THE EQUINOX
Expressible and inexpressible,
Founded and foundationless,
Consciousness and unconsciousness,
Reality and unreality.*
All these are vain attempts to obscure the devotee’s mind
into believing in that Origin he could in no way understand,
by piling up symbols of extravagant vastness. All, as with
the Qabalists, was based on Zero, all, save one thing, and this
one thing saved the mind of man from the fearful palsy of
doubt which had shaken to ruin his brave certainties, his
audacious hopes and his invincible resolutions. Man, slowly
through all his doubts, began to realize that if indeed all were
MAyéA, a matter of words, he at least existed. ‘I am,” he cried,
no longer, “I am it.” +
And with the isA Upanishad he whispered:
Into dense darkness he enters
Who has conceived becoming to be naught,
Into yet denser he
Who has conceived becoming to be aught.
Abandoning this limbo of Causality, just as the Buddhist
did at a later date, he tackled the practical problem “What am
I? To hell with God!”
The self is the basis for the validity of proof, and therefore is constituted
also before the validity of proof. And because it is thus formed it is impossible
to call it in question. For we may call a thing in question which comes up to us
from without, but not our own essential being. For ifa man calls it in question
yet is it his own essential being.
An integral part is here revealed in each of us which is a
reality, perhaps the only reality it is given us to know, and
* Taittirtya Brahmana, 2. 7. + Le, “ Existence is” 7m TWN Tn,
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