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1929 · PDF PAGE 430

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ork early in 1915 with the idea of trying him out by offering him a share of the proceeds of persuading one of my friends to invest in a certain financial scheme. (Needless to say, my friend was a party to the plan.) Reece agreed without hesitation. I simply told him to answer the questions in such a way as to persuade the inquirer of certain facts. As luck would have it the test was even more conclusive than I had arranged for. In one of the questions a certain man's name occurred. According to my arrangement with Reece, he should have answere…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 58

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…deal of French literature and all the best Greek and Latin authors. But my peculiar temperament made me balk at one or two fences. I had certain innate ideas about literature; I say innate because I cannot imagine on what grounds I formed them. Thus I could not tolerate the idea of a novel exceeding a certain length, with the result that I have never read a page of Samuel Richardson. It is easier to understand the objection which I had to what I thought gossip. I have never read Boswell and have never been able to bring myself to face the avera…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 439

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…d's name they should cherish such pretentious pedantries? A few anecdotes will illustrate the situation for the average non- mason. 1. A certain rite in England derives its authority from a document which is as notoriously a forgery as Pigott ever penned. The heads of this gang wished to break, in the most shameless and rascally manner, an agreement made some years previously with John Yarker. Yarker pointed out that their only real authority was derived from their agreement with him, since he, working under a genuine charter, had "heled" their…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 236

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…I can make it. By April 8th, I had been convinced of the reality of the communication and obeyed my wife's arbitrary instructions with a certain confidence. I retained my sceptical attitude none the less. THE CLAIM OF THE BOOK OF THE LAW IN RESPECT OF RELIGION. The importance of religion to humanity is paramount. The reason is that all men perceive more of less the "First Noble Truth" --- that everything is sorrow; and religion claims to console them by an authoritative denial of this truth or by promising compensations in other states of exist…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 145

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…his relic every year at a ceremony called the Perahera. I was not impressed by the sanctity of the proceedings; but as a spectacle it is certainly gorgeous. The very wildness and lack of appropriateness add to its charm. The processions to which we are accustomed in Europe and America are all so cleverly though out that the effect is merely to irritate. The Perahera is a gigantic jollification; they bring out all their elephants, dancers, monks, officials, drums, horns, torches --- anything that makes a blaze of a noise, and let them all loose …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 213

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…I had arrived at what I may describe as the position of an orthodox Buddhist; but with the following reservations. 1. I cannot deny that certain phenomena do accompany the use of {357} certain rituals; I only deny the usefulness of such methods to the White Adept. 2. I consider Hindu methods of meditation as possibly useful to the beginner and should not therefore recommend them to be discarded at once. With regard to my advancement, the redemption of the cosmos, etc. etc. I leave for ever the "Blossom and Fruit" theory and appear in the charac…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 283

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…y sure; the pieces might have been set up by a madman; but granted that the position is intelligible, the laws of probability make it as certain as anything can be that it arose in a certain way. Now in considering one's life one has more material for investigation than a single position; one has a series of successive positions. Intelligent inquiry ought to be able to deduce not only the unknown past, but the unknown future. We have no hesitation in reconstructing the boyhood of Swinburne --- presuming the absence of {463} direct information -…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 224

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…ct of getting back to camp life reawakened in me the old ambitions and interests. It may be part of my feeling for ritual that to put on certain types of clothes is to transform my state of mind. However lazy I may be, I have merely to change trousers for knickerbockers to feel athletic at once. There is also the point that I make a profession of virtue when reminded of certain dates, just as a totally irreligious man might go to church at Christmas. The subsequent entries give no hint that my mind was really turning to its ancient masters. The…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 12

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ed in his waking imagination, though it never manifests itself in his dreams. It is probable that these peculiarities are connected with certain curious anatomical facts. While his masculinity is above the normal, both physiologically and as witnessed by his powerful growth of beard, he has certain well-marked feminine characteristics. Not only are his limbs as slight and graceful as a girl's but his breasts are developed to quite abnormal degree. There is thus a sort of hermaphroditism in his physical structure; and this is naturally expressed…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 374

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ent sequence of breaks averaging twenty- five over a series of months cannot possibly happen by chance; this proves impugnably both that certain management of the cue combined with judgment must result in certain movements of the balls, and that skill and not luck determines the success of the player. Again, at roulette a run of one hundred on red might happen once in a thousand years by pure chance; but if it occurred a dozen times a night for a week it would prove that the table is furnished with a mechanical device by which the croupier coul…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 427

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…ation. This impression must not be dismissed as sheer fancy. Few men but are sufficiently sensitive to distinguish the spiritual aura of certain buildings. It is impossible not to feel reverence in certain cathedrals and temples. The most ordinary {679} dwelling-houses often possess an atmosphere of their own; some depress, some cheer; some disgust, others strike chill to the heart. Virakam of course was entirely certain that this was the villa for us. Against this was the positive statement of the people in charge that it was not to be let. We…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 271

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ing! Droop the long lashes; close the eyes with eyelids like beetle's wing! Light the slow smile, ephemeral as ever a painted butterfly, Certain to close into a kiss, certain to fasten on me and sting! Nay? Are you coy? hen I will catch your hips and hold you wild and shy Until your very struggles set your velvet buttocks all a-sqing, Until their music lulls you to unfathomable ecstasy, O kissible Tarshitering! I must explain that oriental modesty does not allow the selfrespecting poet to introduce the name of a woman, just as in Shakespeare's …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 438

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…have recounted elsewhere and now quote: I happened to know that the chaplain of the British Embassy in Z--- was Past Grand Organist of a certain English province. He proposed me, found a seconder, and I was duly initiated, passed and raised. I was warmly welcomed by numerous English and American visitors to our Lodge; for Z--- is a very great city. I returned to England sometime later, after "passing the chair" in my Lodge, and wishing to join the Royal Arch, called on its venerable Secretary. I presented my credentials. "O Thou Great Architect…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 315

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…by love for them, no longer interested in protecting them as I had been; but there was a man, Aleister Crowley, husband and father, of a certain caste, of certain experience, of travel in remote parts of the world; and it was his business to give them his undivided love, care and protection. He could do this very much more efficiently than before when I was aware of what he was doing, and consequently inclined to overplay the part. But with regard to my magical future --- why did I "intend to stick to Augoeides"? The reason becomes clear if we …

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1929 · PDF PAGE 440

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440 9. In Detroit, a member of the 32° was threatened by certain 33°s with expulsion unless he complied with their views as to his domestic life. The matter was one with which they had no right to meddle on any conceivable theory of human relations. 10. In some parts of America, financial and social pressure is put upon {697} people to compel them to take the 32°! It is common to boycott men in trade or business for refusing to give unfair advantages to their fellow masons. 11. A 33° mason, of many years' standing, holding high office in the Su…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 15

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…ize, White's Selborne, for coming out top in "Religious Knowledge, Classics and French". But to this day he has never read the book! For certain lines of study he had {9} a profound, instinctive and ineradicable aversion. Natural history, in any form, is one of these. It is hard to suggest a reason. Did he dislike to analyse beauty? Did he feel that certain subjects were unimportant, led to nothing that he wanted to explore? However this may be, he used to make up his mind with absolute finality as to whether he would or would not take some par…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 231

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…etail by Captain J. F. C. Fuller in The Star in the West that it would be impertinent of me to discuss it further.) Rose now felt fairly certain that she was pregnant. But it was not this alone that decided us to turn our faces to the West. We still intended to go to Rangoon and apparently there was absolutely nothing to stop us. But we couldn't go, any more than if it had been the moon. Throughout my life I have repeatedly found that destiny is an absolutely definite and inexorable ruler. Physical ability and moral determination count for noth…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 422

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…quate words and phrases quite arbitrarily. If it suits them to count the article they count it. That this Cabbala exists is nevertheless certain. The correspondences in the Apocalypse in connection with the series 111 to 999 is undeniably intentional. Nor can it be an accident that Mithras (360) was altered to Meithras (365) to suit the correction of the calendar. The matter is of extreme importance; because Aiwass in dictating The Book of the Law repeatedly makes use of correspondences in Greek, such as Thelema, Will, 93 --- Agape, Love, 93. 7…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 273

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…med with bows and arrows, or occasionally spears, some of which show great skill of metallurgy and workmanship as well as a knowledge of certain branches of mechanics, and a marked sense of beauty. The women are free from the ordinary Hindu inhibitions, and their breasts are the most beautiful that I have ever seen, not excepting those of the women ofTehuantepec. They are small and well proportioned. Even when the women are mothers, they do not lose their form. The whole breast stands firm and points upwards. To the eye of the artist, the femal…

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1929 · PDF PAGE 334

Confessions of Aleister Crowley

…s time in grave difficulties, ŕ la d'Artagnan, but he gave his time and his toil with magnificent generosity. His draughtmanship, within certain limits, was miraculously fine. Certain subjects were altogether beyond him; he could not portray the human figure. His "Adonai-Ha-Aretz" is lamentable, but his symbolic drawing shows the highest qualities of imagination and execution, and his geometrical work is almost inconceivably perfect. His four Watch Towers (The Equinox, vol. I, no. VII) and similar illustrations are superb, and his ornamental al…

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