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1929 · PDF PAGE 11

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… he touched them. He does not remember what he answered, but whatever it was it elicited from his father the question, "Will you take my word for it or would your rather learn by experience?" He replied, "I would rather learn by experience," and plunged head foremost into the clump. This summer was marked by two narrow escapes. He remembers being seated beside the driver of some carriage with what seemed to him an extraordinarily tall box, though this impression may mean merely that he was a very small boy. It was going down hill on a road that…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 21

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…piritual life of the period, as will appear later. I was genuinely fond of my Aunt Ada. She was womanly in the oldfashioned sense of the word; a purely passive type. Naturally talented though she was, she was both ignorant and bigoted. In her situation, she could not have been anything else. But her opinions did not interfere with her charity. A woman of infinite kindness. Her health was naturally delicate; an attack of rheumatic fever had damaged her heart and she died before her time. The meanness and selfishness of my Uncle Tom were principa…

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1906 · PDF PAGE 286

Collected Works (Vol. II)

…e, it isto be classed as physiological.’ I obtained the idea, however, that the danger was very serious, perhaps more so than the actual words used would imply. A further inquiry as to whether he could suggest any medical, surgical, or other means, by which this state inight be produced at will, led to no result. Scept. This is most interesting: for the very doubts which I did entertain as to the safety of mental methods directed to attain- ing this result, are dispelled by what is a cautious. if not altogether unfavourable, view from a natural…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 502

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…e made sporadic attempts to escape from his environment, but the caress of this world and the deceitfulness of riches choke the artist's word and it becomes untruthful. I passed a delightful six weeks in the south. Political and social conditions were of great interest. The standardized surface has overspread the south, but it has not completely smothered the old

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1929 · PDF PAGE 325

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…the justice of the symbolism, and the way to eliminate the disadvantages and dangers of the situation is to extend the connection of the word "love" to include all phenomena of the uniting of opposites, as is done in The Book of the Law. Hardly anything is more important for the aspirant than to get rid of the tendency to make God in his Own image. One should learn to regard the formula of Yod, Hé, Vau as universal, not as generalized from the reproductive process of mammals, but vice versa. That process should be regarded as one particular cas…

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1906 · PDF PAGE 263

Collected Works (Vol. II)

… pure has no need VOL. II, to conceal the Truth—he who truly loves and who has a malice towards none, will ever speak only fair and soft words. By a man’s speech do we learn his nature, and that one whose Right Aspirations are bearing fruit attains to the Third Step, Right Speech, Sammavaca. Speaking only the Truth in all things, never speaking * harshly or un- kindly, in his speech realising the love and pity that is in his heart—that man _ has attained to Stage the Third. And because of the great power of a man’s thoughts and words to change …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 114

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ch salad. It seems absurd. I was very bond of lobster mayonnaise; but lobster salad, never! I dislike the combination of consonants. The word suggests something indefinite. It gives the effect of French poetry, where the absence of accentuation emasculates the rhythm. I found myself spiritually at home with Mexicans. The despise industry and commerce. They had Diaz to do their political thinking for them and damned well he did it. Their hearts are set on bull fighting, cock fighting, gambling and lechery. Their spirit is brave and buoyant; it h…

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1907 · PDF PAGE 251

Collected Works (Vol. III)

… Kabbalist, ili, 17 There is an idol in my house, ili. 97 There is a sense of passion after death, i. 182 © There is much sorcery in the word eleven, li. 68 There is no hell but earth, li. 53 ‘‘ There is only one more birth,” he groaned, li, 229 There leapt upon a breach and laughed, iii. ror. There was no secret cave, ii. 70 The rose of the springtime that bended, ii. 72 The roses of the world are sad, ii. 71 The schoolboy drudges through his Greek, ili, 63 The scorpion kisses and the stings of sin, i. 54 The seas that lap the sand, i. 46

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1929 · PDF PAGE 171

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… we found another rajah equally urbane. Travel in the East is essential to any sort of understanding of the Bible. The equivalent of the word king is constantly used to describe men who may be anything from absolute monarchs over hundreds of thousands of people, to country squires or even headmen of a tribe of gypsies. We reached Skardu on the fourteenth of May, and put in four days making {292} arrangements for the next stage of the journey. We could no longer depend on finding enough coolies, the villages beyond Shigar being poorly populated.…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 536

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… with fair correctness of things which may be in a sense entirely strange to us. For instance, suppose that I am unable to read a single word of Russian. I am nevertheless able to get a fair general idea of the probable character of the contents of any book by applying what I may call Sherlock Holmes methods. Obviously, I might be deceived. Gogol's masterpiece might be badly printed on rotten paper and defaced with vile illustrations in order to fool me. A series of such traps would teach me to distrust my judgment. Now, this is just the positi…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 131

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… when the woman had to choose between comradeship and catastrophe. For in truth, there was no Aleister Crowley to love; there was only a Word for the utterance of which a human form had been fashioned. So the foolish virgins, finding that love and vanity could not live together, gave up a man for a mirror; but the wise, knowing that man is mortal, gave up the world for the Work and thereby cheated satiety, disillusionment and death. Yet, so fearful was I at this time that I had failed and shown myself unfit to accomplish the terrific Tasks, to …

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1907 · PDF PAGE 229

Collected Works (Vol. III)

…e in the week, and even offers to repay that with social con- sideration for the old, and opportunities of flirtation for the young. The word ‘‘dear”? has two senses, and these two are one. Pressing the ‘‘ out-of-doors” argument, as we may call it, I will challenge each of my readers to a simple experiment. Go out one night toa distant and lonely heath, if no mountain summit is available: then at midnight repeat the Lord’s Prayer, or any invocation with which you happen to be familiar, or one made up by yourself, Or one consisting wholly of sen…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 190

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…crevasse. Eckenstein uttered a single violent objurgation which opened new vistas on the depth of his feelings. I did not waste even one word --- I was putting my boots on. Before Guillarmod had fairly crawled into his tent, Eckenstein and I were skimming over the snow on our ski with a coiled rope. (In my haste I forgot to take my goggles, which cost me another two days of snow blindness.) I got down to the crevasse ahead of Eckenstein, but he shouted to me to wait. Here was a chance to show me in practice what he had always claimed in theory;…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 577

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ing passed off quietly, so I wandered on to Cefalu. My troubles began almost at once owing to the three men I had trusted breaking their word a above narrated. In all other ways, things were in fine shape. I settled down to dictate these memoirs with my usual energy. The Ape and Jane took turns to take down my story and to type it out. On November 26th further help arrived. With great kindness Robinson Smith had lent Raoul enough money to take the journey. Both he and Betty were still suffering from the remains of septic sore throats and genera…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 345

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…of the adept with his Holy Guardian Angel; the latter is "The voluntary emancipation of a certain adept from his adeptship ... the birth words of a Master of the Temple." Even this did not exhaust my creative energy. As in Cairo in 1902 I had started the "Lover's Alphabet", on the ground that the most primitive kind of lyrics or odes was in some way the most appealing and immortal, so I decided to write a series of hymns to the Blessed Virgin Mary in the simplest possible style. I must not be thought exactly insincere, though I had certainly no…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 152

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…f least resistance. Its own selfishness has not even the wit to prevent Buddha arising. We cannot call nature evil. "Fatal" is the exact word. Necessity implies stupidity --- this the chief attribute of nature. As to "supreme intelligence", consider how many billion years were required to develop even so low a thing as emotion. The Rangoon River remains one of the deepest impressions of my life. It reminded me of the Neva, though Petrograd is immensely more important. But there is the same terrifying breadth of torrent, much more rapid and turb…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 531

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…limity which makes description impossible to attempt; yet all the time it seemed to me that each trance was no more than the letter of a word, as if some truth were being revealed which could only be expressed piecemeal. The crown of these trances was an angelic vision such as I had never before enjoyed. The communication was perfect on all planes of being; and this completeness conferred a sense of reality altogether beyond previous experience. It was the difference between meeting a friend face to face, and trying to reconstruct his personali…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 24

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… though I had no idea what that interest was. As soon as I heard of chemistry, I realized that it dealt with reality as I understood the word. So I soon had "Little Roscoe" practically by heart, though it was not a school subject. I furnished a laboratory in the house at Streatham, and spent all my time and money in making experiments. It may be interesting to mention how my mind worked. I had heard of the petard as a military engine; and I was hoist with it. Roscoe told me that chloride of nitrogen was the most powerful and sensitive explosive…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 88

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…osed. He paid greater attention and thought he detected yells of coarse ridicule mingled with violent objurgation. He thought he heard a word at the conclusion of a string of extremely emphatic epithets which might easily have been mistaken for "Fool!" At this point Legros stopped poling, said shortly and unmistakably "Hell!" and pointed to the wharf, which, as previously stated, stood in need of some trifling repairs. It was now not more than fifty yards away and seemed to them to be charging them with the determination of an angry elephant. T…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 20

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…om the country by the exigencies of her son's position in the Civil Service. She was extremely lovable; I never remember hearing a cross word fall from her.She was addicted to the infamous vice of bezique. It was, of course, impossible to have "The Devil's Picture Books" in a house frequented by the leading lights of Evangelicalism. But my Aunt Ada had painted a pack of cards in which the suits were roses, violets, etc. It was the same game; but the camouflage satisfied my uncle's conscience. No pharisee ever scoured the outside of the cup and …

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