna of the Golden Eyes!

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1922 · PDF PAGE 354

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…es more tedious every day, and the one way of escape is barred by flaming swords.” “ Bxactly,” he replied. ‘“ You’ve only discovered one thing that you don’t will; you have still to find the one thing that you do will. And yet there are quite a number of clues in this manuscript of yours. I note you say that your squad commander, who didn’t become that without some power of dealing with men, told you that you were not a great flyer. How was it exactly that you came to take up flying?” That simple question induced a very surprising reaction. The…

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1899 · PDF PAGE 5

The Honourable Adulterers

…es, . And shrank back shamed ; and Love waxed bright and bold. | ) The devilish circle of the fiery ring Became one moment like a littlé thing, And Truth and God were'near us to withdraw The veil of Love’s unalterable law. - We feared no fury of the jealous King, But, lest in honour love should find a flaw. Only our looks and trembling lips we dread, And the dear nimbus of a lover’s head, The dreamy splendour and the dim delight ' That feels the fragrance fallen from the night,

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1954 · PDF PAGE 267

Magick Without Tears

…Reason," "The Way," "TO ON." None of these convey any true conception of the Tao. The Tao is Reason in this sense, that the substance of things may be in part apprehended as being that necessary relation between the elements of thought which determines the laws of reason. In other words, the only reality is that which compels us to connect the various forms of illusion as we do. It is thus evidently unknowable, and expressible neither by speech nor by silence. All that we can know about it is that there is inherent in it a power (which however …

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1922 · PDF PAGE 39

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…op ! 25 filed up with the red lusts of man! I adore Thee, Evoe! I adore Thee, I A O!” I tingled and shivered as she sang; and then some- thing, I hardly know what, made me turn and look into the face of Gretel Webster. She was sitting at my right; her left hand was beneath the table, and she was looking at if. I followed her glance. In the little quadrilateral of the veins whose lower apex is between the first and middle fingers, was a tiny heap of sparkling dust. Nothing I had ever seen before had so attracted me. The sheer bright infinite bea…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 216

Diary of a Drug Fiend

202 The Diary of a Drug Fiend At the same time, he would feel a certain secret pleasure if he knew that I, on my part, had had some- thing of the same feeling for him. And all the time, he went on playing with the heroin. Once or twice he nearly dropped it in his nervous emotion. It made me jump to think of the danger to that precious powder. But there was clearly only one thing to be done to get it: to fall in with the old fellow’s humour. I let my head fall on my breast and looked at him sideways out of the corners of my eyes. “You can’t expe…

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1899 · PDF PAGE 141

Jephthah and Other Mysteries

…es, . And shrank back shamed ; and Love waxed bright and bold. | ) The devilish circle of the fiery ring Became one moment like a littlé thing, And Truth and God were'near us to withdraw The veil of Love’s unalterable law. - We feared no fury of the jealous King, But, lest in honour love should find a flaw. Only our looks and trembling lips we dread, And the dear nimbus of a lover’s head, The dreamy splendour and the dim delight ' That feels the fragrance fallen from the night,

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