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1922 · PDF PAGE 158

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…y wouldn’t give us any. I wish Cockie had taken out his diploma. ' The papers are disgusting. It’s the silly season, right enough. Every time one picks one up, there’s something about cocaine. That old fool Platt is on the war-path. He wants to “ arouse public opinion to a sense of the appalling danger which threatens the manhood and womanhood of England.”’ One paper had a long speech of his reported in full. He says it's the plot of the Germans to get even with us.Of course, I’m only a woman and all that ; but it sounds to me rather funny. | W…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 308

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…nce at Platt, whose eyes shot a venomous question. “‘T can’t understand it at all,’”’ she said slowly. ‘‘ She seemed very uneasy all the time she was in the bed- room. I thought she was missing her dope. If I had had any on me, I’d have given her a big jolt. Dummer Esel{ Tl never go out without it again so long as I live. I forget what excuse she made. I thought it was just camouflage to go and get her heroin.” Silence fell between us. Platt was afraid to say what he wanted tosay. I was honestly puzzled. The incident had destroyed the effect of…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 125

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…and encouraging exhortations, and by increased efforts. We never checked our rush till we stood on the summit. It was probably the first time that it had ever been climbed in an unbroken sprint. Our victim was by this time convinced that we could climb mountains. And he was certainly the sorriest sight! Even on the descent, his troubles were not over. Most of the lower slopes are covered with fine loose ash, abominable to ascend but a joy to glissade. Our friend, between the fear of God, the fear of death, and the fear of us, had lost all maste…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 244

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…asm and indefatigability proved most important factors in the execution of the orders of the Secret Chiefs. Meanwhile, we had a glorious time at Boleskine. What with the salmon and the venison and my cellar, billiards and rock scrambling, the good company and the perfect summer, life passed like an ecstatic dream. In summer in the Highlands, time seems to forgive. At midnight one can sit and read in the open air even in the absence of the moon. Night is "one faint eternal eventide of gems". One of our adventures is worthy of record. It is one o…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 524

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

524 reduced to such a fine art. My own salary was twenty dollars per week, which was, at that time, little more than the wage of an unskilled stenographer, and it was a Titan task to extract as much as ten dollars or the price of a lunch for a long article or story by a well-known writer. They expected me to get a cover design by a first-rate artist for five dollars and would try to cheat him or her out of it at that. I was horribly ashamed of having to cadge contributions in this way, but very proud to remember that many brilliant people seeme…

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1904 · PDF PAGE 12

Snowdrops from a Curate’s Garden

…t the proper interval his own rich quota of scholarly jest. Needless to say, so brilliant a galaxy attracted all the false lights of the time. T . . . , the braggart, the mediocre painter, the lusty soi-disant ma- quereau of marchionesses, would seek admission (which was in theory denied to none). But the cut- ting wit of C . . . drove him headlong, as if by the Cherubim, from the Gates of the Garden of Eden. G . . . , the famous society painter, came one night, and was literally hounded out of the room by a swift and pitiless attack on the par…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 186

Diary of a Drug Fiend

… absence of interruption to the serenity of my soul.... I think writing this has reminded me of what I used to think was reality. It was time to go out and have lunch. The luxurious lethargy seems insuperable. .. . It isn’t hunger; it’s habit. Some instinct, some obscure and obscene recollection of the lurking brute drives one to get up and go out. The dodge for doing this is to take three or four rather small sniffs in quick succession. C. would be much better, but we haven’t got any. September 1 What ages and ages have passed! These filthy lo…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 537

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…at was not impossible but undesirable. But at least my impotence was only too evident; and I returned to Europe in December. Even at the time, I felt more or less clearly that I had come to a definite turning-place in my career. It is still difficult to interpret the next period, if only because, for one thing, it is incomplete, and for another, too close to see in proper perspective. But so far as I understand it at all, it seems as if my work were to construct a model of a new civilization to replace that which we see before our eyes reeling …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 401

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…very kind of business, from the editing of The Equinox to the superintendence of the Order, apart from my own literary labours. I had no time for lawsuits. Besides, preoccupation with such matters means anxiety and unfits one for calm concentration on one's real business. It was also in a sense a point of honour with me not to interfere with the Masters. What has time to say? We know what happened to Horatio Bottomley. I am glad to recall that when I heard of his arrest I wrote to tell him that I bore no malice and that I hoped he would be able…

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1904 · PDF PAGE 38

Snowdrops from a Curate’s Garden

…er I was not yet eight years old ! Throwing a leisurely leg over the whisky-sodden mass of fat that Britons called their Q...n, I called Time ! And began. The slippery and lax bung-hole of the flatulent monarch was ill- suited to my boyish chink-stopper : but Love will find a way, and the head surgeon hastily ligatured its tapering delicacy to the protuberant and pendu- lous clitoris of the royal patient. Ten minutes later he was able to announce to the joyful crowd that the temperature had not risen further, and that under God England might ow…

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1906 · PDF PAGE 92

Collected Works (Vol. II)

… war disturb our peace? Long stablished is young amity Maid-blushing over Greece : And fair Iolchus stands sublime, A monument to lesson time. WOMEN. But if such fear were come indeed, Who reads the riddle dread Spoken in frenzy by the seer Against the royal head? We know the Rhyme’s involving spell— Its purport? Irresolvable ! MEN. We heard his foolish maundering : But, bred in wiser ways, We have forgotten: do ye sing The rune of ancient days ! To-day his curse cacophonous Shall earn at least a laugh from us! WOMEN. ‘*O! when the arméd hand i…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 276

The Equinox (Volume I, Number I)

…s.* After which the Hierophant confers on the Zelator the title of the Thirty-second Path; the Zelator then quits the Temple for a short time before passing to the Grade of Theoricus. The Ceremony of Theoricus is opened by the Hierophant, who says to the Zelator: “Frater Pereclinos de Faustis: as in the grade of 1°=10° there were given the symbolical representations of the Tree of Knowledge of the Good and Evil of the gate of Eden and of the Holy Place: so in the 2°=9° of Theoricus the ‘Sanctum Sanc- torum’ with the Ark and the Kerubim is shown…

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1909 · PDF PAGE 276

The Equinox (Volume I, Number II)

…s.* After which the Hierophant confers on the Zelator the title of the Thirty-second Path; the Zelator then quits the Temple for a short time before passing to the Grade of Theoricus. The Ceremony of Theoricus is opened by the Hierophant, who says to the Zelator: “Frater Pereclinos de Faustis: as in the grade of 1°=10° there were given the symbolical representations of the Tree of Knowledge of the Good and Evil of the gate of Eden and of the Holy Place: so in the 2°=9° of Theoricus the ‘Sanctum Sanc- torum’ with the Ark and the Kerubim is shown…

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1913 · PDF PAGE 17

The Rosicrucian Scandal

…erophant, and Berridge Praemonstrator or Cancellarius, [forget which. have a splendid memory. ‘Scourio, KC. So it took Dr. Berridge some time before he attached a criminal signiticance to Crowley's remark? Maruens. The mind of Berridge works slowly,but it works, ‘exceeding small. Seon,K Berridge mentions to Crowle [As to the remark itself, Take the first part. rumours that his enemies

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1930 · PDF PAGE 88

Magick in Theory and Practice (Section 3)

…nd when, invoking o]ten> thou shalt see That formless Fire; when ail the earth is shaken, The stars abide not, and the moon is gone, Ail Time crushed back into Eternity, The Universe by earthquake overtaken; Light is not, and the thunders roll, The World is done: When in the darkness Chaos rolls again In the excited brain: Then, O then call not to thy view that visible Image of Nature; fatal is her name! It fitteth not thy Body to behold That living light of Hell, The unluminous, dead flame, Until that body from the crucible Hath passed, pure g…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 53

Magick Without Tears

…le grain of dust that shall not attain to Buddhahood": with some such words did the debauched old reprobate seek to console himself when Time began to take its revenge.) But the answer 4. A letter dated October 12, 1943 constituted No. 48 in Magick without Tears.

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1954 · PDF PAGE 309

Magick Without Tears

…lly, all these speculations are based on a priori considerations; we had better drop the whole argument as little better than a waste of time; nay, as worse, for it encourages one in loose thinking, and especially in clinging to names which have no counterpart in things. There is only one point of theory which matters to our practice. We may readily concur that the Augoeides, the "Genius" of Socrates, and the "Holy Guardian Angel" of Abramelin the Mage, are identical. But we cannot include this "Higher Self'; for the Angel is an actual Individu…

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1954 · PDF PAGE 529

Magick Without Tears

…le method of procedure. We call it Magick. It is of course possible to strengthen the link between him and yourself so that in course of time you become capable of moving and, generally speaking, operating on that plane which is his natural habitat. There is however one other way, and one only, as far as I can see, of reaching this state. It is at least theoretically possible to exalt the whole of your own consciousness until it becomes as free to move on that exalted plane as it is for him. You should note , by the way, that in this case the

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1929 · PDF PAGE 310

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… fought like a fiend against death. The doctor gave the strictest orders that not more than one person should be in the sick room at one time. My mother-in-law refused to obey. I thought I had suffered enough. It was her hypocrisy that had sought to justify her tippling by giving her children a share of the champagne and thus implanted in Rose the infernal impulse which had wrecked her life and love, and mine. I made no bones about it; I took the hag by the shoulders and ran her out of the flat, assisting her down the stairs with my boot lest s…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 341

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…not know how long I stood there holding myself in, but judging from subsequent calculations it must have been over an hour: the sense of time had entirely disappeared. But I became suddenly aware of a terrific reaction; I felt that I had missed my chance by not letting myself go and perhaps been killed for my pains. At the same time I was seized with a sudden sense of alarm. I felt myself to be outside the spiritual circle. I was sure that someone would discover me and a swift shudder passed through me as I apprehended my danger. Fortunately, I…

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