224 The Diary of a Drug Fiend
either by means of Peter or the pains of the body, or
the sights and sounds of nature.
Nature.is under a curse because of sex, and so this
world is in the power of the Evil One. But I am chosen
to redeem it, and the Holy Spirit overshadows me and
sends angels to guard me. That is how we got rid of
the servants.
Peter suddenly attacked me. He got me down,
and put his knee on my chest, and tried to strangle
me. But the angel smote him suddenly, and all his
muscles relaxed and he rolled over.
His eyes were wide open, but I could only see the
whites. That is a sign that he is possessed by the
Devil, and that the angels are protecting me.
He has: fired two or three times, and now I see him
coming up from the lake. I must hide this book, and
then I will go to the garage, and hide till the morning.
Keletiel tells me that this is the critical night. I
will get into the big car under the sheet. He
won't look for me there, and the angels will be on the
watch.
It came out all right. I slept on the seat of the car.
I had a dreadful nightmare, and woke sweating all
over. Then I went to sleep again. I was with six
angels who carried me through the air to a place which
I mustn’t describe. It is a great and wonderful mystery.
It is awful and miraculously wonderful to be the
woman clothed with the sun. The sublimity of it
would have frightened me only a few weeks ago.. I
have been gently and wisely prepared for my exalted
position.
This vision initiated me into the most marvellous
secrets.
When I woke Keletiel came and told me that the
crisis was over. I was shivering with cold, and wefit
into the house for some heroin. That’s the only thing
that keeps one warm however hot the weather is.
This is because what keeps the body warm is the rush