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THE EQUINOX The Universe of Magic is in the mind of a man: the setting is but Illusion even to the thinker. Humanity is progressing; formerly men dwelt habitually in the exterior world; nothing less than giants and Paynim and men—at—arms and distressed ladies, vampires and succubi, could amuse them. Their magicians brought demons from the smoke of blood, and made gold from baser metals. In this they succeeded; the intelligent perceived that the gold and the lead were but shadows of thought. It became probable that the elements were but isomers …
1909 · PDF PAGE 69
…he consciousness intact, as has been the case with me all day. It is true that some people find that if they hurt the body, they make the mind unstable. True ; they predispose it to hallu- cination. One should use strictly corporeal methods to tame the body; strictly mental methods to control the mind. This latter restriction is not so vitally important. Any weapon is legitimate against a public enemy like the mind. No truce nor quarter] 67
1909 · PDF PAGE 7
…and un- comprehended—and even unguessed, we doubt not. Therefore we set out diligently to explore and map these untrodden regions of the mind. Surely our adventures may be as exciting as those of Cortes or Cook! It is for this reason that I invite with confidence the attention of humanity to this record of my journey. But another set of people will find another disappoint~ ment. I am hardly an heroic figure. I am not The Good Young Man That Died. Ido not remain in holy meditation, balanced on my left eyelash, for forty years, restoring ex- hausted…
1909 · PDF PAGE 89
…main in that simplicity. I got this “revelation” through the Egyptian plane, a partial illumination of the reason. It has cleared up the mind; but alas! the mind is still there. This is the strength and weakness both of the Egyptian plane, 87
1909 · PDF PAGE 119
…nd loathes the thought of drinking! He must do something—something pretty drastic, or he will find himself in serious trouble of body and mind, the shadows of his soul, that is sick unto death. For “ where are now their gods?” Where is the Lord, the Lord Adonai? The beast feels decidedly better; but whether he is more concentrated one may doubt. Honestly, he is now so blind that he cannot tell! Perhaps a “cafe, cognac, et Cigare” may tune him up to the point of either going back to work, or across Paris to the Hammam. He will make the experiment…
1909 · PDF PAGE 53
…ionofWill toward Adonai,ashas been mycustom. I hope to-day will be more hard definite magical Work, less discourse, less beatific state of mind—which is the very devil! the real Calypso, none the less temptress because her name happens to be Penelope. Ah Lord Adonai, my Lord! Grant unto me the Perfume and the Vision; let me attain the desirable harbour; for my little ship is tossed by divers tempests, even by Euroclydon, in the Place where Four Winds meet. Therefore I shall go to rest, letting my mind rest ever in the Will toward Adonai. Let my s…
1909 · PDF PAGE 131
…a. Mantra-march. Pranayama; quick time. Very brac- ing and fatiguing, both. At Döme to drink a Citron pressé. Reflections have been in my mind upon the grossness of the Theistic conception, as shewn even in such pictures as Raphael’s and Fra Angelico’s. 2 B 129
1909 · PDF PAGE 28
…ibed by Paul (not my masseur; the other Paul I) in his Epistle to the Romans, cap. vii. v. 19. I shall arise and go forth. I have a good mind to try violent excitement of the Muladhara Cakkram ; for the whole Sushumna seems dead. This at the risk of being labelled a Black Magician—by clergymen, Christian Scientists, and the “ self—reliant” classes in general. Arrived (partly by cab) at the Place. Certain curious phenomena which I have noticed at odd times—e.g., on Thursday night—but did not think proper to record must be investigated. It seems …
1909 · PDF PAGE 20
…e 10 RY. cycles. Α bit better, and a slight hint of the Bhuchari Siddhi foreshadowed. Have been saying mantra; the question arises in my mind:
1909 · PDF PAGE 42
…du Luxembourg. I now sit down to meditate on this new ritual. The following, so it appears, should be the outlines— damn it, I’ve a good mind to write it straight off—no! I’ll be patient and tease the Spirit a little. I will be coquettish as a Spanish catamite. I. Death summons Life and clears away all other forces. 2. The Invocation of the Word. Death consecrates Life, who in her whirling dance invokes that Word. 3. They salute the Word. The Signs and M M must be a Chorus, if anything. 4. The Miraculous appearance of Iacchus, un- invoked.
1909 · PDF PAGE 104
…His Samadhi—to which He ever strives—— ? ? ? ? ? At least this latter view is suggested by the Rosicrucian formula of Reception: May thy mind be open unto the Higher! May thy heart be the Centre of Light ! May thy body be the Temple of the Rosy Cross ! and by the Hindu statement that in the attainedYogin
1909 · PDF PAGE 114
…old and damp; rain has fallen. John St. John is horribly tired; the “ control ” is worn to a thread. He takes‘five minutes to make up his mind to go through with it, five more to wash and write this up. And he has a million excuses for not doing Pranayama. 15 Breath-cycles, steady and easy enough. The brain is cool and lucid; but no energy is in it. At least no Sammavayamo, And at present the Superscription on John St. John’s Cross is FAILURE. Marvellous and manifold as are his results, he hath re- nounced them and esteemeth them as dross. . . . …
1909 · PDF PAGE 118
…y one finds of expressing it. Worse and worse ; though pose even better held. In despair returned to a simple practice, the holdingof the mind to a single imagined object; in this case the Triangle surmounted by the Cross. It seems quite easy to do nowadays; why shouldn’t it lead to The Result? It used to be supposed to do so. Might be worth trying anyway; things can hardly be worse than they are. Or, one might go over to the Hammam, and have a long bath and sleep—but who can tell whether it would refresh, or merely destroy the whole edifice buil…
1909 · PDF PAGE 75
…is is of course (nearly enough) another way of expressing the Hindu Meditation whose method is to kill all thoughts as they arise in the mind. The difference is that I am aiming at a target, while they are preventing arrows from striking one. In my aspiration to know Adonai, I resemble their Yogis who concentrate on their “ personal Lord "; but at the same time it must be remembered that I am not going to be content with what would content them. In other words, I am going to de ne " the Knowledge and Conversation of my holy Guardian Angel " as …
1909 · PDF PAGE 31
…gue-effect from having worked so hard. Oh Lord, how long? The Mantra still ripples on. I am so far from the Path that I have a real good mind to get Maryt to let me perform the Black Mass on her 31 midnight. I would 29
1909 · PDF PAGE 113
…, do a little Pranayama, and then sleep, ever willing Adonai. For Pranayama with its intense physical strain is a great medicine for the mind. Even as the long trail of the desert and the life with the winds and the stars, !11
1909 · PDF PAGE 107
JOHN ST. JOHN 6.31. failure than he was ready to admit. But the fact stands ; he cannot concentrate his mind for three seconds together. How utterly hopeless it makes one feel! One thinks one is at least always good for a fair average performance—and one is undeceived. This, by the way, is the supreme use of a record like this. It makes it impossible to cheat oneself. Well, he has got to get up more steam somehow, though the boiler bursts. Perhaps early dinner, with Ritual, may induce that Enthusiastic Energy of which the Gnostics write. This m…
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…" Hua allalu alazi lailaha illa hua” for mantra [any sacred sentence, whose con- stant repetition produces many strange effects upon the mind.——ED.] if I want one, or : may Adonai reveal unto me a special mantra to invoke Him! 3.51. Broke down again, mantra and all. 352- Went on meditating in “ Hanged Man posture " [Legs 4.14. crossed, arms below head, like the figure of the Hanged Man in the Tarot Gards.—BD.] to formulate sacrifice and pain self—inflicted; for I feel such a worm, able only to remain a few minutes at a time in a position long sinc…
1909 · PDF PAGE 98
…h probably the Record shows a fair amount of work done. But I am terribly bruised by the Great Fall; these big things leave the body and mind no worse, apparently ; but they hurt the Self, and later that is reflected into the lower parts of the man as insanity or death. I must attain, or . . . an end of John St. John. An end of him, one way or the other, then l Good-bye, John ! Ten minutes wasted in sheer mooning! I’m getting worse every minute. Fooled away ten minutes more! Humiliation enough! For though I made the cross with Blood and Flame, I…
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… so; the food cured it at once.) I now lie down as Hanged Man and say mantra in Visuddhi. I must really note the curious confusion in my mind between the Visuddhi Cakkram and that part of the Boulevard Edgar Quinet which opens on to the cemetery. It seems an identity. In trying to look at the Cakkram, I saw that. Query: What is the connection, which appeared absolute and essential? I had been specially im- pressed by that gate two days ago, with its knot of mourners. Could the scene have been recorded in a brain-cell adjoining that which record…