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will disgust you with yourself.
You will completely forget who
you are, what you are, and what you are doing.
A similar
phenomenon sometimeshappens when one is half awake in the morning,
and one cannot think what town one is living in.
The similarity of
these two things is rather significant.
It suggests that what is really
happening is that you are waking up from the sleep which men call
waking, the sleep Whose dreams are life.
There is another way to test one’s progress in this practice, and that
is by the character of the breaks.
Breaks are classed as follows:
E'rsz‘ly, physical sensations. These should have been overcome
by
Asana.
Secondly, breaks that seem to be dictated by events immediately pre-
ceding the meditation. Their activity becomes tremendous. Only by
this practice does one understand how much is really observed by the
senses without the mind becoming conscious of it.
Zsz'rdly, there is a class of breaks partaking of the nature of reverie
or “ day-dreams.” These are very insidious-one may go on for a long
time without realizing that one has wandered at all.
Fowl/21y, we get a very high class of break, which is a sort of
aberration of the control itself.
You think, “ How well I am doing it! ”
or perhaps that it would be rather a good idea if you were on a desert