Book 4 (Part I)

I4 your surroundings. You will say: “Good heavens! I must have been to sleep!” or else “What on earth was I meditating upon?” or even “What was I doing?” “Where am I?” “Who am I?” or a mere wordless bewilderment may daze you. This may alarm you, and your alarm will not be lessened when you come to full consciousness, and reflect that you have actually forgotten who you are and what you are doing! This is only one of many adventures that may come to you ; but it is one of the most typical. By this time your hours of meditation will fill most of the day, and you will probably be constantly having presenti- ments that something is about to happen. You may also be terrified with the idea that your brain may be giving way ; but you will have learnt the real symptoms of mental fatigue, and you will be careful to avoid them. They must be very carefully distinguished from idleness! At certain times you will feel as if there were a contest between the will and the mind; at other times you may feel as if they were in har- mony; but there is a third state, to be distinguished from the latter feeling. It is the certain sign of near success, the view-halloo. This is when the mind runs naturally towards the object chosen, not as if in obedience to the will of the owner of the mind, but as if directed by nothing at all, or by something impersonal,' as if it were falling by its own weight, and not being pushed down.