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1905 · PDF PAGE 104

Collected Works (Vol. I)

…bent Her own white shoulders to the thwart, and bade Me steer, and keep stern waich with sword unsheathed For fear of something that her soul had seen Above. And thus upon the oily black Silent swift river we sailed out to reach Its source, no longer feeling as compelled, But led by some incomprehensible Passion. And here lewd fishes snapped at us, And watersnakes writhed silently toward Our craft. But these I fought against, and smote Head from foul body, to our further ill, For frightful jelly-monsters grew apace, And all the water grew one s…

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1944 · PDF PAGE 78

The Book of Thoth

…, of Life itself. Constantly whirling, all possibilities are enjoyed, under the phantom show of Space and Time: all things are real, the soul is the surface, precisely because they are instantly com‐ pensated by this Adjustment. All things are harmony and beauty; all things are Truth: because they cancel out. She is the goddess Maat; she bears upon her nemyss the ostrich feathers of the Two‐ fold Truth. From this Crown, so delicate that the most faintest breath of thought must stir it, de‐ pend, by chains of Cause, the Scales wherein Alpha, the…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 158

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… inhibit identification. My predilection is due to the fact that I am primarily a lyric poet. My deepest natural tendency is to exalt my soul by what I may call straightforward intoxication. Thus Shelly and Swinburne come more natural to {273} me than Aeschylus and Shakespeare, who intoxicate the reader by transporting him to their wonderland.

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1929 · PDF PAGE 571

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…recisely fitted to undertake the organization required. I say suddenly, for he had steadfastly resisted the Secret Chiefs for years. His soul was torn by an earthquake and he broke with his past ruthlessly, devoting himself wholly to the Great Work from that hour henceforth. The work of the abbey was described by the 51st hexagram "Kan". The first month indicates anxiety mingled with cheerful intercourse with friends. Till the last week in October I was worried indeed, but meeting many pleasant people and enjoying agreeable conversation with th…

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1939 · PDF PAGE 16

Eight Lectures on Yoga

…ely for years. In the East, an absolutely automatic and thoughtless act of kindness to a native is liable to attach him to you, body and soul, for the rest of his life. In other words, it is going to upset him; and as a budding Yogi he has got to refuse it. But even the refusal is going to upset him quite a lot; and therefore he has got to become 'fixed' in refusal; that is to say, he has got to erect by means of habitual refusal a psychological barrier so strong that he can really dismiss the temptation without a quiver, or a quaver, or even a…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 480

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… England. I had suffered for her sake as much as any man; I had "fought the good fight, despising the shame", starvation and solitude of soul and body: I was content. But, as in a Greek tragedy, just when I thought myself most safe, the last straw was gently but firmly placed on my back by two of my oldest friends. The first of these is named George Cecil Jones. I had known him intimately since the autumn of 1898. We had been co-workers in the most arduous task known to mankind: that which Bergson --- so far as his ignorance allows --- {758} de…

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1905 · PDF PAGE 69

Collected Works (Vol. I)

…Take care of Esmé for me. [ shall watch over her myself, I and God together. She is so frail and white, and she understands. She sees my soul, and IIeaven is always open to her eyes when she looks up, and she is so beautiful. Will it seem Jong, Esmé, till we kiss again beyond the moon there—it is the moon, isn’t it, come to see that Esmé is not too sad about my dying? Be kind to her always, moon, when Iam gone beyond you ! You must finish my poem, Esmé; there is only a little to do. Kiss me the last time! (good-bye, my dear friends. I wish I co…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 276

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ys steams. Alone, I make a black carouse With her to dominate my dreams. With skulls and knives she keeps control (O Mother Kali!) of my soul. She is crowned with emeralds like leaves, and rubies flame from either eye; A rose upon her bosom heaves, Turquois and Lapis Lazuli. She hath a kirtle like a maid --- Amethyst, amber, pearl, and jade! This poem is important as foreshadowing my final solution of the problem of evil and sorrow, the interpretation of illusion by the initiate and its transmutation into truth. I saw as usual a good deal of Th…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 134

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…iness and is content to reach equably to every possible impression. Must I digress to excuse Allan Bennett, the noblest and the gentlest soul that I have ever known? Surely the immanence of physical agony, the continual anguish of the cross on which he has been nailed for more than fifty years, he not complaining, he not submitting, he not demanding release, but working inexorably and inexpugnably at this appointed Task --- surely the unremitting stroke of that fell fact must have avenged itself for its foiled malice by fashioning his conceptio…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 432

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ritings have I given so profound and comprehensive an exposition of my philosophy on every plane. I deal with the inmost impulses of the soul and through the whole course of consciousness down to the reactions of the most superficial states of mind. I consider this book so important as a compendium of the contents of my consciousness that I beg leave to illustrate the above points.

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1929 · PDF PAGE 490

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…l I flitted like a swallow, ....Daring the very elements to follow, Nor paused to mark the crags I leapt upon. Now, lying in the sun, my soul's a swan,

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1929 · PDF PAGE 487

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…r was infinitely fascinating to watch. The spheres tumbled over each other with a rhythmical rise and fall in a rhythm which sang to the soul. They were kind enough to interest themselves in my researches in Anhalonium Lewinii and made me some special preparations on the lines indicated by my experience which proved greatly superior to previous preparations. In Chicago, I met Paul Carus, who received me royally and showed me the city. The man had always interested me as being widely learned, yet understanding so little. After meeting him, I dec…

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1906 · PDF PAGE 205

Collected Works (Vol. II)

… accept this statement. She probably knows, and has no obvious reasons for misleading. 487. Sattva.“6—The Buddhists, denying an Atman or Soul (an idea of changeless, eternal, knowledge, being, and bliss) represent the fictitious Ego of a man (or a dog) as a tem- porary agglomeration of particles. Reincar- nation only knocks off, as it were, some of the corners of the mass, so that for several births the Ego is constant within limits; hence the possibility of the ‘‘ magical memory.” The ‘‘Sattva’’ is this agglomeration. See my * Paganini, a famo…

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1906 · PDF PAGE 237

Collected Works (Vol. II)

…d,” said the Five Hundred Thousand and One Arahats in a breath, ‘thou art then guilty of six violent deaths ! Nay, thou hast hounded one soul from death to death through all these incarnations! What of this First Precept ? of yours ?” ‘‘ Children,” answered the Glorious One, ‘* do not be so foolish as to think that death is necessarily an evil. I have not come to found a Hundred Years Club, and to include mosquitoes inthe membership. In this case to have kept Perdu’ R Abu alive was to have played into the hands of his enemies. My First Precept …

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1906 · PDF PAGE 147

Collected Works (Vol. II)

…ined. The religion, ceasing to be a tangible thing, an object uniform for all sane eyes, becomes rather that mist whereon the sun of the soul casts up, like Brocken spectre, certain vast and vague images of the beholder himself, with or without a glory encompassing them. The function of the facts is then quite passive: it matters little or nothing whether the cloud be the red mist of Christianity, or the glim- mering silver-white of Celtic Paganism; the hard grey dim-gilded of Buddhism, the fleecy opacity of Islam, or the mysterious medium of t…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 143

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…al than aught physical is the Golden Dawn of this Eternal Sun! But ere the Orb of Glory rose clear of its banks of blackness --- alas my soul! --- that Light Ineffable was withdrawn beneath the falling veil of darkness, and in purples and greys glorious beyond imaging, sad beyond conceiving, faded the superb Herald of the Day. But mine eyes have seen it! And this, then, is Dhyana! Whit it, yet all but unremarked, came a melody as of the sweet-souled Vina. Next day: Again, by the grace Ineffable of Bhavani to the meanest of Her devotees, arose t…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 329

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…f the way during the trial, and we were photographed together, with the baby, at the Dover Street studios. I had written the agony of my soul in Rosa Decidua, which I dedicated to Lord Salvesen (not Salvarsan), the judge who presided at the trial. This poem was printed privately and a copy with the best of the photographs was sent to the judge, with a polite letter of thanks. (It is reprinted in The Winged Beetle, pp. 130-149.) This poem is, perhaps, my high-water mark in realism. It reveals my human self as I had never even attempted to do. I …

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1907 · PDF PAGE 231

Collected Works (Vol. III)

…are spiritually minded: if you interpret every phenomenon that is presented to your sen- sorium as a particular dealing of God with your soul. But if you come back from the celebration of the Eucharist and say, ‘‘ Mr. Hogwash was very dull to-day,” you will never get to heaven, where the good poets live, and nobody else ; nor to hell, whose inhabitants are exclusively bad poets. There is more hope for a man who should go to Lord’s and say he saw the angels of God ascending and descending upon C. B. Fry. It is God who sees the possibility of Lig…

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1944 · PDF PAGE 267

The Book of Thoth

…Solar system. The tenth Sephira, which refers to Earth, is not shown on this figure. For this number represents the Nephesch, the animal soul of man, the crystallization of the mind, and the Daughter or Hé final of Tetragrammaton. In this edition very little attention has been paid to the immense, vast, overshadowing dogma of the Christian era. This has been variously represented as the doctrine of original sin, of the Fall, of the Atonement; part of this doctrine is given in the legends about the Lost Word, the Widow and the Widow’s son, the f…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 204

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…is a series of words so arranged that the combination of meaning, rhythm and rime produces the definitely magical effect of exalting the soul to divine ecstasy. Edgar Allan Poe and Arthur Machen share this view. Henley's poem conforms with this criterion. I told him what I was doing about Rodin. His view was that the sonnet had been worked out and he advised me to try the Shakespearian sonnet or quatorzain. I immediately attempted the form in the train that evening and produced the quatorzain on himself from which I have quoted above. I recogni…

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