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THE EQUINOX It is with the object of giving the reins into the hands of others that I have written this record, not without pain. Others, reading it, will see the sort of way one sets to work ; they will imitate and improve upon it; they will attain to the Magistry; they will prepare the Red Tincture and the Elixir of Life—for they will discover what Life means.
445- 5.15. 6.35. 7.20. 7-50' 8.50. 9.50. 58 THE EQUINOX And only two pages done! But the decorations “ marvelious ” ! Another half—hour gone! in mere titivating the Opus ! and now I’m too tired to as much as start Prana Yama. Iwill go to the Dome and see what a citron pressé and a sandwich does for me, at the same time taking over the MS. of Liber DCCCCLXHL which has been given me to correct, and doing it. Please the pigs, the Visconti will cheer me up in the evening; and I shall get a good day in to—morrow. Still at Liber DCCCCLXIII. [Το be pu…
5.50. 6.15. 30 THE EQUINOX just love to bring up Typhon, and curse Osiris and burn his bones and his blood! At least, I now solemnly express a pious wish that the Crocodile of the West may eat up the Sun once and for all, that Set may defile the Holy Place, that the supreme Blasphemy may be spoken by Python in the ears of Isis. I want trouble. I want to say Indra’s mantram till his throne gets red-hot and burns his lotus-buttocks ; I want to pinch little Harpocrates till he fairly yells . . . and I will too! Somehow! I have now got into a sort o…
12.45 1.30 1.35. 1.55. 2.15. THE EQUINOX . for what could be done normally in 3) demands the whole attention. . Drifted into a nap. Welll we shall try what Brother Body really wants. My attempt to go to sleep has made me supernaturally wakeful. I am—as often before—in the state described by Paul (not my masseur; the other Paul I) in his Epistle to the Romans, cap. vii. v. 19. I shall arise and go forth. I have a good mind to try violent excitement of the Muladhara Cakkram ; for the whole Sushumna seems dead. This at the risk of being labelled a…
5.4. 5.30. 120 THE EQUINOX Mastery of the Reason), though it is commonly called 7°=4". It appeared to him at that period that so much talk and time were wasted on discussing the nature of the Attainment—a discussion foredoomed to failure, in the absence of all Knowledge, and in view of the Self- Contradictory Nature of the Reasoning Faculty, as applied to Metaphysics—that it would be wiser to drop the whole question, and concentrate on a simple Magical Progress. The Next Step for humanity in general was then “ the Knowledge and Conversation of …
THE EQUINOX 9.0. invincible Will ideas omniform, which flying forth 56 from that one Fountain issued: whose Foundation is One, One and Alone.” As therefore Discipline of whatever kind is only one way of going into a wood at midnight on Easter Eve and cutting the magic wand with a single blow of the magic knife, etc. etc. etc., we can regard the Western system as the essential one. Yet of course Pranayama, for one thing, has its own definite magical effect, apart from teaching the practitioner that he must last out those three seconds—those deadly…
7.29. 7-44- 8.0—- 8.20. 8.53. 10.40. 1 0.50. 11.13. 18 THE EQUINOX Woke and forced myself to rise. I had a number of rather pleasing dreams, as I seem to remember. But their content is gone from me; and, in the absence of the prophet Daniel, I shall let the matter slide. Pranayama. 13 cycles. Very tiring; I began to sweat. A mediocre performance. Breakfast. Hatha Yogi—a pear and two gau- frettes. Have been meditating :in Hanged Man position. Thought dull and wandering; yet once “ the concep- tion of the Glowing Fire" seen as a planet (perhaps M…
… important part of the record will be blank. Now I cannot tell whether it is a part of my personal Kamma, or whether the Influence of the Equinox of Autumn should be the exciting cause; but it has usually been at this part of the year that my best Results have occurred. It may be that the physical health induced by the summer in me, who dislike damp and chill, may bring forth as it were a flower the particular kind of Energy—Sammavayamo—Which gives alike the desire to perform more definitely and exclu- sively the Great Work, and the capacity to ac…
THE EQUINOX 11.15. Made also considerations concerning the Nature of the 1.5. 126 Path. The upshot is that it does not matter. Acquire full power of Concentration; the rest is only leather and prunella. Don’t worry; work! I shall now make a pantacle to aid the said faculty of concentration. The Voice 01 the Nadi (by the way) is resoundingwell, and the Chittam is a little better under control. Have worked well on the Pantacle, thinking of Adonai. Of course we are now reduced to a “low anthropo- morphic conception ”—but what odds ? Once the Right…
1.45. 2.5. 2.22. 128 THE EQUINOX utterable foulness; though both adultery and religion are themselves clean. To mix jam and mustard is a messy mistake. It also struck me that this Operation is (among other things) an attempt to prove the proposition : Reward is the direct and immediate consequence of Work. Of all the holy illuminated Men of God of my acquaintance, I am the only one that holds this opinion. But I think that this Record, when I have time to go through it, and stand at some distance, to get the per— spective, will be proved a conc…
12.37. 2.12. 3.4- 5.40. 98 THE EQUINOX Having learnt a few passages of a suitable nature to go to sleep upon, I will do so. . . . Now I hope that I shall; surely the Reaction of Nature against the Magical Will must be wearing down at last! I wake. It takes me a little while to shake off the dominion of sleep, very intense and bitter. Thus John St. John—for it is not convenient further to speak as “I"——-performed 45 Breath-cycles; for 20 minutes he had to struggle against the Root of the Powers of Sleep, and the obstruction of his left nostril. …
9. 20. 9.30- 11.17. 136 THE EQUINOX sion of their sum with the all, that transcends the deadly opposites ; change which implies decay,stability which spells monotony. I understand all the Psalms of Benediction; there is spontaneous praise, a fountain in my heart. The authors of the Psalms must have known something of this Illumination when they wrote them. It seems, too, that this Operation is transformed. I suppose it must read as a patchwork of most inhar- monious colour, a thing without continuityor cohesion. Το me, now, it appears from the …
11.14. 11.49. 110 THE EQUINOX The Vision of the Holy Guardian Angel itself; yet was He seen as from afar, not intimately. . . , Therefore is 0. M. not content with all this wonder; but will now orderly close the temple, that at the Beginning of the Tenth Day—and Ten are the Holy Sephiroth, the Emanations of the Crown ; Blessed be He! . . . He may make new considerations of this Operation whereby he may discover through what error he is thus betrayed again and again into failure. Failure. Failure. The Temple is closed. Now then, Ο Lord Adonai! L…
THE EQUINOX 9.0. Arrived at Pantheon, to breakfast on coffeeand brioche 36 and a peach. I shall try and describe Ritual DCLXXI ; since its nature is important to this great ceremony of initiation. Those who understand a little about the Path of the Wise may receive some hint of the method of operation of the L.V.X. And I think that a description will help me to collect myself for the proper adaptation of this Ritual to the purpose of Self-initiation. Oh, how soft is the air, and how serene the sky, to one who has passed through the black rule o…
10.0. ro.50. 40 THE EQUINOX R———d, my distaste for food was so intense that the smell of it caused real nausea. To-day, I am perfectly balanced, neither hungry nor nauseated. This is indeed more important than it seems ; it is a sure sign when one sees a person take up fads that he is under the black rule of Apophis. In the Kingdom of Osiris there is freedom and light. To-day I shall eat neither with the frank gluttony of Isis nor with the severe asceticism of Apophis. I shall eat as much and as little as I fancy; these violent means are no lon…
6.31. 6.52. 6,57. 7.25. 7-35- 106 ΤΗΕ EQUINOX Yet one can get the right stuff out of the Tarot (or other inconvenient method) by spiritualising away all the meaning, until the intuition pierces that blank wall of ignorance. Let O.M. meditate upon this Oracle on his way to feed John St. John‘s body—and thus feed his ownl Out, out, to feed! Trimming his beard in preparation for going out, he reflects that the deplorable tone (as one’s Dean would say) of the last entry is not the cry of the famished beast, but that of the over-driven slave "Adonai,…
9.10. 953- 10.14. 10.27. 122 THE EQUINOX bered at all. I have gone to bed, and shall take things in hand seriously, ifit kills me. Since 9.17 have done Pranayama, though allowing myself some irregularities in the way of occasional omission 01 a Kambhakham. ’Tis very hard to stick to it. I find myself, at the end of above sentence, automatically crawling into bed. No, John! Have been trying to extract some sense from that extraordinary treatise on mysticism, “ Konx Om Pax." Another failure, but an excusable one. I will now beseech Adonai as best …
1.32 THE EQUINOX . I read through this volume of the Record; and I dissolve my being into quintessential laughter. The entries are some of them so funny] . . . Pre- viously, this had escaped me. . And now the Rapture of it takes me! 1.25. The exquisite beauty of the women in the Restaurant 1127 1.30 3.17 11.15 138 . what John St. John would have called old hagsl . My soul is singing. . . my soul is singing! . It matters nothing what I do . . . everything goes infinitely, incredibly right ! “The Lord Adonai is about me as a Thunderbolt and as a P…
THE EQUINOX bone. I took also the magical knife, and the holy Anointing Oil of Abramelin the Mage. I began then quite casually by performing the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram, finding to my great joy and some surprise that the Pentagrams instantly formulated themselves, visible to the material eye as it were bars of shining blackness deeper than the night. I then consecrated myself to the Operation; cutting the Tonsure upon my head, a circle, as it were to admit the light of infinity: and cutting the cross of blood upon my breast, thus…
4.15. 540- 6.15. 7.20. 44 THE EQUINOX Somehow or other I have got off the track; have been fooling about with too many odd things, necessary as they may have been. I had better take a solid hour willing the Tryst with Adonai. Have done all this, and a Work of Kindness. I will again revise the new ritual, dine, return and copy it fair for use. Let Adonai the Lord oversee the Work, that it be per- fect, a sure link with Him, a certain and infallible Conjuration, and Spell, and Working of true Magick Art, that I may invoke Him with success wheneve…