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Page 1 of 31909 · PDF PAGE 126
… egoistic devils, vain, 124, strutting peacocks, preening and screaming! This is simply damnable. Egoism is the spur of all energy, in a way; and in this particular case it is the one thing that is not Adonai (whatever else may be) and so the antithesis of the Work. Bricks without straw, indeed] That’s nothing to it. This job is like being asked to judge a Band contest and being told that one may do anything but listen. Only worse! One could form some idea of how they were playing through other senses; in this case every faculty is the enemy of…
1909 · PDF PAGE 58
…ng forth 56 from that one Fountain issued: whose Foundation is One, One and Alone.” As therefore Discipline of whatever kind is only one way of going into a wood at midnight on Easter Eve and cutting the magic wand with a single blow of the magic knife, etc. etc. etc., we can regard the Western system as the essential one. Yet of course Pranayama, for one thing, has its own definite magical effect, apart from teaching the practitioner that he must last out those three seconds—those deadly long last three seconds—even if he burst in the process. …
1909 · PDF PAGE 8
…of giving the reins into the hands of others that I have written this record, not without pain. Others, reading it, will see the sort of way one sets to work ; they will imitate and improve upon it; they will attain to the Magistry; they will prepare the Red Tincture and the Elixir of Life—for they will discover what Life means.
1909 · PDF PAGE 98
8.40. 10.18. 10.30. 10.40. 10. 57. THE EQUINOX joy, with a delicious awe? I must wash His feet with my tears; I must die at His gateway; I must. . . I know not what. . . Adonai, be Thou tender unto me Thy slave, and keep my footsteps in the Way of Truth! . . . Iwill return and humble myself before the Lord Adonai. Home again ; have done odd necessary things, and am ready to work. I feel slack; and I feel that I have been slack, though probably the Record shows a fair amount of work done. But I am terribly bruised by the Great Fall; these big th…
1909 · PDF PAGE 68
…d. I’m just as bad or worse than I was on the day which I have called the day of Apophis (third day). The only thing to my credit is the way I’ve kept the mantra going. One thing at least is good; if anything does come of this great magical retirement—which I am beginning to doubt—it will not be mixed up with any other enthusiasm, poetic, venereal, or bacchanalian. It will be purely mystici But as it has not happened yet—- and just at present it seems incredible that it should happen—I think we may change the subject. . . . . What a fool I am, …
1909 · PDF PAGE 17
…hings of the Spirit one rarely obtains good results. The first operation was rather meaningless; but one must allow (a) that it was a new way of dealing those cards for the opening of an operation; (b) that I had had two false starts. The final operation is'certainly most favourable; we shall see if it comes true. I can hardly believe it possible. Will now go for a stroll, get some milk, and settle down for the evening. I regret to have to announce that on going across to the Dome with this laudable intention, Nina brought up that red-headed bund…
1909 · PDF PAGE 57
…then me in my search for the Quint— essence, the Stone of the Wise, the Summum Bonum, True Wisdom and Perfect Happiness ! I hope (by the way) that I have made it quite clear that all this time even a momentary cessation of active thought has been accompanied by the rising-up of the mantra. The rhythm, in short, perpetually dominates the brain ; and becomes active on every opportunity. The liquid Moslem mantra is much easier to get on to than is the usual Hindu type with its 1% and n sounds predominating: but it does not shake the brain up so fo…
1909 · PDF PAGE 88
…aith, farther from Adonai than ever before—and yet—and yet—- Do I not know that every error is a necessary step in the Path? The longest way round is the shortest way home. But it is disgusting! There‘s a grim humour in it, too. The real Devil of the Operation must be sitting with sardonic grin upon his face, enjoying my perplexity For that Dweller-of-the—Threshold-thought was not as dead as I supposed ; as Iwrite he comes again and again, urging me to quit the Path, to abandon the unequal contest. Luckily, friend Dweller, you prove too much 1 …
1909 · PDF PAGE 5
…llar of Flame would have been rather taking; herds of impossible yaks, ghost-dogs, gryphons. . . . But, my good friends, this is not the way things happen. Paris is as wonderful as Lhassa, and there are just as many miracles in London as in Luang Prabang. [did not even think it necessary to go into the Bois de Boulogne and meet those Three Adepts who cause bleeding at the nose, familiar to us from the writings of Macgregor Mathers. 3
1909 · PDF PAGE 43
…if I thought it would give Samadhil Now more mantra, though by the Lord I’m getting sick of it. It occurs to me, now that I am seeing my way in the Operation a little more clearly, that one might consider the First Day as Osiris Slain 44, the Second as that of the Mourning of Isis U, the third as that of the Triumph of Apophis V, and to-day that of Osiris Risen X ; these four days being perfect in themselves as a 5°=6° operation (or possibly with one or two more 41
1909 · PDF PAGE 91
…r other, Pranayarna is quite easy. Concentrating on Adonai, Iwas in Kam- bhakham for a whole minute without distress. It is true, by the way. I was—and am—in some danger of looking on this Record as a Book; i.e., of emphasising things for their literary effect, and diminishing the importance of others which lend them- selves less obviously. But the answer to this, friend Satan] is that the Canon of Art is Truth, and the Canon of Magic is Truth; my true record will make a good book, and my true book will make a good record. 89
1909 · PDF PAGE 128
…her and prunella. Don’t worry; work! I shall now make a pantacle to aid the said faculty of concentration. The Voice 01 the Nadi (by the way) is resoundingwell, and the Chittam is a little better under control. Have worked well on the Pantacle, thinking of Adonai. Of course we are now reduced to a “low anthropo- morphic conception ”—but what odds ? Once the Right Thought comes it will transcend any and all conceptions. The objection is as silly as the objection to illustrating Geometry by Diagrams, on the ground that printed lines are thick—and…
1909 · PDF PAGE 137
…heir play? Awoke from long sweet dreamless sleep, like a young eagle that soars to greet the dawn. After breakfast, have strolled, on my way to the studio, through the garden of the Luxembourgto my favourite fountain. It is useless to attempt to write of the dew and the flowers in the clear October sunlight. Yet the light which I behold is still more than sunlight. My eyes too are quite weak from the Vision ; I cannot bear the brilliance of things. The clock of the Senate strikes ; and my ears are ravished with its mysterious melody. It is the I…
1909 · PDF PAGE 81
…culptor who will one day be heard of. Very young yet, but I think the best man of his generation—of those whose work I have seen. By the way, I am suffering from a swollen finger, since yesterday morning or possibly earlier‘ I have given it little attention, but it is painful. I want to explain why I have so carefully recorded the somewhat banal details of all I have eaten and drunk. I. All food is a species of intoxicant; hence a fruitful source of error. Should I obtain any good result, Limight say “ You were starved " or “You were drunk." It …
1909 · PDF PAGE 138
…or trembling began agam,: and again the subtle brilliance flowed through me. The consciousness again died and was reborn as the divine, always without shock or stress. How easy is magic, once the way is found! How still is the soul! The turbid spate of emotion has ceased; the heavy particles of thought have sunk
1909 · PDF PAGE 42
… Apophis. I shall eat as much and as little as I fancy; these violent means are no longer necessary. Like Count Fosco, I shall “go on my way sustained by my sublime confidence, self-balanced by my impenetrable calm." I have spent half an hour wandering in the Musée du Luxembourg. I now sit down to meditate on this new ritual. The following, so it appears, should be the outlines— damn it, I’ve a good mind to write it straight off—no! I’ll be patient and tease the Spirit a little. I will be coquettish as a Spanish catamite. I. Death summons Life a…
1909 · PDF PAGE 59
…annot write an effective Ritual till one is already in a fairly exalted state . . . and so On. We must just do the best we can, now as always. I have been concentrating solely on the Revision and copying of the Ritual. Therefore I now live just as I always live in order to get a definite piece of work done: concentrating as it were 017 the Work. As Levi also adjures us by the Holy Names. Coming back from lunch (a dozen Marennes Vertes and an Andouillette aux Pommes) I met Zelina Visconti, more lovely-ugly than ever in her wild way. She says that…
1909 · PDF PAGE 108
…52. 6,57. 7.25. 7-35- 106 ΤΗΕ EQUINOX Yet one can get the right stuff out of the Tarot (or other inconvenient method) by spiritualising away all the meaning, until the intuition pierces that blank wall of ignorance. Let O.M. meditate upon this Oracle on his way to feed John St. John‘s body—and thus feed his ownl Out, out, to feed! Trimming his beard in preparation for going out, he reflects that the deplorable tone (as one’s Dean would say) of the last entry is not the cry of the famished beast, but that of the over-driven slave "Adonai, ply Tho…
1909 · PDF PAGE 124
…nd shall take things in hand seriously, ifit kills me. Since 9.17 have done Pranayama, though allowing myself some irregularities in the way of occasional omission 01 a Kambhakham. ’Tis very hard to stick to it. I find myself, at the end of above sentence, automatically crawling into bed. No, John! Have been trying to extract some sense from that extraordinary treatise on mysticism, “ Konx Om Pax." Another failure, but an excusable one. I will now beseech Adonai as best I may to give me back my lost powers. For I am no more even a magician! So l…
1909 · PDF PAGE 25
… me right mentally and physically: otherwise they had little apparent success. Have breakfasted—a pear and two Garibaldis. (These by the way are the small size, half the big squares) Have smoked a pipe to show that I'm not in a hurry. Hanged Man with mantra in Visuddhi. Thought I had been much longer. At one point the Spirit began to move—how the devil else can Ι express it? The consciousness seemed to flow, instead of pattering. Is that clear? One should here note that there may perhaps be some essential difference in the Operation of the Mosle…