THE EQUINOX
vigilance wearied, and by my talk art thou befooled and
tricked, O thou that sayest that thou shalt endure. Knowest
thou how nigh thou art to destruction? For thou that art the
Scribe hast not the understanding
* that alone availeth against
Choronzon. And wert thou not protected by the Holy Names
of God and the circle, I would rush upon thee and tear thee.
For when I made myself like unto a beautiful woman, if thou
hadst come to me, I would have rotted thy body with the pox,
and thy liver with cancer, and I would have torn off thy
testicles with my teeth. And if I had seduced thy pride, and
thou hadst bidden me to come into the circle, I would have
trampled thee under foot, and for a thousand years shouldst
thou have been but one of the tape-worms that isinme. And
if I had seduced thy pity, and thou hadst poured one drop of
water without the circle, then would I have blasted thee with
flame. But I was not able to prevail against thee.
How beautiful are the shadows of the ripples of the sand!
Would God that I were dead.
For know that I am proud and revengeful and lascivious,
and I prate even as thou. For even as I walked among the
Sons of God, I heard it said that P. . . . could both will and
know, and might learn at length to dare, but that to keep
silence he should never learn. O thou that art so ready to
speak, so slow to watch, thou art delivered over unto my
power for this. And now one word was necessary unto me,
and I could not speak it. I behold the beauty of the earth in
* Originally, for “Understanding” was written “Power.” Choronzon was
always using some word that did not represent his thought, because there is no
proper link between his thought and speech. Note that he never seems able to
distinguish between the Frater and the Scribe, and addresses first one, then the
other, in the same sentence.
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