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1929 · PDF PAGE 586

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…l or ridiculous character were performed during the passing, is a part of the desire of some people to defile whatever they touch. "As a matter of fact, no ceremonies of any nature took place during his illness, or at the time of his death. (signed) Jane Wolfe

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1929 · PDF PAGE 564

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… on the ground that Scotland Yard would be down on him if he did. I said, "But this is ridiculous. What has Scotland Yard to do with the matter? If you really think they are concerned, ring them up at once. Ask them!" He went off saying he would telephone, and returned in a few minutes saying that they would make inquiries and let him know in a few days. Of course the police had no interest in the matter at all. But this goblin still refused delivery. I could only suppose him a lunatic. He did not merely insult me but Mr Jacobi, the best of pri…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 110

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

110 open revolt against the Chief, though afraid to declare its intentions. I went to London and discussed the matter with Jones, Baker and Mrs. Emery. Jones saw clearly enough that if Mathers were not the head of the Order and the trusted representative of the Secret Chiefs, there was no Order at all. Baker's position was that {193} 1. WEH Note: This portion is a development of the Hebrew text of the first verse of Genesis. Mathers was behaving badly; he was sick of the whole business. Mrs. Emery, the nominal representative of the Chief, was t…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 446

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…B:Vau HB:Shin HB:Heh HB:Yod , Yeheshuah or Jesus; but how do I know that this word and not another has power to make man triumphant over matter, to harmonize and sanctify the blind forces of the universe? Thus: I know that HB:Heh HB:Vau HB:Heh HB:Yod represents the four elements; that 4 is a number symbolizing limitation. It is the square of 2, the only number which cannot be formed harmoniously into a "Magic Square". (Two represents the Dyad, the original Error.) I know also that the letter Shin represents a triune essence, the fire of the Spi…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 440

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…roit, a member of the 32° was threatened by certain 33°s with expulsion unless he complied with their views as to his domestic life. The matter was one with which they had no right to meddle on any conceivable theory of human relations. 10. In some parts of America, financial and social pressure is put upon {697} people to compel them to take the 32°! It is common to boycott men in trade or business for refusing to give unfair advantages to their fellow masons. 11. A 33° mason, of many years' standing, holding high office in the Supreme Grand C…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 28

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… my own." And that very same night his reason tottered on its throne, etc. 6 I must mention the intervention of my Uncle Jonathan in the matter of the Badger's meeting, and that of my Uncle Tom in the final eruption. Jonathan Crowley, my father's elder brother, was the beau ideal of the noble patrician. He looked like a Roman emperor as we romantically imagine him to have been, not as we see him in most sculpture. The tremendous brow, the eagle eyes, the great hooked arrogant nose, the firm mouth and the indomitable jaw combined to make him one…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 482

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… the love I have always had for him, or the honour in which I have always held him. protested that he did not know it himself. It didn't matter much then; it doesn't matter at all now. But I want to recall to Eckenstein that I stood pat! I did not ask him to vindicate himself. I do not empanel a jury of jackals to try a lion. I do not believe that Eckenstein was in full possession of his senses when he signed that silly letter. POSTSCRIPTUM: New Year, 1922; two years less two months since I wrote this paper. I "got it off my chest"; next day I …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 129

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… well. She saw and heard me; and on comparing notes, we found that our reports of the conversation agreed. But I was not able to act on "matter". I used to try to knock things off the mantelpiece, but in vain. On the other hand, when I reached Hong Kong, I recognized the place perfectly and picked out her house on the hillside, thought I had never seen so much as a photograph. These numerous practices were assigned to a regular schedule. Five different periods of the day were to be devoted to one or the other. On May 3rd I left for Honolulu on …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 31

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ent of my logical faculties supplied the demonstration that I was compelled to set myself in opposition to the Bible itself. It does not matter that the literature is sometimes magnificent and that in isolated passages the philosophy and ethics are admirable. The sum of the matter is that Judaism is a savage, and Christianity a fiendish, superstition. It is very strange that I should have had no inkling of my tendency to Mysticism and Magick by means of any definite experience. It is true that, from the beginning, I held the transcendental view…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 72

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…I worked out a route up the Aiguille du G‚ant from the Montanvers. This mountain had never been climbed fairly. The ordinary way up is a matter of engineering by means of pitons and wire ropes. I did not keep my knowledge to myself in order to have the glory of making the first ascent. I indicated the way up to other climbers and was absolutely overjoyed when two Austrian amateurs made the climb. In the same way, I am perfectly satisfied at having broken down the dishonest and imbecile traditions of Badminton and only regret that I was not in c…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 207

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…is crčme de menthe and oeufs sur le plat, clear his throat and tell Maugham with grave importance that he would like to consult him on a matter concerning the welfare of art and artists. "What would you do if ---" and after repeating himself in a hundred ways so as to prolong the rigmarole to the utmost, he would wind up by confessing to the premonitory symptoms of some comic an repulsive malady. It was really needlessly cruel, for, bar his pretensions to literature, there is not an ounce of harm in Maugham, any more than there is in a packet o…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 76

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ng with "confirmation of the old despair", somehow defeats that despair by the essential force of his genius. Keats, on the contrary, no matter how hard he endeavours to end on a note of optimism, always leaves an impression of failure. I well know how strangely perverse this criticism must sound, but I feel its truth in the marrow of my bones. In my own writings the tempestuous energy of my soul invariably sweeps away the wreckage of my mind. No matter to what depth I plunge, I always end with my wings beating steadily upwards towards the sun.…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 216

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…those philosophers who were driven to the theory of causality and said that there was no cause why an apple should fall; it was simply a matter of coincidence that God should happen to will that it should touch the ground after willing it should be detached from the bough. The facts of Magick appear quite natural if one accepts the explanation officially put forward without inquiring too closely. This theory, roughly speaking, is that of Milton or Dante. There is even some excuse for saying it is the Catholic tradition ŕ rebours; that tradition…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 90

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… got him to promise to meet me in London. He added, "I will introduce you to a man who is much more of a Magician than I am." To sum the matter in brief, he kept his word. The Secret Assembly materialized as the "Hermetic Order of the G.·. D.·.," and the Magician as one George Cecil Jones. During the whole summer, the weather got steadily worse and my health took the same course. I found myself obliged to leave the camp and go to London to see doctors. I took rooms in an hotel in London, attended to the necessary medical treatment and spent my …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 400

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…my duty. He had probably been persuaded by his brother, who was a junior partner in the firm of solicitors who had represented me in the matter of Mathers. I did not care one way or the other what I did, but I took counsel with two men whose knowledge {638} of the world of men was indisputably great; one, a probationer, the Hon. Everard Fielding, the other, Raymond Radclyffe, who, though utterly indifferent to Magick, was passionately fond of poetry and thought mine first-class, and unrivalled in my generation. He edited a high-class financial …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 539

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…t fiercely around the question of sex. Hardly any one is willing to allow others their freedom on this point. Sometimes it is a personal matter; false vanity makes men try to enslave those whom they desire. They cannot understand "There is no bond that can unite the divided but love: ... ", and they outrage others in every way in order to obtain the outward show of affection. It is the most hideous error conceivable, yet nearly all men make it, and nine tenths of the misery caused by wrong sexual relations is due to this determination to enslav…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 360

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…hich at present buttress her artificial system of centralization and standardization. At the moment, Spain was deeply exercised with the matter of base coinage. It appears that a certain cabinet minister had a brother in Mexico who eked out a precarious livelihood by exporting brass bedsteads. The calibre of the uprights was such that silver pesos could be neatly packed therein, and the influence of the minister prevented the custom house being surprised at the weight. These silver pesos were of the same quality as those from the government min…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 154

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

… next morning. It soon began to get hot, and a double `577 is not the kind of toy one wants {266} to carry on a fifteen-mile tramp. As a matter of fact, I probably did nearer twenty miles than fifteen, as I was going eight hours with very little rest. We went up and down hills repeatedly, but thee wild buffalo was shy, and, as a matter of fact, I did not the whole day see anything whatever shootable, except some small birds which I took home for dinner. In the afternoon we went off bathing together in a delightful pool directly under the hill o…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 434

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…at the poem was about. Considering that this particular editor is quite justly reputed to be far and away the best man in England in the matter of appreciating first-class work, it is perfectly incomprehensible to me that he should be such an arrant blockhead. Most of my time in 1912 was taken up by the O.T.O. The Order was a great success and ceremonies of initiation were of almost daily occurrence. I was also very busy helping Laylah in her career. The problem was not easy. I soon discovered that it was not in her to undergo the dreary remors…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 386

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…bt the proof appears stronger to me than to anyone else, because I alone know exactly what happened; also because many passages refer to matters personal to myself, so that only I can fully appreciate the dovetailings. Just so a man can never prove to another the greatness of Shelley as fully as he feels it himself, since his certainty partly depends on the secret and incommunicable relations of the poet with his own individual idiosyncrasies. I admit that my visions can never mean to other men as much as they do to me. I do not regret this. Al…

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