John St. John

THE EQUINOX 8.30. On the contrary, to use the spiritual forces to secure 68 health, as certain persons attempt to do to-day, is the vilest black magic, This is one of the numerous reasons for supposing that Jesus Christ was a Brother of the Left—Hand Path. Now my body has been treating me well, waking nicely at convenient hours, sleeping at suitable times, keeping itself to itself . . . an admirable body. Then why shouldn’t I take it out and give it the best dinner Lavenue can serve? . . . Provided that it doesn’t stop saying that mantra! It would be so easy to trick myself into the belief that I had attained! It would be so easy to starve myself until there was " visions about”! It would be so easy to write a sun-splendid tale of Adonai my Lord and my lover, so as to convince the world and myself that I had found Him! With my poetic genius, could I not outwrite St. f—John (my namesake) and Mrs. Dr. Anna Bonus Kingsford? Yea, I could deceive myself if I did not train and fortify my scepticism at every point. That is the great usefulness of this record; one will be able to see afterwards whether there is any trace of poetic or otherinfluence. But this is my sheet—anchor: I cannot write a lie, either in poetry or about magic. These are the serious things that constitute my per- sonality; and I could more easily blow out my brains than write a poem which I did not feel. The apparent exception is in case of irony. [P.S. I wonder whether it would be possible to draw up a mathematical table, showing curves of food (and