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ancient Copts," replied Kelly and redoubled his aesthetic ardours. A long pause --- then she asked, 
"What does cryptic mean?" "The language spoken by the ancient Crypts," roared the rapin and 
abandoned hope of humanity. 
Another affectation of the women art students was to claim to be treated exactly as if they were 
men in every respect. Gerald, always eager to oblige, addressed one of his models as old fellow, to 
her great satisfaction. Then he excused himself for a momentary absence in the terms which he 
would have used to another man. On his return, the lady had recovered her "sex and character", and 
had bolted. Woman can only mix with men on equal terms when adopts his morality lock, stock and 
barrel, and ceases to set an extravagant artificial value on her animal functions. The most high-
principled woman (alleged) insists on the supreme value of an asset which is notoriously of no value 
whatever in itself. 
The Star and the Garter deals frankly with this problem, among others. As far as sexual charm is 
concerned, it is only reasonable to expect the expert to be more satisfactory than the new chum; 
and even, class for class, the professional than the amateur. The desire for exclusive possession is 
one of the most idiotic and bestial pieces of vanity in human psychology. But love can exist between 
man and woman entirely independent of any sexual relations between them. The condition of this 
love is that both parties should have completely mastered their sexual natures; for otherwise their 
mutual relations are not free to love decently until they have analysed themselves completely and 
swept away ever\ trace of mystery from sex; and this means the acquisition of a profound 
philosophical theory based on wide reading of anthropology and enlightened practice. 
My travels had doubtless done much to open my eyes. I had already studied the characteristics of 
fifty-seven separate races, a number which I subsequently increased to eighty or ninety, when it 
became difficult to define the word "race". My ethnological results are not particularly striking; but 
the course of the research certainly helped to make it clear that no proposition could be judged as 
right or wrong, or even as true or false. It is always possible to derive a point of view from the 
circumstances of its holder. 
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The wildest dreams of Kew are the facts of Khatmandu, 
And the crimes of Clapham chaste in Martaban. 
Every conceivable moral principle is held somewhere by somebody; and it is the ineluctable 
conclusion from that somebody's premisses. His circumstances are unique; and so are his hereditary 
tendencies, his environment, his training and the character of his mental processes. Whether we 
hold free will or determinism, we equally ratify every type of opinion and conduct. 
I had not at this time consciously reached this freedom. I was still a romantic, still seeking true 
love. Observe a curious analogy to the time when I invoked the adepts, and one actually by my side; 
so now, invoking true love, there lurked unsuspected in my circle the woman destined to satisfy my 
aspirations; and just as in aspiring to the Path of the Wise I had not realized the nature of that 
Path, so also I did not understand what the words true love might mean. 
True love with black inchauntments filled, 
....Its hellish rout of shrieks and groans, 
Its vials of poison death-distilled, 
....Its rattling chains and skeletons. 
I made comparatively few notes of this period --- November 1902 to April 1903. It seems rather 
strange that I should have been able to get such an epitome of life into so short a period; at least I 
reached old age. I went back to Boleskine almost as a ghost might retire to his tomb at cock-crow. 
In May I wrote a very clear r‚sum‚ of my progress. It will be as well to quote it. 
In the year 1899 I came to Boleskine House and put everything in order with the object of carrying 
out the Operation of Abra-Melin the Mage.