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1929 · PDF PAGE 562

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…be burgled." In 1910 during "The Rites of Eleusis" in Caxton Hall, to which we purposely invited a police representative, they had other men in plain clothing outside the building, apparently hoping that something indictable would ooze through the brickwork. In 1913-14 again, my studio near Onslow Square was a regular rendezvous for spies. I was always seeing them in the courtyard, skulking behind trees as I went to and fro from dinner. What they had hoped to find out I cannot imagine. In Detroit, months after my return to Europe, they repeated…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 86

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ng tennis. One incident amuses me greatly. Students were exempt from the general law and could not be punished for any act which was not mentioned by name in the statues. The brighter spirits would then accordingly search the statues for gaps. It was, for instance, strengstens verboten to tie night-watchmen to lightning conductors during thunderstorms. Eckenstein and his friends waited accordingly for the absence of thunderstorms and then proceeded to tie up the watchmen. He was as thoroughly anglicized as possible. The chief mark of the old Ad…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 419

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…y of my little safe?" She understands the whole thing and walks out of the house in disgust, never to return. He, overwhelmed by the judgment of God, determines to commit suicide, after burning the accursed photograph. But he cannot summon up courage and flings the cocked pistol into the grate. It explodes; the bullet destroys one eye and cheek. But he recovers. The street boys take to calling him "Old Venus" and his guilty conscience persuades him that they have somehow heard the story. This tale is one of the most bitter truths that I have pe…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 83

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… these qualities in deciding one's route in unknown country. In the actual technique of climbing, Eckenstein and I were still more complementary. It is impossible to imagine two methods more opposed. His climbing was invariably clean, orderly and intelligible; mine can hardly be described as human. I think my early untutored efforts, emphasized by my experience on chalk, did much to form my style. His movements were a series, mine were continuous; he used definite muscles, I used my whole body. Owing doubtless to my early ill-health, I never de…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 152

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…e Irrawaddy and the sea. This journey, very short in measured miles, is reputed so deadly that it has only been accomplished by very few men. These left most of their party to moulder in the mountains and themselves died within a few days of completing the crossing. I have always had this peculiar passion for putting myself in poisonous perils. Its source is presumably my congenital masochism, and the Travellers' Tales of Paley Gardner had determined its form of expression. Edward Thornton decided to join me on this expedition. We sailed for Ra…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 413

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…gh the ordeal of crossing the Abyss. She fails and they part. Ida meets the Negro, who loves her. Rolles and Ninon (Nina Olivier already mentioned) lunch with them. Ida takes pleasure in torturing the Negro and begs him to "respect her modesty" --- which she has not got. The Negro suddenly understands that she is heartless and sinks his teeth in her throat. Rolles kills him with a kick. He then consults one of the Secret Chiefs, who advises him to take Ida away. He tells Rolles that she has passed through the Abyss after all. The formula is tha…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 492

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

492 She was making quite a lot of money by now so he pestered her day and night, whenever he could spare a moment from the German prostitute with whom he was now living, having been thrown out by my eccentric friend. He had queer ideas, had the eminent mongrel. The cost of a double room being slightly less than that of two single, he effected a prudent economy by putting this girl in the same bed with his wife when he was out of town. During this time I was often away in Washington, thus missing a good deal of the fun. In June, I came back prop…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 568

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

568 teapot around which the old women of criticism nod and talk scandal. I wanted to be on the spot when the fur began to fly, so as to give as good as I got. However, the gods have their own ideas. I now put forward my scheme for publishing my memoirs --- my autohagiography I playfully called it --- before Collins. Beresford knew Sullivan {896} well, another lucky coincidence; and when I sent him a fairly full synopsis, they accepted my proposals gladly. I took a short holiday in Paris, chiefly to give the Ape a good time at the seaside, and o…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 154

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… if I required them. Weforces and had quite a nice dinner combined together. One does not realizeuntil one meets them in how nice Englishmen really are out-of-the-way places. Sometimes not even then. The following day we went off again and arrived in Mindon at two thirty p.m. The road had become very bad; and, in the springless bullock cart, travelling was by no means pleasant. In fact, after two or three big jolts we agreed to take turns to look out, and to give warning if a particularly frightful jolt seemed imminent. But for all our precauti…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 160

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… finished. Oh Book IV! On the nineteenth I went and saw the fort with "Major Graham, a prize fool from South Africa". The entry demands emendation. He wasn't a major; his name wasn't Graham; he had never been to South Africa; and he was anything but a fool! His idea was to represent himself as in charge of some Boer prisoners and obtain credit and cash by various misrepresentations. The twentieth and twenty-first were great days in my life. I wrote an essay which I originally gate the title "Crowleymas Day" and published under the title "Berash…

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1906 · PDF PAGE 66

Collected Works (Vol. II)

…royed all the papers which held the story of my life—all save one. That I saved; the only noble passage, perhaps—among the many notable. Men will say that it is stained; you, I think, should be wiser. It is the story of how the Israelites crossed the Red Sea. They were not drowned, you know (he seemed to lapse into a day-dream), and they came out on the Land of Promise side. But they had to descend therein.” ‘* They all died in the wilderness,” I said, feeling as if I understood this mystical talk, which, indeed, I did not. But I felt in- spire…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 41

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…o my contemporaries as a very extraordinary individual obsessed by fantastic passions. But such were not in any way natural to me. The moment the pressure was relieved every touch of the abnormal was shed off instantly. The impulse to write poetry disappeared almost completely at such periods. I had not even any of the ordinary ambitions of young men. I was content to enjoy sport without wishing to attain eminence in it. It came natural to me to find ways up mountains which looked to me interesting and difficult. But it never occurred to me to …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 182

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… innermost layer; it is allowed to disintegrate by itself. The richer a man becomes, the more clothes he is able to buy, so that the headmen of a village are like rolls of cloth. Their method of preparing their food on the glacier is ingenious. Having made a fire, they get a stone as nearly round as possible and heat it thoroughly through. Round this they smear their paste of flour and water, twisting the while into their shawls. By the time they have arrived in camp the paste is baked through and still hot. One cannot wash on the glacier --- n…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 404

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…terlocutor to realize the entire vanity of human effort. The moral was, of course, "Get right with God." At this time the consciences of men were much exercised, as our fathers put it, with regard to the monument which Jacob Epstein had made for the tomb of Oscar Wilde in Pčre-Lachaise. This monument had been on exhibition in his studio in London for some months and the most delicately minded dilettanti had detected nothing objectionable in it. No sooner had it been put in the cemetery than the guardian objected to it as indecent. The Prefect o…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 405

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…rne by using his merits more accurately than he did himself. But Epstein allowed himself to be influenced by the pompous cocksureness of men who were not fit to cart his clay, and for a time tried to work on their principles instead of allowing his genius to express itself as it would, with disastrous results. I have myself made an ass of myself now and again, by trying to construct consciously according to my convictions. But at least I never let myself be influenced by the fashions of a clique. I am reminded of an interesting circumstance whi…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 163

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…id something not quite nice. Knowles and I, who were sharing the same room, proceeded to dress with elegant leisure and bore our bewilderment to Eckenstein. At this point a telegram arrived, from which we inferred that the Indian Empire was somewhat imperilled by our conduct. At ten o'clock there arrived no less a person than the deputy commissioner of Rawalpindi; one of those strong silent men, with whom Mr. Henry Seton Merriman has made us familiar. He summoned me to his august presence. I (obviously) referred him once more to Eckenstein, but…

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1905 · PDF PAGE 231

Collected Works (Vol. I)

224 TANNHAUSER will cause the irreparable catastrophe which is the one element of drama which we may still (in the work of a modern dramatist) await with any degree of confidence. I trust that I may be forgiven for adopting the idea that Tannhiduser was one of those mysterious Germans whose reputed existence so perturbed the Middle Ages; in short, a Rosicrucian.! Some people may be surprised that a Member of that illustrious but unhappy fraternity should take cognizance of what my friend Bhikku Ananda Maitriya calls ‘‘ hog- nosed Egyptian deiti…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 403

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

403 he said; and the twelve good men and true had brought in a verdict against the evidence, against the {642} judge's direction, against the psychology of the witnesses. And the sole ground for their verdict was that the existence of entirely unsupported suspicion of so horrible a crime proved that it must be justified. It was the psychology of the Middle Ages. A man might or might not be guilty of murder, but witchcraft was so unimaginable an abomination that it was unthinkable that anyone could accuse people of it unless it were true. I reme…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 434

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ely what people are thinking but fails to impress the English doctor through implored by the most eminent German professor in that department of science to allow her to work with him.) The editor wrote to my friend that he would like to publish the story, but required proof of its literal truth. I cannot comment upon such incidents. I have never been able to understand the psychology of such crass stupidity as I have found almost universal among editors and publishers. I can understand any man considering any piece of literature worthless, or t…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 134

Konx Om Pax

proper adjustment of their braces than they ever did before. So we find as faith has ost power, prurience has gained sway. In the days of Alexander V1 a child would have been disembowelled for spelling Homousios with a second i and 2. Pope would not have been considered as worthy of the Vic erenc of Christ unless he had held secret intercourse with every single member 5? his family. But to-day with such pietistic parasites as the Protestant Pioneer and the Freethinker, with such Christian inverts as In-Gram and F66-Té, such puritanical broken-bo…

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