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1922 · PDF PAGE 97

Diary of a Drug Fiend

The Gktter on the Snow 83 I was aware of a violent subconscious irritation. The man’s talk had dealt so airily with millions that I couldn’t help recognising that I was a very poor man indeed, by modern standards. Five or six thousand a year, and perhaps another fifteen hundred from the rents of the Barley Grange estate, and that infernal income-tax and so on—I was really little better than a pauper, and there was Lou to be considered. I had always thought jewellery vulgar ; a signet ring and a tie pin for a man—for a woman, a few trinkets, ver…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 23

Diary of a Drug Fiend

… ; and what he did not know about scrapping was not worth being known. In particular, he was very much alive to the fact that an unarmed man sitting behind a fixed table has no chance against a man with a stick in the open. . He slipped out like a cat. Before Bumble could bring down his cane, the old man had dived under his guard and taken the lunatic by the throat. There was no sort of a fight. The veteran shook his opponent like a bull-dog; and, shifting his grip, flung him to the ground with one tremendous throw. In less than two seconds the…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 302

Diary of a Drug Fiend

… I went on with a note of irony, which was. however, absolutely genial. I was friends with every one in the world. “ If there was ever a man with a conscience void of offence toward God and man, that man is surely Jabez Platt.” “Ah, conscience, conscience,” he sighed. ‘‘ You have no idea, Sir Peter, how it has tormented me of late. The moral responsibility, the appalling moral responsibility.” “Whatever it is,’’ I answered, “ you are certainly the man to shoulder it.” “* Well,” he said, “ I think I may say without boasting that I trust I have n…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 108

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…’s the right spirit. ‘‘ Unhand me, gentlemen, I'll make a ghost of him that lets me.” That’s the Pendragon spirit, and that’s the flying man’s spirit. Get to the top and stay at the top and shoot the other man down |!

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1922 · PDF PAGE 67

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…riend. She had evidently foreseen that we were going to run short of good old snow. Now I want all you fellows to take it as read that a man, if he calls himself a man, isn’t the kind of man that wants to stop a honeymoon with a girl in a Japanese kimono of the variety described, to have to put on a lot of beastly clothes and hunt all around Paris for a dope peddler. Of course, you'll say at once that I could have rung for the waiter and have him bring me a few cubic kilometres. But that’s simply because you don’t under- stand the kind of hotel…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 209

Diary of a Drug Fiend

Below the Brutes 195 The fourth man to whom Peter had gone told the same story, but had been very cordial. He thought he’d help things by standing Peter a dinner and filling him up with alcohol, with the idea that that would help him to support the lack of the other stimulant. It seems that I had to pay for the prescription. No, Lou, you're a naughty girl. You mustn’t be bitter like that. It’s your fault for getting born into a world where ignorance and folly are in constant competition for the premiership of the minds of the educated classes. …

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1922 · PDF PAGE 94

Diary of a Drug Fiend

… in on the 7ez-de-chaussée.”’ Well, you know, that’s all right about my being a millionaire, and all that. It’s one thing being a single man running round London perfectly happy with a shilling cigar and a stall at the Victoria Palace, and it’s quite another being on a honeymoon with a girl whom her most intimate friends call ‘‘ Unlimited Lou.” Feccles did not know that I had spent more than a third of my annual income in a fortnight. But, of course, I couldn’t tell the man how I was situated. We Pendragons are a pretty proud lot, especially si…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 384

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Latest Novels TYLER OF BARNET Bernard Gilbert Author of Old England This long, powerful novel shows the dilemma of a middle-aged man with an invalid wife and grown-up children, who falls passionately in love for the first time. As he is a man of iron self-control he represses his passion till it bursts all bounds, with a tragic result. No one now writing knows so well or describes so vividly life in the English countryside as does Bernard Gilbert. THE PIT-PROP SYNDICATE Freeman Wills Crofts Another brilliantly ingenious detective story by the a…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 162

Diary of a Drug Fiend

… pay. So of course everybody wants it whether they want it or not, and anybody but a member of parliament would know that if you offer a man twenty or thirty times what a thing is worth in itself, he’ll go to a lot of trouble to make you want to buy it.... : Well, we found this man was a fraud. He tried to sell us packets of snow in the dark. He tried to prevent Cockie examining the stuff by pretending to be afraid of the police. | But as it happened, Cockie’s long suit was chemistry. He was the wrong man to try to sell powdered borax to at a g…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 37

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…f his looks. He’s been everywhere, and done everything, and every step he treads is smeared with blood. He’s the most evil and dangerous man in London. He’s a vampire, he lives on ruined lives.” I admit I had the heartiest abhorrence for the man. But this fiercely bitter denunciation of one who was evidently a close friend of two of the world’s greatest artists, did not make his case look blacker. I was not impressed, frankly, with Mrs. Webster as an authority on other people’s conduct. “O Thou Dragon-prince of the air, that art drunk on the bl…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 127

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…apok e poi—pro patriad—mori 113 of whatever nature operates by destroying temporarily the inhibitions of education. The ordinary drunken man loses the veneer of civilisation. But if you get the right man, the adminis- tration of a drug is quite likely to suppress his mental faculties, with the result that his genius is set free. Coleridge is a case in point. When he happened to get the right quantity of laudanum in him, he dreamed Kubla Khan, one of the supreme treasures of the language. And why is it incomplete ? Because a man called from Porl…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 285

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…cobs. I found myself wondering acutely whether there was any serious reason for the change. I had got to the state where I suspected the man’s slightest action of having some occult significance, especially as he gave no explanation. Decidedly his manners were not calculated to reassure the unwary. It was easy to understand why his name had become the focus for a host of ridiculous inventions. After all, it is not pleasant to feel oneself in the presence of an intelligence capable of out-manceuvring one’s own at every point without even taking …

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1922 · PDF PAGE 151

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…come highly suspicious. They were itching to arrest me on the spot. The clerk argued with them garrulously for an interminable time. The manager seemed the most uncomfortable man in Capri. He protested silently roheaven—there being nobody on earth to listen to The situation was set going again by the reappearance of Lou on the arm of a chambermaid, followed by the doctor, who wore the air of a man who has once more met the King of Terrors in open combat, and knocked the stuffing out of him. Lou was exceedingly shaky, paling and flushing by turn…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 25

Diary of a Drug Fiend

… observation enough which I am going to make. I hope at least it will help to clear any one’s mind of any idea that I may be an abnormal man. As a matter of fact, every man is ultimately abnormal, because he is unique. But we can class man in a few series without bothering ourselves much about what _ each one of them is in himself. I hope, then, that it will be clearly understood that I am very much like a hundred thousand other young men of my age. I also make the remark, because the essential bearing of it is practically the whole story of th…

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Short Commons 159 “It’s the essence of your teaching, surely, Mr. Lamus, that every man should be absolute master of his own destiny.” “‘ Well, well,” admitted the Teacher with an exag- gerated sigh, “I expected to be beaten in argument. I always am. But I, too, am the master of mine. ‘If Power asks Why, then is Power weakness,’ as we readin the Book of the Law; and it’s not my destiny to give you any drugs this morning.” “ But you're interfering with my Will,” protested Cockie, almost vivaciously. “It would take too long to explain,” returned …

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1922 · PDF PAGE 124

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…n a courier. We nodded comprehensively. “I was rather at my wits’ end when I saw you,” he went on. “I’m on the trail of a very dangerous man who has got into the confidence of some English people living in Capri. That’s where you're going, isn’t it ? ” “ Yes,”’ we said, feeling ourselves of international importance. “‘ Well, it’s like this. If I turn up in Capri, which is a very small place, without a particularly good excuse, people will look at me and talk about me, and if they look too hard and talk too much, it’s ten to one I’m spotted,.not…

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1922 · PDF PAGE 177

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…t we had been called away suddenly on business. We put our dressing cases into a taxi and said, “ Euston, main line.” Cockie stopped the man at Cambridge Circus. “ Look here,’ he said in an eager whisper, ‘‘ we want some rooms in Soho. Some French or Italian place.” The man was equal to the problem. He found us a dirty dark little room on the ground floor in Greek Street. The landlady was some kind of Southerner with a dash of black blood. Her face told us that she was exactly the kind of woman we wanted. We paid the taxi. Cockie was very restl…

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Diary of a Drug Fiend

…about half a minute I resented him; then I let myself go and found myself soothed almost to slumber by the flow of his talk. A wonderful man, like an imbecile child nine-tenths of the time, and yet, at the back of it all, one somehow saw the deep night of his mind suffused with faint sparks of his genius. I had not the slightest idea where he was taking me ; I did not care. I had gone to sleep inside. I woke to find myself sitting in the Café Wisteria once more. The head waiter was excitedly explaining to my companion what a wonderful scene he …

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1922 · PDF PAGE 306

Diary of a Drug Fiend

…und had lost its way to the extent of wandering into the Trustee’s private account without his suspecting it had behaved in so erratic a manner. “You are a man of the world, Sir Peter,’”’ he declared, almost blubbering, “‘ and I feel sure you understand.” I am not altogether a man of the world, as a matter of fact ; but, whether helped by the cocaine or not, I really did think I understood fairly well what had happened. ““ But why not go to the City?” I repeated, “ they ought to fight like wolves over such a plump little doe as the Schneezug!”’…

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Diary of a Drug Fiend

…ations between things, and never the things in themselves. It became evident that the sorrow of the Universe was caused by the desire of manifestation, and that death could not do more than suppress one form of existence in favour of another. Of course, the smpasse is complete. There seems to be no solution of the problem. It is a vicious circle. At the same time, by acquiescence in actuality, the insane insistence on one’s individual anguish is abated. Sympathy with universal suffering brings one into a certain sombre serenity. It does not sho…

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