John St. John

11.15. JOHN ST. JOHN 3. “The Bornless One.” [See the “ Goetia.”—ED. 4. The Calls I—VI with the Rituals of the five Grades. [From Dr. Dee‘s and the G. '. D. '. MSS.—ED.] 5. Invocation of Thoth. 6. (No: I will not use the New Ritual, not will I discuss the matter.) An impromptu invoca- tion of Adonai. 7. Closing formulae. Το work, then ! The ceremony went well enough; the forces invoked came readily and visibly; Thoth in particularas friendly as ever—I fancy He takes this record as a compliment to Him—He’s welcome to it, poor God! The L.V.X. came, too; but not enough to pierce the awful shroud of darkness that by my folly I have woven for myself. So at the end I found myself on the floor, so like Rodin’s Cruche Cassée Danaide girl as never was . . . As I ought to have been in the beginning] Well, one thing I got (again !), that is, that when all is said and done, I am that I am, and all these thoughts of mine, angels and devils both, are only fleeting moods of me. The one true self of me is Adonai. Simple! Yet I cannot remain in that simplicity. I got this “revelation” through the Egyptian plane, a partial illumination of the reason. It has cleared up the mind; but alas! the mind is still there. This is the strength and weakness both of the Egyptian plane, 87