Confessions of Aleister Crowley

373 ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ the Record and await that Sign. ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ The next entry is dated Sunday, February 1st. Kindly read over the entry of Jan. 12th with care exceeding. Now then: On Friday, Jan. 30th, I went to Paris to buy pencils, Mandarin, a Palette, Napoleon Brandy, canvases and other appurtenances of the artist's dismal trade. I took occasion to call upon an old mistress of mine, Jane Chéron, concerning whom see The Equinox, vol. I, No. VI, "Three Poems". She has never had the slightest interest in occult matters and she has never done any work in her life, even of the needlework order. I had seen her once before since my escape from America, and she said she had something to show me, but I took no particular notice and she did not insist. My object in calling on this second occasion was multiple. I wanted to see the man with whom she was living, who had not yet {599} returned from Russia; I wanted to make love to her, and I wanted to smoke a few pipes of opium with her, she being a devotee of that great and terrible god. Consider now: The Work whereby I am a Magus began in Cairo (1904) with the discovery of the stele of Ankh-f-n-Khonsu, in which the principal object is the body of our Lady Nuith. It is reproduced in colours in The Equinox, Vol. I, No. VII. Jane Chéron has a copy of this book. On Friday afternoon, then, I was in her apartment. I had attained none of my objectives in calling on her and was about to depart. She detained me to show me this "something". She went and took a folded cloth from a drawer. "Shut your eyes," she said. When I opened them, they saw a cloth four feet or more in length, on which was a magnificent copy, mostly in appliqu‚ silk, of the stele. She then told me that in February 1979, she and her young man had gone to the south of France to get cured of the opium habit. In such cases insomnia is frequent. One night, however, he had gone to sleep and on waking in the morning found that she, wakeful, had drawn a copy of the stele on a great sheet of paper. It is very remarkable that so large a sheet of paper should have been at hand; also that they should have taken that special book on such a journey; but still more that she should have chosen that picture, nay, that she, who had never done anything of the sort before, should have done it at all. More yet, that she should have spent three months in making a permanent thing of it. Most of all, that she should have shown it to me at the very moment when I was awaiting an "unmistakable" sign. For observe, how closely the words of my entry of January 12th describe the Sign, "... the omnipresence of my body." And there She was --- in the last place in the world where one would have sought Her. ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ Note too, the ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ accuracy of the ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ "Yi King" symbol ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ for ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ is, of course the symbol of our Lady, and the God below Her in the stele ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ is ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ the sun. ÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜÜ All this is clear proof of the unspeakable power and wisdom of those who have sent me to proclaim the Law.