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I had been in fairly regular astral communication with Soror F., but I wanted to see her in the flesh 
and therefore called on her in Shanghai. On the sixth and seventh of April I explained the position to 
her, and went to stay with her on the ninth. The next twelve days we were constantly working 
together. The results of this work are so important that I must enter into them rather fully. It is 
significant of my eternal subconscious reaction against The Book of the Law that even when editing 
my diaries for Captain J. F. C. Fuller for "The Temple of Solomon the King", I deliberately omitted to 
pay any attention to them. The reference is meagre and vainglorious, and the promise to deal with 
them elsewhere has never been kept. It is evidently a dodge for avoiding the responsibility. 
A.'. in the presence of my Soror F. 
(The results of this and the next invocation were most brilliant and important. They revealed the 
Brother of A.'. A.'. who communicated in Egypt as the Controller of all this work.) 
The first result of my work with Soror F. was that immediately I told her of the work in Cairo, she 
said boldly and finally that she believed in the genuineness of the communication. I was infuriated. I 
believe my main object in going to see her had been to get encouragement in my revolt. I had 
carefully avoided telling her anything about it in the whole course of our astral interviews; but she 
insisted that we should study Liber Legis together. I had my copy with me. (It is very remarkable 
that the gods managed to look after me so that I am never in lack of anything that I 
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need for the performance of any particular work. My deliberate carelessness, my attempts to 
destroy things, are always quite useless. The gods always perform the necessary miracle to enable 
me to have at hand anything that may be necessary at the moment.) 
So my diary reads on April 18th: 
Studying Liber Legis. Decide to ask F. to invoke Aiwass and converse with Him when invoked, and 
thereby to decide on the quality of that Magick. 
On the twentieth, therefore, we went into her temple: 
Aiwass invoked appears, of brilliant blue as when she saw him as guardian of my sleep. He has 
followed me ever, wishing me to follow his cult. When P. took wand, he grows brilliant and breaks 
up into a formless light; yet she feels him as an enemy. He seems entangled in a mesh of light and 
to be trying to escape. I warn him that if he goes away, he cannot return. (F. in herself is hostile) 
"Return to Egypt, with different surroundings. (This misheard: he said same.) There I will give thee 
signs. Go with the S. W. (Ouarda), this is essential: thus you shall get real power, that of God, the 
only one worth having. Illumination shall come by means of power, pari passu. (Evidently my own 
transcript of her words.) Live in Egypt as you did before. Do not do a G. R. Go at once to Egypt; 
money troubles will be settled more easily than you think now. I will give you no guarantee of my 
truth." He then turned blue-black. "I am loath to part from you. Do not take F. I do not like the 
relations between you; break them off! If not you must follow other gods. Yet I would wish you to 
love physically, to make perfect the circle of your union. F. will not do so, therefore, she is useless. 
If she did, she would become useful. You have erred in showing her the true relation between you 
on spiritual planes. Having burst that, she will remain by her sense of power over you. (This might 
mean that her enjoyment of her power over me would induce her to continue working.) She is 
spiritually stronger than you. You should have dominated her by your superior strength on other 
planes. She will give you much trouble, though eventually she may become a great aid. But your 
shorter path lies by Egypt and S. W. (Ouarda) though she is not spiritually your equal. S. W. has 
been your enemy; but you have conquered, she is bound to aid you as your will. She has been your 
enemy and that of F. but you returned her hatred, hence her seeming power over you in the 
present. (Qy. this hearing.) (Qy. was F. hearing correctly) I will give you a sign when alone and away 
from present medium. You must recognize the sign by your own intuition. Do not 
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