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…237 All the time he has been able to realise dimly that he was slipping down the dark slope to insanity. He has mixed it all up with the idea of me. He had begun to identify me with the phantom of murderous madness which he recognised as destroying him. A look of trouble comes into his face every now and then; and he begins to repeat plaintively in a puzzled voice with his eyes fixed on mine :-— “Know you now why her eyes So fearfully glaze, beholding Terrors and infamies Like filthy flowers unfolding? Laughter widowed of ease, Agony barred fro…
1922 · PDF PAGE 176
…d on aimlessly in silence. A taxi offered itself. We climbed into it listlessly and drove back here. We threw ourselves on our beds. The idea of lunch was disgusting. We were too weak and too annoyed to do anything. We could not trust ourselves to speak; we should have quarrelled. I fell into a state of sleepless agony. Our visit to the studio had burnt itself into my mind. I imagined the flesh of my soul sizzling beneath the white hot branding iron of Lamus’s Will. I reached out my hands for this diary.. It has relieved me to write it down in …
1922 · PDF PAGE 375
Love under Will 361 But I have certainly always been put off by the idea of ceremonial or ritual of any kind. There again, Basil’s ideas are fantastically different to other people’s. He says ; what about the forms and ceremonies used in an electric light plant ? I gave a little jump when he made the remark. It was so. destructive of all my ideas. “‘ Most ritual,” he agreed, “ is vain observance, but if there is such a thing as the so-called spiritual force in man, it requires to be generated, collected, controlled, and applied, by using the ap…
1922 · PDF PAGE 302
… that I was cast for the star part in some stupendous comedy. “The obligation is entirely on my side,” returned my guest. ‘‘ You have no idea how your kind approval has set my mind at ease.” I took another sniff. I was fainting away into an inexpressible ecstasy. I re-corked the bottle and put it in my pocket, thanking Platt profusely. “ T can’t imagine your mind being ill at ease,’’ I went on with a note of irony, which was. however, absolutely genial. I was friends with every one in the world. “ If there was ever a man with a conscience void …
1922 · PDF PAGE 264
…more serious measures. u has explained in her diary more or less what these are. But even with the help of the poet, one cannot give any idea of what it is like. For example, the question of cold. The reader thinks at once of the cold of winter. If he has travelled a little and has some imagination, he may think of the chill spells of fever. But neither of these give much idea of the nature of the cold produced by abstinence. Our poet, whoever he is (his name is not given in the magazine) certainly succeeds in conveying to his reader the truth,…
1922 · PDF PAGE 84
…l manifestation is in itself a sin, even when it is something which ordinary piety would class as a virtue. Haidée here has got the same idea.” She nodded serenely. . ‘“‘I had no idea,” she said, ‘‘ that those people had got so much sense. I’ve always thought of them as tangled up with religious ideas. I understand now. Yes, it’s the life of holiness, if you have to go to the trouble of putting it in the terms of morality, as I suppose you English people have to. I feel that con- tact of any sort, even with myself, contaminates me. I was the ch…
1922 · PDF PAGE 363
…t’s a case of a square peg in a round hole. Fact six: As soon as the Armistice throws you on your beam ends, you get busy again with the idea of the helicopter. Fact seven : You are swept off your feet by coming into a fortune and immediately go astray with drugs—clear evidence that you have missed your road. Fact eight: As soon as your mind is cleansed by the boredom of Telepylus of all its artificial ideas, it returns to its natural bent. The idea of the helicopter comes back with such a rush that you let your breakfast get cold, you don’t kn…
1922 · PDF PAGE 338
… a very long pause she went on slowly talking, so it seemed, to herself more than to us and with the intention to giving form to her own idea, that of instructing us. “I suppose that must be the idea,’ she said. She had a curious mouth, with square-cut lips like one sees in some old Egyptian statues, and a twist at the corners in which lurked incalculable possibilities of self-expression. Her eyes were deep-set and calm. It was a square face with a very peculiar jaw expressing terrific determination. I have never seen a face in which courage wa…
1922 · PDF PAGE 106
…o have questions asked in Parliament. There was Lou almost in tears because she had nothing to wear ; practically no jewellery—the whole idea of being a knight is that when you see a wrong it is your duty to right it. Fortunately, there was no difficulty at the present moment. All we had to do was to drive down to the Rue de la Paix. I certainly almost fell down when I saw all those pearls on her neck. And that cabochon emerald! By George, it did go with her hair! These shop men in Paris are certainly artists. The man saw in a moment what was w…
1922 · PDF PAGE 194
…being depressed, we felt a current of mysterious excitement, rippling at first, then raging and roaring in every nerve. It was as if the idea of her death exhilarated us. He took me in his arms for the first time in—is it weeks or months? His hot breath coiled like a snake about my ear, and thrilled my hair like an electric machine. With a strange ghastly intensity his voice, trembling with passion, strummed the intoxicating words :— “ Olya! the golden bait Barbed with infinite pain, Fatal, fanatical mate Of a poisoned body and brain! Olya, the…
1922 · PDF PAGE 347
…ost in amazement at the behaviour of the boys; their independence, their fearlessness, and their instinctive economy of force. We had no idea that it was possible for children of that age to achieve, even physically, what they had done, apparently without effort. And as for their moral attitude, it was entirely outside our experience. I said something of the sort ; and King Lamus retorted at once that it was the moral attitude which made possible the physical attain- ment. “You will find that out for yourself in the case of your own experiment.…
1922 · PDF PAGE 189
…w when I was manicured last. For some reason, they're dry and brittle. I must have them done. I’d send the boy out, but I don’t like the idea of a strange girl coming here. One never knows what may go wrong. It doesn’t really matter, either. The body is merely a nuisance, and it hurts. “So blood wrenches its pain Sardonic through heart and brain.” I am beginning to hate that horrible poem. It haunts me. I don’t know why I should remember it like I do. Have I been reading it, I wonder? Or perhaps it is the incredible access of intellectual power…
1922 · PDF PAGE 116
…meval peaks that towered above the train. They flowed across the limpid lakes, they revelled with the raging Rhone. Many people have the idea that the danger of drugs lies in the fact that one is tempted to fly to them for refuge whenever one is a little bored or depressed or annoyed. That is true, of course; but if it stopped there, only a small class of people would stand in real danger. For example, this brilliant morning, with the sun sparkling on the snow and the water, the whole earth ablush with his glory, the pure keen air rejoicing our…
1922 · PDF PAGE 245
… is ‘never’ In a hyperbolic ‘for ever !’” I don’t know what some of the words mean. But there is a fascination about them. They give the idea of something without limit. Death has become impossible, because death is definite. Nothing can really ever happen. I am in a perpetual state of pain. Everything is equally anguish. I suppose one state D.D.F. Q
1922 · PDF PAGE 51
…ng myself to myself. I knew what I was going to do. We were bound for Barley Grange; and then, oh, the wild moonlight ride to Paris! The idea had been determined in me without any intervention of my own. It had been, in a way, the solution of an equation of which the terms were: firstly, a sort of mad identification of Lou with all one’s romantic ideas of moonlight ; then my physical habit as a flying man ; and thirdly, the traditional connection of Paris with extravagant gaiety and luxuriant love. I was quite aware at the time that my moral se…
1922 · PDF PAGE 360
…s, of course,” I said hurriedly. “I’m not trying to get out of it; but really, I am at the moment most frightfully preoccupied with this idea about the helicopter.” “ Thank you, that will do,”’ said King Lamus briskly. “ The meeting will now adjourn.” I felt a little irritation at his offhand manner, but I followed him in to lunch. He stood at the end of the table, facing Sister Athena at the other. “There will be champagne,’ he said, “‘for lunch to-day.” The remark was received with a hilarity which seemed positively indecent, and altogether o…
1922 · PDF PAGE 235
“Cold Turkey Bar I have some idea that I had a terrible quarrel with Peter, but I can’t remember any details. I think he does, though, but he won't tell me. I don’t know why he should act like that. The only thing I can think is that Gretel Webster may have come down to see him perhaps in her astral body, and put him against me somehow. .. . He was lying on the sofa in his pyjamas. I wanted to be kissed, and went over to him with some cocaine. But he didn’t move. He looked at me with wide open eyes. There was some dreadful fear in them, and he …
1922 · PDF PAGE 149
…; but the meaning was clear enough. Some one must be playing a practical joke. Probably that paragraph in the paper was part of the same idea. So I supposed Laroche was in the hotel in Naples wondering why we didn’t turn up. “But where's our luggage ?’”’ cried Lou. “Why,” said the manager, “‘ your Ladyship’s courier paid the bill as usual. The servants helped him to pack your luggage, and he just managed to catch the morning boat.” “ But what time was this ? ” cried Lou, and scanned the telegram closely. It must have been received within a few …
1922 · PDF PAGE 196
…under the yellow gas jet, reading the books he had bought. Somehow, the past had been washed out of us. We found ourselves intent on the idea of stopping H.; and the books didn’t help very much. They were written in a very positive way. The writers quarrelled among themselves like a Peace Conference. 3 But they all agreed on two points: that it was beyond the bounds of human possibility to break off the habit by one’s own efforts. At the best, the hope was pitifully poor. The only chance was a “ cure” in a place of restraint. And they all gave …
1922 · PDF PAGE 109
…t destroys one’s power of calculation. We had already discovered the fact when we found that the supply we had got from Gretel, with the idea that it would last almost indefinitely, was running very short, when the dressing-gown came to solve the problem. We had only been a few days on the stunt, and what we had got from three or four sniffs, to begin with, meant almost perpetual stoking to carry on. However, that didn’t matter, because we had an ample supply. There must have been a couple of kilograms of either C. or H. in that kimono. And whe…