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It was part of my plan for The Equinox to prepare a final edition of the work of Dr. Dee an Sir 
Edward Kelly. I had a good many of the data and promised myself to complete them by studying the 
manuscripts in the Bodleian Library at Oxford --- which, incidentally, I did in the autumn --- but it 
struck me that it would be useful to get my large paintings of the four Elemental Watch Towers 
which I had made in Mexico. I thought these were probably in Boleskine. I decided to go up there for 
a fortnight or so. Incidentally, I had the conveniences for conferring upon Neuburg the degree of 
neophyte, he having passed brilliantly through his year as a probationer. 
I consequently asked him, and an Emmanuel man named Kenneth Ward, to come and stay with me. I 
had met Ward at Wastdale Head shortly before, having gone there to renew my ancient loves with 
the creeds of the gullies. It happened that Ward was very keen on skiing. I had several spare pairs 
and offered to give him some. This casual circumstance proved an essential part of the chain by 
which I was ultimately dragged behind the chariot of the Secret Chiefs. At least I thought it was a 
chain., I did not realize that steel of such exquisite temper might be beaten into a sword fit for the 
hand of a free man. 
To my annoyance I could not find the elemental Watch Towers anywhere in the house. I daresay I 
gave up looking rather easily. I had got into a state of disgusted indifference about such things. Rose 
might have destroyed them in a drunken fit, just as she might have pawned them if they had 
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possessed any commercial value. I shrugged my shoulders accordingly and gave up the search. The 
skis that I had promised Ward were not to be found any more than the Watch Towers. After putting 
Neuburg through this initiation1, we repaired to London. I had let the house and my tenant was 
coming in on the first of July. We had four days in which to amuse ourselves; and we let ourselves 
go for a thorough good time. Thus like a thunderbolt comes the incident of June 28th, thus 
described in my diary: 
Glory be to Nuit, Hadit, Ra-Hoor-Khuit in the highest! A little before midday I was impelled 
mysteriously (though exhausted by playing fives, billiards, etc. till nearly six this morning) to make 
a final search for the Elemental Tablets. And lo! when I had at last abandoned the search, I cast 
mine eyes upon a hole in the loft where were ski, etc., and there, O Holy, Holy, Holy! were not only 
all that I sought, but the manuscript of Liber Legis! 
The ground was completely cut away from under my feet. I remained for two whole days meditating 
on the situation --- in performing, in fact, a sort of supplementary Sammasati to that of 1905. 
Having the knack of it, I reached a very clear conclusion without too much difficulty. The essence of 
the situation was that the Secret Chiefs meant to hold me to my obligation. I understood that the 
disaster and misery of the last three years were due to my attempt to evade my duty. I surrendered 
unconditionally, as appears from the entry of July 1st. 
I once more solemnly renounced all that I have or am. On departing (at midnight from the topmost 
point of the hill which crowns my estate) instantly shone the moon, two days before her fullness, 
over the hills among the clouds. 
This record is couched in very general terms, but it was intended to cover the practical point of my 
resuming the task laid upon me in Cairo exactly as I might be directed to do by my superiors. 
Instantly my burden fell from my back. The long crucifixion of home life came to a crisis 
immediately on my return to London. At the same time every other inhibition was automatically 
removed. For the first time since the spring of 1904 I felt myself free to do my will. That, of course, 
was because I had at last understood what my will was. My aspiration to be the means of 
emancipating humanity was perfectly fulfilled. I had merely to establish in the world the Law which 
had been given me to proclaim: "... thou hast no right but to do thy will." Had I bent my energies 
from the first to proclaiming the Law of Thelema I should doubtless have found no obstacle in 
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