John St. John

Ι 2.43. 1.25. 76 THE EQUINOX Knowledge and Conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel is only to be performed when the Magus has rowed himself completely out; in the language of the Tarot, when the Magus has become the Fool. But for my faith in the Ritual DCLXXI. I should be at the end of my spells. Well? We shall see in the upshot. I really almost begin to believe IT will happen. For I lay down quite free of worry or anxiety (hugging myself, as it were), perfectly sure of Him in the simple non-assertive way that a child is sure of its mother, in a state of pleased expectancy, my thoughts quite suppressed in an intent listening, as it were for the noise of the wind of His chariot, as it were for the rustle of His wings. ᾽ For 10! through the heaven of Nu He rideth in His chariot—soon, soon He will be here! Into this state of listening come certain curious things ——-formless flittings, I know not What. Also, what I used to call “ telephone—cross" voices—voices of strange people saying quite absurd commonplace things—— " Here, let’s feel it ! " “What about lunch ? " “ 50 I said to him: Did you . . and so on; just as if one were overhearing a conversation in a railway carriage. I beheld also Khephra, the Beetle God, the Glory of Midnight. But let me compose myself again to sleep, as did the child Samuel. If He should choose to come, He can easily awaken me.