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1929 · PDF PAGE 300

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…e's chair coolies were cases in point. They had smoked from twelve years old or thereabouts; and when I say smoked, I mean smoked. Every night on reaching the inn, temple or camp, as the case {489} may be, they cooked their rice and started to smoke directly they had eaten it, continuing till they went to sleep. In the morning again they smoked before starting. The chair (with Rose and the baby, and the books which I like to have handy to read at odd moments without unpacking my valise) weighed over one hundred and sixty pounds. Each man had th…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 521

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…g else for me to do. I had no remorse, not so much as a qualm of conscience. The Secret Chiefs kept silent. And I found that after a fortnight or so I simply could not stand it any longer. I felt more than a little like a naughty dog, but there was simply nothing to be done but to crawl back with my tail between my legs, and I remember with somewhat shamefaced amusement, that I had a sort of hope that I had escaped notice. The situation had not in any way changed; when I reopened my Magical Record I did so entirely without hope of any kind; in …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 357

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ux on the last day of July, went on to Bayonne the next morning, and started the same afternoon for the frontier, reaching Ustaritz that night. Three days' walk took us across the Pyrenees to Pamplona. The people of the mountain villages seemed to have no experience of strangers, especially of strangers on foot. Of course we were not very beautiful objects to the uninitiated eye. I was in my climbing clothes, save that I replaced tweed by buckskin breeches, the same pair as I am wearing today. As for Neuburg, I cannot say what he looked like, b…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 157

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… the South Sea Islands; but the place is a den of malaria. We had no time to land, as the captain was anxious to get into Akyab the same night. We raced through the straits and cast anchor there about eight o'clock --- just in time. I went ashore with the second officer and proceeded in my usual casual manner to try to find Allan in the dark. The job was easier than I anticipated. The first man I spoke to greeted me as if I had been his long-lost brother, and took me off in his own carriage to the monastery (the name of which is Lamma Sayadaw K…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 567

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…. But after some consideration, Grant Richards could not see his way to accept my terms. I think we were both reluctant to part; and one night I was inspired to try him with a third artificial minnow. I would write a shocker on the subject which was catering to the hysteria and pururience of the sex-crazed public: the drug traffic insanity. It provided a much needed variation from the "white slave" traffic. I proposed as a title The Diary of a Drug Fiend and sketched out a synopsis of its contents on a sheet of notepaper. This was mostly bluff.…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 528

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…Wizard lives, it was my custom to ask his aid in the solution of any problems which occurred in the course of my regular working. On the night of February 24th, I happened to want to know whether I could use my name in the Great Order, Tau Omicron Mu Epsilon Gamma Alpha Theta Eta Rho Iota Omicron Nu , (TO MEGA THPION), in conjunction with Hebrew letters. The Wizard replied, "Yes." I asked, "Shall I use the whole name or Theta Eta Rho Iota Omicron Nu alone? He answered, "Theta Eta Rho Iota Omicron Nu alone." I then spent some hours in trying to …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 178

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…s by sixty per cent, and perhaps walked up the mountain before the weather broke. Thanks to our rapid march from Srinagar, we were a fortnight ahead of our programme. We were afraid of getting to the mountain too early in the season; but from what I now know of the climate, we should have done much better to rush through and tackle the mountain before the breaking of the monsoon in India. Another ill effect of including the foreign element was this. Eckenstein, somewhat forgetful of the principles of selfless concentration which are essential t…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 205

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…to Snowdrops from a Curate's Garden. I quote the passage. His evenings were spent in that witty and high-thinking informal club that met nightly at the restaurant Au Chien Rouge, whose members are so honoured in the world of art. There he met C--- the brilliant but debauched sculptor, caustic of wit, though genial to his friends; N---, the great painter, whose royal sense of light made his canvases into a harmonious dream: he also the sweet friend of Bacchus, who filled him with a glow and melody of colour and thought. There too, were D- -- and…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 170

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… tracks made by the coolies had not made the way decently walkable. Faint with exhaustion, I dragged myself into camp at five o'clock at night, after a thirteen hours' trudge during which I had hardly sat down. My eyes, too, were inflamed. In the Alps, I had found myself able to go all day in bright sunshine without dark goggles and be none the worse. In Mexico I became uncomfortable after an hour or two and had to put on my glasses. But in the Himalayas, even at low altitudes (the Zoji La is about five thousand metres), snow blindness is a rea…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 317

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… had spent the fifty li of the journey, P'u P'eng to Ying Wa Kuan, in making resolutions to undertake the Great Magical Retirement. That night I had a dream, in which an angel flew to me "to comfort me". He was bearing an ankh in his hand. If I had known then, as I do now, that the ankh is not fundamentally a crux ansata but a sandal strap, the symbol of the power to go, I should have understood that I ought to make the Retirement on the journey. It is obviously weakness to rely upon one's material surroundings, and I was already sufficiently i…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 583

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

583 In due course, Frater O. P. V. arrived at the abbey and on his heels two Oxford men: Pinney and Bosanquet. We put them up for three nights. They were flabbergasted to find us perfectly normal decent people. They were keen rock climbers. I was too ill to join them, but I dragged myself to the foot of the crags and showed them the two problems which I had not carred to attempt without a trustworthy companion. These were the outside way up the Cavern Pitch in Deep Gill and the Deep Gill pillar. They succeeded in climbing both, to my great joy.…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 362

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…es by exercise until fatigue sent us once more to sleep. An alternation of discomforts, which was repeated half a dozen times during the night. The memory is delightful. All the unpleasant incidents of the period have passed into oblivion. About fifty kilometres from Madrid we passed a magnificent range of rocks. The smiling fertile valley does not count; it is the naked rugged aspiration of the grim granite that leaves its marks in the mind. It was for the peasants to think of their fields and see nothing of the universe but their crops and th…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 573

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…cue him for the verminous vagabonds, squalid and obscene, who constituted the court of Queen Betty. He had taken me to the Harlequin one night. In a corner was his wife, three parts drunk, on the knees of a dirty-faced loafer, pawed by a swarm of lewd hogs, breathless with lust. She gave herself greedily to their gross and bestial fingerings and was singing in an exquisite voice, which might have put her among brinces, an interminable smutty song, with a ribald chorus in which they all joined, hoarse and harsh from drink and disease. The beauty…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 183

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…I was now in full view of the mountain itself, bar clouds; and, my first duty being to reconnoitre the mountain, I spent all day and all night watching it through my glasses, sketch-book in hand. The clouds shifted sufficiently to enable me to make a piecemeal picture, and I came to conclusion that while the south face, perhaps possible theoretically, meant a complicated climb with no half-way house, there should be no difficulty in walking up the snow slopes on the east-south-east to the snowy shoulder below the final rock pyramid. I sent back…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 199

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

199 time in Paris known as the Sibyl, his own "belle amie". That night they called on her; and from her P. discovered, for he led her in the spirit, the following remarkable facts. The vision at first was of little importance, then by degrees the seer was led to a house which P. recognized as that in which D.D.C.F. lived. He entered one of the rooms, which he also at once recognized; but curious to say, instead of finding D.D.C.F. and V.N.R. there, he found Theo and Mrs. Horos. Mr. Horos (M.S.R.) incarnated in the body of V.N.R. and Mrs. Horos …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 483

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ould like to flagellate her. Hall wrote a clever and accurate article about the evocation of Bartzabel. I dined at Cosegrave's house one night. He had asked Evangeline Adams to meet me as being a famous astrologer. The meeting led to a lengthy association. She wanted me to write a book on astrology for her. The plan failed through her persistent efforts to cheat me out of the profits, and her obstinate ignorance of the elementary facts of nature combined with an unconquerable antagonism to the principles of applying common sense to the science.…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 42

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…it had broken between him and the third guide. But this man, instead of going down to the valley, actually climbed the mountain, spent a night on the ridge and went down the next day to Zermatt. The dangers of mountaineering are ridiculously exaggerated. I have never known of any accident which was not due to ignorance or folly. Eckenstein, the greatest climber of his age, told me the same thing. Jones obtained the reputation of being the most brilliant rock climber of his time by persistent self- advertisement. He was never a first-rate climbe…

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1906 · PDF PAGE 208

Collected Works (Vol. II)

…die! We have all possible respect for Mr. Crowley’s re- ligious symbols, and we do not object to his calling upon Shu at any hour of the night. Only it would be'unreasonable of him to complain if his religious exercises were generally mistaken for an effort to drive away Cats. Moreover, the poets of Mr. Crowley's school have, among all their merits, some genuine intellectual dangers from this tendency to import religions, this free trade in gods. That all creeds are significant and all gods divine we willingly agree. But thisis rather a reason …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 355

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…e sincerity, to cure her; and all the while she would be drinking under cover of her handkerchief. I took her down to Sandwich for a fortnight in June and July, but there was nothing to be done. One could not even watch her. She would go out in the early hours of the morning and appear at the breakfast table hardly able to speak. I went back to Paris on July 8th. I worked on Clouds Without Water, Sir Palamedes, The World's Tragedy and "Mr. Todd". In particular, I wrote the autobiographical preface to The World's Tragedy, some ten thousand words…

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1906 · PDF PAGE 201

Collected Works (Vol. II)

…d Bishop, the remarkable preface to whose dreadfully conventionally psychopathic works is this. of the PREFACE.* In the fevered days and nights under the Empire that perished in the struggle of 1870, * To a collection of MSS, illustrating the ‘‘ Psy- chopathia Sexualis” of von Kraft-Ebing. ‘Ihe names of the parties have been changed. that whirling tumult of pleasure, scheming, success, and despair, the minds of men hada trying ordeal to pass through. In Zola’s ‘‘ La Curée”” we see how such ordinary and natural characters as those of Saccard, Ma…

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